Thread 33629802

I have never romantically connected with anyone and have lost all hope of being loved . All my friends are fake af and I barely talk to my family. I unironically believe everyone is dead and it's so hard to be the only one alive. Sometimes I think if I was dead(which I have attempted several times already) I won't even know this world and the people in it ever existed so it's all in my head anyways. I fucked my life so bad what now?

>>33629802 (OP)
You are but a step away to discovering that only unlimited, unconditional and eternal love stems, not from people, but God

>>33629802 (OP)
I like crypto, documentaries, tea, cookies, juggling, learning languages, i wanna get into hacky sack more. I barely talk to anyone for years and have no strong connections, but honestly the more secure I get the less I care. It is nice to have conversation about things and meals together with people, even vapidly.

>>33629822
this

>>33629822
If there exists a god then it is an asshole

>>33629822
OP here
Yes that god is me. Cause if I don't exist neither do any of you(for me atleast)

>>33629853
From personal experience, i never had any friends, women hate me out of instinct, and i also proclaimed myself incel for a long time out of hatred. By embracing what i was from what i wasn't, a pitiful spec and a terrible sinner whom God offers a new life, i could change for the better, i no longer care if i am hated, i just want to do good in the world, if the world hates me i am even more happy since i immitate Jesus Christ.
If God exist, he is not the author of evil, he permits it, for undeserved suffering makes good character, if it doesn't break us we become more robust, we become better people, who will forward these trials to others. If God exists he gave, and if he exists he takes away, but always appreciate what you have now.

Hey OP, I’m really sorry you going through that. It sounds like you might be struggling with depression. I actually don’t have any friends or romantic interests currently and it’s been like that for awhile. The best thing I did to work through my loneliness and mental health was therapy. Sometimes it’s just really relieving to get an opinion from a person that’s not personally or emotionally involved in the situation at all. Also learn to find comfort in doing things alone and the friendships will follow. If you don’t have any hobbies just throw yourself into some stuff and see what you like. There’s tons of events and meet up groups on FB for pretty much any hobby you can think of. I go to a LGBTQ gun range lesson every other week and I live in the most conservative state in America. Any niche interest you have, I promise there is others out there that are interested too. Volunteering for a cause that’s special to you is also a great way to meet like-minded people. Putting yourself out there is tough, but you’ve just gotta rip the band-aid off and try new things.

Also not sure if you’re an adult, but once you get into the adult world age is just a number in terms of friendship. I’m in my 20s and was friends with a woman that was 86. We both love politics and reading so we would have dinner and just talk about that for hours. She passed recently unfortunately but was an awesome friend! My best friend was also 12 years older than me, but we had similar hobbies so we always had a blast together. Get into your hobbies and you’ll find some great friends.