Thread 33644368

I'm not even ready to explain any context.
I'm just alone and spiraling out.
This should pass in some hours, but it can get worse.

>>33644368 (OP)
>wants to talk
>wont say what about
k

>>33644370
Thank you for responding.

It just feels existential.
Everything feels impossible.
It's too much, but I can't reach out to anyone.
I'm too dissociated to know up from down.
Everything is built on lies.

>>33644373
Sixth grade was hard for me too

>>33644383
I appreciate the empathy, but I'm not in any grade of anything at all.
I haven't been doing anything or working anywhere for years.

Have you ever played Minesweeper? Shit is fun. https://minesweeper.online/

>>33644398
Yeah, I have. Never seen this particular website though.

>>33644368 (OP)
Idk if you're new to talking/conversations but usually you start with saying something of substance that people can respond to.

>>33644410
Yeah, that makes a lot of sense.

But I barely managed to force myself to write anything at all.
I'm ceasing to function.

And I am indeed kind of inexperienced with conversations, yes.

>>33644416
Again, you want to speak to someone about something specific or you wouldn't have made this thread yet you're not saying what it is?

Are you fucking retarded or something?

>>33644429
I'm kind of retarded, yeah. Not normal, at least.

But you're already helping me a bit by just engaging.
I can't make myself think or talk about anything specific. I'm sorry.

>>33644368 (OP)
Any show you've seen recently? or just talk about a show you really like. I've been watching Three Kingdoms for a while now.

>>33644443
I've been watching "Better Call Saul" with my friend. The writing on it is genius in many ways, but I can see how some may dislike it.

I don't know what "Three Kingdoms" is, but thank you for sharing.

There are things I like a lot, but I'm afraid to talk about them, I can't afford to argue or to be judged right now.

why do you think you are unstable?

>>33644457
Because that's how I call this state of mind. Something tiny has triggered me, and now the fragile system of dissociation that's been keeping me alive is crumbling.

>>33644443
You can tell me about your show though.

>>33644368 (OP)
When's the last time you've eaten, drank water, and bathed yourself? If you're feeling unstable and it's been too long without any of those things, I suggest you address that.

>>33644477
Yeah, maybe I should drink some water. And taking a shower would also be a good idea.

Thank you for the suggestions, but I can't guarantee that I will follow them.

what do you think actually happened to you?

did the doctor tell you anything about your retardation?

>>33644480
Too hard a question, sorry.

>>33644482
Yes, but I don't really believe in psychiatry or these categories. I don't think it's helping.

I know I'm acting weird, but I mean no disrespect.

I feel strange too

>>33644502
In a bad way?

i don't know

>>33644512
I doubt it's a good feeling then.

...

Well, thanks to everyone who replied.
I will probably leave now.

good luck

>>33644368 (OP)
Sorry if I'm late, still spiraling?

>>33644455
Better Call Saul is great, I've seen it a couple of times by myself and with my siblings.
>>33644469
Three Kingdoms is a Chinese historical about an era of war and deception where great characters emerged from those troublesome times. It takes place right after the yellow turban rebellion. It has issues with acting and battle presentation, but it's still fun because of all the great characters like Cao Cao and the three brothers. It's not faithful to the source material from what I've heard, so /his/ wouldn't like it, probably. Fights are pretty cool, though.