Thread 33644796

>be me
>socially inept neet
>meet a guy online
>he likes thing, I like thing
>start talking
>fall HARD
>start obsessing
>stalk his socials
>find his address
>memorize his routine so I know when to text him
>start doing love spells on him
>drool over pictures of him all day
>ignore every red flag
>try to be just like him so he loves me more
>start planning our wedding
>start looking at plane ticket prices
>spam him when he ignores me
>”Who are you talking to? Do you hate me?”
>scare him off
>get mad
>stalk him more
>make new accounts to watch him after he blocks me
>goon to his posts
>goon harder if he’s scared of me
>remember he hates me and get mad again
>hex him
>cut myself
>bulimia returns
>be depressed for a few weeks
>”Oh? New guy?”
>repeat forever

What the fuck is actually wrong with me

>>33644796 (OP)
You're not dating people, you're getting off to the idea of dating an idealized version of them. Then throw in the social ineptitude, being a neet, a dash of mental ilness and 50 layers of fujoshi porn addled gooning and you arrive at the absolute state of your post. I get that online relationships aren't the best in regards to gauging where the other person is at in the relationship but you're pretty much just doing your own thing by yourself while you scare the shit out of the other person.
Stop romanticizing your shitty antisocial and self-destructive behaviors. Unironically get a job, find some real friends and come back to reality.

>>33644796 (OP)
I used to like obsessive girls like you, but when I finally got one myself I find you girls weird and annoying.
Just let the man be, he deserves time alone.

>>33644796 (OP)
Where can I meet a girl like you? U european?

>>33646967
almost sure is not a girl, no neet guy would turn down a neet girl, which almost don't exist.
prolly he told him that he's not a girl, and that's why he ghosted him, it's the right thing to do honestly.

im a neet girl and not OP. what happened to the narrative that women get paid 4 to 8 percent less for the SAME work bc of laziness? besides moids lie about how low their standards afe. talking bout sydney is mid smfh

>>33646997
He didn't turned her down you dumbo. Girls wanted extreme attention even if they fucked up your life where they are the spotlight they wanted those.

I'm not hating on them but they forgot what they and their partner has talked about with plans. Sometimes girl be bitching and interrupting plans out of mood swings. You start wondering if its worth it. It's just that two of you can't get shit done together.

>>33644796 (OP)
>>spam him when he ignores me
>bulimia returns
>ignore every red flag

My take here is different than anyone else. You're ignoring the problem between you and him that's why every guy you liked and "potentially" liked you back then lose interest after quite some time.

just because you two mutually liked the same stuff means he likes you as a person. Also spamming them while not responding back is already a red flag how he's not interested. You're gooning to a person who doesn't do the same to you.

You should find someone more like you but judging by your post you seem to be fat. Even if you're unattractive irl or not, can you at least not be a fat turd? If you're going to be depressed and suicidal at least go starve to death or when depressed, a person should lose appetite to eat not the other way around.

There's nothing wrong about you but finding the wrong person is what makes this whole thing wrong.

god i wish i were him
also, excellent choice of image

>>33644796 (OP)
You should immediately know something is wrong when you fall super hard for someone that quickly. My diagnosis is that you are lonely and needy, so you try to find any excuse to fall for someone because you desperately want to be freed and enter that mythical age in your life where you will actually be happy and fulfilled.
(In case you couldn't tell, I'm speaking from experience, except it only took me once to correct for my behavior.)

You've got it easier because you're a woman, since you might get lucky and find some guy that will look past your obsessiveness in order to get his dick wet, but in general, you just need to not be autistic, measure your expectations, and slowly try dudes out for a bit before making a determination on how you feel about them.
...Or you can loop for another 10 cycles until you give up and wake up as a 40 year old cat-lady.
Your choice, queen.

Okay, kinda mixed responses here… I’ll just answer ur questions all in one go so I don’t have to reply to every one lmao

1. I AM fat, that’s why I purge. My goal weight rn is around 120lbs, I’m 5’6 so I think that’s a good place to shoot for? I wanna see my ribs

2. I’m American, but of German and Irish descent<3 glad to know there’s at least one freak out there who’d like me

3. Funny thing is, the guy in question was flirting with me super hardcore. Like, openly admitting to gooning to me hardcore. He asked me out on a lil online date, and blocked me THE NEXT FUCKING MORNING? Any girl would be upset by that, I think. He got his dumbass friend to tell me I was creeping him out. Tbh, I think she was just trying to keep him to herself. Selfish bitch.

4. Yes I’m a girl, you moid - breaking news, not every woman on the internet is a sweaty, greasy 40 year old man.

5. I’ve decided to distance myself from him, and instead distract myself by doing something at least a little productive. I made a bunch of bracelets today while binging Hannibal, and I actually wasn’t thinking about him for once. I did end up checking his socials a couple times, though, but I resisted the urge to dm him. That’s a start right?

Update #2 I just had a breakdown and cried for an hour because I miss him I HATE THAT BITCH FOR STEALING HIM FROM ME. She put all those thoughts in his head that he didn’t need me, he needs me - he can’t function without me. All he does is cry about his fictional boyfriend and watch gore all day. He’ll see. He’ll see that he needs me. Give him a little longer he’ll be begging on his hands and knees. That selfish whore can’t keep my baby from me forever

>>33644796 (OP)
Borderline personality disorder.

>>33648578
Change in diagnosis:
You cray-cray.

Am I at least a cute cray-cray anon? I won’t stalk u I prommy

>be me
>literally just forget to ask if what I'm feeling or doing is retarded
>accidentally get into a fucked up situation 'cause I'm retarded
How could this happen?!

>>33648171
>My goal weight rn is around 120lbs
So what's your actual weight?

I assume its double that but you said "goal" and whatever that goal is it seems possible since you spoke it up yourself like you can do it so its like not double but somewhere in between.

>I’m 5’6 so I think that’s a good place to shoot for?
that's the normal body type weight since ancient human civilization when no fat people existed.

You're not an AI but you type like one with those dashes - what the fuck? Why westerns type like this.

>>33644796 (OP)
Learn from your past mistakes and don’t repeat them.
Also why would a guy want to date himself unless he’s really sick.

>>33649557
So, I’d rather not disclose my actual weight atm - mostly because it’ll be even more shocking when I finally get to post my gorgeous transformation pics, but I will say I’m definitely out of shape ;>.> I used to be tiny a few years ago when I was hyperfocused on it, but the smallest I’ve been has never gone under 190… it’s disgusting, I know. I look like a fucking tub of lard right now, and it’s so bad that I have to wait for the mirrors to fog up before I shower, or I’ll start crying and cut myself again. I broke my fast today, unfortunately, but I’m gonna start setting punishments for myself so I get it under control. I’m sleeping on my floor tonight because of what I did today.

As for why I type like this - I don’t know. I just do (´ε｀ )

I have a wl thread going on /fit/ right now, if you want it.

Ps. I use Satou in my reaction pics because she’s my ultimate goal. I wanna be super small like her, with itty bitty legs and cute perky boobs

>>33648906
Anyone who takes personality traits from Satou is cute.

>>33653165
Awweee anonnnn<3 that made my night, honestly. Thank you!!! Mwah (*´︶`*)