Thread 33651026

my rapist transferred to my school. it happened when i was an ashamed autistic 14 year old girl. i have no evidence.

he has wealthy parents so he went to this private school. it was perfect. i never had to see him again. i could put it all behind me.

ive finally made friends. im joining clubs. ive always gotten good grades but now it seems like they matter and maybe i do too.
but hes ruined everything for no reason at all. my ptsd is getting really bad. i cant go a day without crying. i might have to leave everything ive worked so hard for.

i live in the middle of nowhere. my school is the only public one in the district to offer ib courses. i need that for my dream of going into international relations.
my familys well off but not like his. i dont want to be a burden and make my parents take out a loan on some boarding school all because i cant muster the strength to face him.

what do i do? where do i go from here?
i feel so filthy.

start wearing a chastity belt i guess

>>33651026 (OP)
Get a strong boyfriend to btfo him.

>>33651166
sounds like a joke but this would help, a guy that used to beat me when I was little transferred to my class from another class and I was anxious and having mini panic attacks all the time, one friend asked me why that was and I told him and he beat the fuck out of him outside the school a couple times (yes, it took more than once lol) and he because a joke in my eyes, I even ended up fighting him after a while.
I mean it might not be the same with sexual assault but seeing him humiliated gives you back a lot of control when you see him.

>>33651026 (OP)
>what do i do? where do i go from here?
Shoud have spoken up

here the only option is to move to another place, or all you can do is avoid him. it's horrible, good luck!

>>33651026 (OP)
>what do i do? where do i go from here?
Can you still report him? You should have done that when it happened, now it's kind of 10x hard, and it will only get harder if you ignore it. That's why we should deal with shit that comes our way as soon as it happens, because avoiding it and pushing with our bellies will only derail everything and make a small problem grow into a giant one

but you need to talk about it

>>33651339
bullshit

>>33651339
no one would believe me. he's popular, a baseball prodigy. all his friends would humiliate me and I'd be a sick liar looking for attention.

>>33651026 (OP)
do your parents know about this? if no, you should tell them. if they do, tell them hes now near you and you feel reqlly fucking uncomfortable about that. maybe they could understand you and find you a therapist or sum.

Speak to your school counsellor and see what they can do, he might get moved or arrested, but that's his problem not yours.

>>33651026 (OP)
Go to the counselor and tell them this stuff. You don't need to prove shit, you're a minor and that's enough to trust you.

Is the other guy still a minor? Did it happen when he was a minor? Anyways, you gotta talk about this thing with authorities, you can't let it shape your life, specially since you're stuck in school for many formative years.

>>33651026 (OP)
Rape him with a strapon.

>>33651393
all the counselor could do was move me out of classes with him. hes just a year older than me. hes in grade 12. id only have to be in his presence for a year. but i already have flashbacks everyday and now its even worse.

>>33652118
youre funny. if i could like this, i would.

>>33652512
Well it's not like you can't make any moves.

If you want to go the greatest length to put him away, report him to any institution possible, you're a real victim of child sexual abuse, go to the NCMEC or whatever institution deals with that in your country and make the report regardless of outcome. At the very least you can put him on a watchlist and he'll get fucked over years down the line for being a shitter.

Now you can't do anything about your past. TONS of women live with that, don't let that shit define you. Start going to therapy, and try hard to get that out of your headspace while you're still young. Reinforce your self esteem, self-determination, independence, and anything that leads you to being assertive, making your own decisions and pursuing your personal happiness. It's a painful path that needs a lot of acknowledgement rather than avoidance you know.

>>33652697
thank you. i wasnt expecting a lot of sympathy on a website like this. i just was really desperate to get if off my chest i guess. You're a really good person. Don't let the world take that away from you