>>33836004 (OP)
it's hard, but I'm getting better at accepting it. Many of my qualities and habits were given at birth, just like location, family and time where you start. (meaning I can't change it, it's permanent) You can only do so much, and sure, "reach for the stars follow your dreams" etc, but they never tell you how many failed where 1 succeeded. History swallows up the losers, and in time even the winners.
I don't want to bang my head against the wall 100 times and try again the 101th time, overall speaking. If I don't like something I don't do it, I won't be forced to marry a busted hag just to have a downie son. There is freedom in this thinking, accepting not following norms. There are billions of average joe normies, why is it a crime to be something different? Don't have to be a blue haired tranny for that, just don't drink alcohol like water or something.
It was considered cool to be different decades ago, but for some reason today it isn't. Is it low global IQ, the internet's doing, or jewish tricks again? I just know I'd be unhappy living a pretend-life.
The anon reading this must ruminate these things by himself, no one else can do it for you. Which is more important, what compromises can you live with, and the likes.