>>33840542 (OP)
hey, I don't even have the guts to see a hooker. I was married before though, but now I'm past the point of getting any more women, and even the one night stands I had gotten were hollow experiences (although a blowjob from one of them was peak, made me coom in seconds).
That said, don't listen to the aggressive incels here saying to just man up. It's a shitty climate out there and women are more unloyal than ever. Even the relatively good ones are only until you get sick or make an oopsie etc. Consider traveling outside of that countryside, see more of the world, investigate ways to make yourself look better (if you're balding, just shave it off or own your look with confidence, if you're short, act like a king, etc) and it'll be a good step, and you'll boost your confidence. Talk to women, flirt with them, have some practice, just try a variety of things and see what helps. Probably you don't really want to bother with a woman, because the sex alone isn't worth it, and there's little more modern women can offer, so once you get it out of your system, you'll be able to advance to the next stage of your life, into a higher plane of existence.
