Thread 33846809

It's been almost two months since I moved to this city because I had to study at uni.
My main problem is that I struggle with having social interactions, but at the same time I yearn for having someone to share my time with. My voice tembles, I get really awkward while meeting someone new, etc.

Halloween is coming soon and I have no one to celebrate it with, not even a single person I cant talk to. Medication is making some good effects on me, but socialization is still a big problem.

I thought that maybe cosplaying for and hungin up with people on Halloween would be a nice idea to get out of this depression and monotony, but I see everyone and feel like I have no place there.

What should I do? It'd be patheitc if I cosplay and stay at my home, as I always do

>>33846809 (OP)
So, I think it would be a good idea to dress up and go to a party and try to meet people
Also, dressing up at home isn't pathetic so long as you give out candy. That's what I do, I dress like Elvis and hand out candy to children because I'm old

>>33846809 (OP)
Just get wasted, dress up and go to a club event or something and dance. Thats what I'm gonna do even if i have to force myself

>>33846809 (OP)
Halloween is a decent holiday for an introvert/lonely guy/social anxiety dude because you can just dress up and walk around and ride the train etc and (assuming you wear a good costume) people will walk up to you and say you got a great costume, ask to take pics with you, etc.

or you can stay in character (whatever it might be) and just be completely silent, but so many people who have trouble with social interactions for whatever reasons love halloween and also cosplay and costumes in general because they feel like they can be someone else, be the person they wish they were.

>>33846854
I get really nervous by being alone and surrounded people

>>33846854
I get really nervous by being alone and surrounded by lots of people

>>33846855
nta
and im in the same boat as OP
you have no idea how much id like to do all of that but im really gone for society now, i think.
i spent too much time in tranquility, serenity and peace (alone) so that hearing others yapp :V :V :V makes me physicaly ill/nauseous and rapidly tired.
im the type of rare entity that you do not dare to speak to irl (you only have uninspired ideas and answers). you get "invited" by me to speak, so that i may lend you my ear and give some very direct and very honest advice on some matter if you prove yourself worthy of my time.
i know i know, this sounds very arrogant and perhaps a little ignoble/narcissistic, but there arent many actual soulful lofty beings (on the planeT left) that can comprehend what i ramble about. its rather sad too
also i dont do any drugs anymore; alcohol makes me suicidal rather depressed, the herbs completely disable me and i stopped smoking half a year ago.

last week i overheard a conversation between 2 normie grandmas and they only yapped about how much their daughters earned and what kind of work they do.
thats the most boring topic there is. work and money.

why not discuss the properties of salt as in why does salt keep ghosts or demons at bay? why does specific ash poured around your bed reveal footprints of unbidden guests at night?
how come every star is a different life form, some estimated that every star on the firmament is an angel?
what about the odd effects of focus or concentration on stars?
what about human design errors?
do electrons have sentience and free will as in the reason the amish wont use electricity?
how would native gaians go on and reconnect with their mother via their heart chakra as oftenly depicted by icons of Christ?
but no, keep yappin about who has more snakes on sticks
sry for rambling

>>33847409
sure, we can talk! what you are saying is very interesting but i have to admit that i barely know anything about it. i've been reading a bit of Steiner lately and i'm up to learn everything that catches my attention, and esoteric practiques/christianism are two of them.
also, english is not my first language and as you can tell, i can make mistakes while typing...

anyways, here is my discord if you want to add me: sero_o0
also, thanks for your message

>>33847539
>Steiner lately and i'm up to learn everything that catches my attention, and esoteric practiques/christianism
very nice, same same.
yeah steiner is pretty good start but the deep end rabbitholers say hes not ideal (whyever) and, i must say that hearing his works is pretty demanding too. after 2 or 3 hours of focusing on lets say the topic of https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-5G83pOyEOI , i lose concentration. also his profound practises seem impossible in this stanic accelerated world, especially if one is broke and has no money and unsteady health.
>esl
same
>discord
sorry i dont have discord (https://www.dict.cc/?s=discord)
not only do i not have it in metaphysical sense, nor do i agree to the selling of private data.
plus im b& there, because my isp changes my (public) ip and they are blacklisted. sometimes i cant even watch yt videos...

>>33846809 (OP)
Look around town and online (Google "Halloween events [city]") for Halloween parties open to the public and bars/clubs having party nights.

>>33846809 (OP)
Almost in the same position, I'm back at school as an older student. I noticed few people are social and the ones who are mainly talk to other people from they have another class with.
I haven't done it in a decade but I figured out I'd go alone to a local event or two if no one has plans. I haven't overheard anyone talk about Halloween. A few weeks ago I figured out a costume and just need to cut my hair. I might as well enter a costume contest since a few places are holding them.

Almost in the same position, I'm back at school as an older student. I noticed few people are social and the ones who are mainly talk to other people they have another class with.
I haven't done it in a decade but I figured out I'd go alone to a local event or two if no one has plans. I haven't overheard anyone talk about Halloween. A few weeks ago I figured out a costume and just need to cut my hair. I might as well enter a costume contest since a few places are holding them. It would be great to meet a few women.

>>33853375
>I haven't done it in a decade but I figured out I'd go alone to a local event or two if no one has plans
You don't get awkward by going to a place where you dont know anyone?

>>33853747
Maybe, but some alcohol and a good costume might help break the ice with others. It's a city event down over a few blocks, there's going to be hundreds if not over a thousand people there.

>>33847409
>hearing others yapp :V :V :V makes me physicaly ill/nauseous and rapidly tired.
whuh, actually?
do you struggle w/ coming up with responses or whaa? this is pretty interesting to see (but also sad). i get pretty drained after talking to normies but that's just because i struggle with figuring out how to relate/respond to them
overthinking it also makes me tired
basically, social skills are fugged
>thats the most boring topic there is
people run out of things to talk to eachother about (but still enjoy eachother's companies). to them, it must be a nice feeling
>why does salt keep ghosts or demons at bay? why does specific ash poured around your bed reveal footprints of unbidden guests at night?
normies aren't extreme enough spiritually to believe stuff like that anon ;') my granma is pretty paranoid tho...
>>33854289
>hundreds if not over a thousand people there.
sounds like a nightmare, you'll just get picked up by the most drunk and loud peeps ever if they're confident enough to approach a loner

>>33854818
>whuh, actually?
yeah unfortunately so. 1 on 1 conversations are 99% ok, i almost lose no energy if it is with the right being.
additionally, i made some modifications to my thorus field and chacras to better read other people minds, some may call that telepathy. but it seems that i made myself vulnerable to almost all thought influences around me, draining my energy very rapidly. the more crowded an area is the more tired i get.
>do you struggle w/ coming up with responses or whaa?
uh no. i just dont like repeating every 3rd word like a parrot and explaining every 2nd concept to them, just because they are incapable of listening/following/thought and have no idea where the F they are and what the ordeal is.

>>33854818
forgot to adress the rest
>people run out of things to talk to eachother about
well, then these people themselves, boring
it would take me years of constant speech to run out of things to talk about, with the right being of course.
>normies aren't extreme enough spiritually to believe stuff like that anon ;')
i have no business with normies anon
>believe
also im not about believing, but knowing. the age of belief and doubt is over, now is the age of knowing (aquarius)
>my granma is pretty paranoid tho
your grandma is cautious and a wise lady, probably. you would do good to talk and listen to her more often, it would seem.