>>33856715 (OP)
Trust me anon it's not great unless you fantasize with a hot loyal 10/10 girl that masturbates to you and loves you in secret.
I had a chick confessing her love to me out of fucking nowhere while I was drinking a flavor drink back in college, she openly admitted that she got wet by seeing me sweat (I used to do a lot of exercise back then) and that she filmed me by far away and literally masturbated to the videos she took of me with her phone, after that she asked me if I had a gf and then asked me to be her bf.
See, I never saw this chick in my life, not even once. She didn't even told me her name right there, but still didn't want to hurt her so I politely told her I could not date a girl I met 5 minutes ago.
After that she went crazy and started to spread rumours that I raped her and started fabricating evidence that I "harass" women at college.
Then there was another girl that literally stole my clothes to "smell them" (I just know she was fingering to those) and started sending me pics of the exterior of my house and details about my family members. She confessed multiple times to me but again politely declined because she was kind of insane.
It's not cool anon, it's not great and sadly all experiences of women confessing to me first or knowing they like me tend to be fucked up in an annoying and creepy way.
If it makes you insecure try to workout and look good, if you have an ugly face and you are fat, trust me, it gets better, but girls care a lot about your mental strength, you could be buffed but if you are insecure it's not gonna get better, looking good helps a lot, healthy body, healthy mind.
You could try locking in and workout and maybe attempt therapy if you can afford it.