Biology Brainwashing Me??
I've been firmly in the child-free camp since I was young, but was also just never that interested in dating, only ending up in relationships due to circumstance where someone else I vibe with pursues me and I a few times ended up agreeing to give it a try.
A few years ago though I met a guy, we clicked, and now that we've been together for a few years and live together and our relationship still feels more perfect than I realized was possible, I've noticed my brain playing tricks on me.
Now I've always had a breeding fetish, but I always assumed that was because I'm a trans guy and was never that into the idea of sex in the first place, so the breeding fetish was a way for my brain to make sense of libido or something in some weird way.
So my boyfriend and I have never really talked about if we'd want kids, because we both assumed it wouldn't happen and didn't have a problem with that.
But now my dumb biology is occasionally hijacking my brain to tell me
>ok but what if
and the idea of getting actually pregnant is increasingly able to get me horny, when in the past I would only get horny from doijinshi and stuff where the whole thing is fiction.
Will I have to put up with my brain doing this to me for the next decade? I'm only 30, so there's still time to go.
Maybe if I went back on T it might help, but I already pass, and I'm uninsured right now and living in a new place, so getting back on T might be expensive and a pain.
Should I mention these thoughts to my bf? I don't want to give him the wrong idea, but since I don't even know what I think myself it's hard to decide what the right idea to give him even is.
A few years ago though I met a guy, we clicked, and now that we've been together for a few years and live together and our relationship still feels more perfect than I realized was possible, I've noticed my brain playing tricks on me.
Now I've always had a breeding fetish, but I always assumed that was because I'm a trans guy and was never that into the idea of sex in the first place, so the breeding fetish was a way for my brain to make sense of libido or something in some weird way.
So my boyfriend and I have never really talked about if we'd want kids, because we both assumed it wouldn't happen and didn't have a problem with that.
But now my dumb biology is occasionally hijacking my brain to tell me
>ok but what if
and the idea of getting actually pregnant is increasingly able to get me horny, when in the past I would only get horny from doijinshi and stuff where the whole thing is fiction.
Will I have to put up with my brain doing this to me for the next decade? I'm only 30, so there's still time to go.
Maybe if I went back on T it might help, but I already pass, and I'm uninsured right now and living in a new place, so getting back on T might be expensive and a pain.
Should I mention these thoughts to my bf? I don't want to give him the wrong idea, but since I don't even know what I think myself it's hard to decide what the right idea to give him even is.
