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We went to different elementary schools and met during sport every week. He and I had so much fun together and later went to the same high school together. I was shy and quiet, overwhelmed by the feelings I had for him. My friend tried to set us up and eventually we had a "trial" for two weeks to get to know each other and if it went well we would be boyfriend and girlfriend. Everything went well, I came out of my shell and he was amazed. I never felt so accepted in my life. He even protected me from a few obsessed guys that I wanted nothing to do with.

One problem was that my parents were contacted by a matchmaker and talked to the family of the other guy and obliged me to marry him. He would come to the high school while me and, well, my boy would hang out in library during that time. My boy confronted him and fought him. My parents scolded me to let that matchmaker guy come and talk to me. I did not want to talk to him but I needed to listen to my parents. One day while the matchmaker guy wanted to apologise to me and he held my hand to make his apology then he slipped a ring on my finger. My boy saw that and he became very angry at me and ran the matchmaker guy out of the library with a few hits.

My boy said some very strong words to me and I was very hurt. I panicked, I asked his ex-girlfriend and her friends for advice. I wrote him a letter which he dismissed, he thought that I wrote whatever they told me so I wrote a letter in front of him explaining that my parents were obliging me because of the matchmaker and the agreement with that guy's family. My boy was embarrassed and ashamed for his words and behaviour at me. He soon apologised and we would make love in the study room and the girls toilet. Funny thing was me and friend put makeup on him to sneak him into the girl's toilet.

I later asked for advice from his ex-girlfriend and her friends. I wanted to be sure that we would be girlfriend and boyfriend in the long term.

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They told me to make him jealous and flirt with other guys. I did that, when he became annoyed, I thought I was doing it wrong so I would touch them on the arms. They lifted their shirts up and I touched them on the stomach. I thought that would do it and he told me that I was the worst. I thought I was doing it wrong and told him I am going with them. He just dismissed me coldly.
I was worried and he told he wanted to have a break from the drama. I went back to his ex-girlfriend and her friends for advice.

Her and one friend of hers told me that he likes “orgies”, I was
very nervous. I just wanted to get him back and do anything. I forced myself to do it with them in the library and when he found out he didn’t want to know me. I thought I followed the advice wrong and they told me to do it again because he was playing hard. I was frightened and forced myself again, he didn’t even want to look at me anymore.

The girls laughed at me for not doing it right. I told the other guys that I am not doing that anymore, they showed me their bits when I walked by and one day they sexually assaulted me in the library. They did it to me every day, I was so frightened. I was so naïve it hurts. The boy would go to his friend’s house, he gave him lots of MDMA and he forgot all about me. He cried for me.

Later, those boys forced me into prostitution and continued to sexually abuse me at my house or theirs. They knew people and blackmailed my family. My parents forced me to marry guy from the matchmaker. I now have three kids with him. I have become nothing.

I still love my boy and have been trying to get out of this situation. He saw me a few months ago with my… husband and daughter. My… husband tried to intimidate him but he walked away very quickly. My boy dismissed me as some ugly old woman until I showed my heart on my face and he remembered me. He was going to cry for me.

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My family regrets the matchmaking and the misery it caused me. They know he made me smile, no-one else did. We still talk about him. I just hope he understands that those girls hated me, they were jealous of us and I still love him after all this time.

I dont know what to do any more, he probably thinks I am old and disgusting.

Sorry for the long message. You see, I don’t want to tell the story with my reddit account.

Thank you.