Thread 33916920

My mom can never admit when she is wrong and I've never been able to stand her. As soon as I became an adult I moved to another country to get away from her but we do call ocassionally (out of pity because she does worry about me)

At some point during our call today she started making negative comments and I told her she is proving me right by choosing to keep distance and she told me ''oh, maybe when you come back I won't be here anymore'' implying she could be dead, I called her out on her shitty comment so she decided to gaslight me and tell me ''oh, I meant I could be travelling somewhere else and not be there once you come back''

The gaslighting was really strong and longlasting I can see myself visibly developing split personalities when some time i feel nothing but utter disgust for her while other times I wish my mom was different

Hey as someone with a bpd parent and bpd myself the most helpful thing i was told is that she loves you, but she does not know how to show that love properly. If you find yourself showing signs of bpd, best thing to do is get treatment and develop coping signs as soon as possible. She probably feels useless because you are an independent now and no one relies on her making her feel abandoned and shes taking that out on you, thats not your responsibility

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>>33916920 (OP)
Don't listen to that retard. BPDemons are robots, hollowed out husks that maybe were humans in the past. They literally, intentionally want you to suffer. The inner "logic" is basically "I'm suffering, so I have to show you how much I love you by making you suffer as much I do! Making you suffer is so important!" It's basically a zombie cult like something out of a horror movie. You have to accept that your mother will never be a real mother. She's just a child-abusing robot.

>>33917108
Regardless of the mechanism, this anon is correct, bpd is an incurable abuse machine.