I MIGHT know what's wrong with me
>have people leave me over the years due to my awkwardness
>sometimes I'd fuck up by being too extreme like in high school but in the end I'd have a friend group
>began respecting myself more and found myself more lonely than in groups because I've seen people trying to disrespect me and not in a friendly way where we come up with nicknames and tease ourselves with them but non-stop straight up slander
>university comes, manage to get a friend group
>mostly quiet and when I try to say something people usually have a neutral face, not really smiling, just saying "mhm", I just know I'm not cut out for this
>due to my paranoia I've become very skeptical of them, without their notice I hear them shittalk me behind my back
>try to shake it off, give them another chance but it just comes back
>mfw I'm weird because I was more interested in western media than I was in my own country because they are vastly superior
>mfw I have nothing to talk about with other people and don't get the references they are making
do I become a fucking hermit now or what, I know full well I am weird and I'm not trying to be a normie but holy fuck I hate being lonely sometimes. However being alone is better than in a bad company
>sometimes I'd fuck up by being too extreme like in high school but in the end I'd have a friend group
>began respecting myself more and found myself more lonely than in groups because I've seen people trying to disrespect me and not in a friendly way where we come up with nicknames and tease ourselves with them but non-stop straight up slander
>university comes, manage to get a friend group
>mostly quiet and when I try to say something people usually have a neutral face, not really smiling, just saying "mhm", I just know I'm not cut out for this
>due to my paranoia I've become very skeptical of them, without their notice I hear them shittalk me behind my back
>try to shake it off, give them another chance but it just comes back
>mfw I'm weird because I was more interested in western media than I was in my own country because they are vastly superior
>mfw I have nothing to talk about with other people and don't get the references they are making
do I become a fucking hermit now or what, I know full well I am weird and I'm not trying to be a normie but holy fuck I hate being lonely sometimes. However being alone is better than in a bad company