Thread 33921108

i feel self conscious about basically being a walking contradiction to what other people expect.

i'm a dude 31 years old. i'm bald and have lean muscularity. i'm straight but i'm expressive, and genuine, and enjoy talking and getting to know people and ask them questions about themselves. i also talk in a higher register (like in my mouth/nose rather than in my chest or throat). a lot of the time people, namely gay men, think i'm gay. women have also though i was gay for not being basically creepy and instead respecting their boundaries.

i love to dance. when i'm out dancing at a club or venue, more often than not someone will ask me what drugs i'm on or how many drinks i had. they won't believe me when i tell them i'm not on anything. and i don't take anything, i don't like to drink, take psych drugs, or smoke. i'm fighting a weed addiction of 5 years so i'm 2 months clean at this point.

my girlfriend has been mentioning that her friends are in disbelief that i'm with her, since i don't drink or smoke and she likes to smoke weed and drink sometimes, and take shrooms sometimes.

not gonna lie i feel a sense of frustration. like i'm the odd one out for being myself in society? like it's so weird that i don't do drugs when actually most people need drugs to get thru life and bear the world? i've been through shit as a kid that would make some people kill themselves, and it just makes me think that all these people are weak that they NEED drugs or alcohol to bear existence.

what are you supposed to think when you're the odd one out? it also feels like my gf and i have different philosophies on drug usage. i like being sober and it is frustrating having people project this shit on me

>>33921108 (OP)
You're overthinking. The only things that matter in life are:
>Are you gainfully employed?
>Are you working towards your goals?
If yes to both, absolutely nothing else matters. Nothing.

what contradiction? you’re a relatively healthy man that happens to be bald and sounds a little gay.

i don’t take any of that crap either and when i did to see what the hype was about (alcohol and weed) i hated it. in fact i felt angry i participated, felt like i betrayed myself in what i always knew; that the morons around me must be so fucking empty and retarded that they need this crap to feel alive. i have also been through some shit and didn’t need drugs or whatever to get through it. wooow i must be the strongest person alive…. all it took was some patience and resilience.

i wish i had stronger convictions about how most people are trying to drag eachother down to their level. but i was raised to “give the benefit of the doubt” and “walk a mile in other peoples’ shoes” but it turns out 99% of peoples problems are self-inflicted and/or they deal with genuine brain damage.

>>33921108 (OP)
> i'm fighting a weed addiction of 5 years so i'm 2 months clean at this point.
> i don't do drugs when actually most people need drugs
You drug addicts are so weirdly lacking in self-awareness. Sounds like you are jealous because other people can enjoy themselves without losing control like you. On plebbit often there's drug addicts like you on "positive" subreddits, a selfie with: "I haven't done drugs in 2 hours, give me validation!"
You are overly defensive and angry, it seems like unhealed shame and trauma from childhood? You're attitude is weirdly controlling and reactive.
>>33921353
Kek, what's your problem? You are so Strongk and "resilient", yet so fragile you are filled with contempt that other people enjoy things that you don't.
I mean genuine advice, you need to look within and heal instead of getting carried away projecting your shame and wounded pride and insecurity raining vicious uncalled for contempt on others.