Thread 33922262

>be me, 40 year old NEET
>dropped out of HS at 17 because bullied
>spent next 20+ years rotting in room
>mom got me cashier job, had panic attack after a week and quit
>got diagnosed aspie, took IQ test expecting 160+, got 121
>met "girl" on IRC, fell in love, dated for a year
>she finally tells me she's trans
>sperg out and call her a pervert, block her
>regret it ever since, was happiest year of my life
>mom gets cancer, hire caretaker because too busy gaming and cooming
>develop weird fetishes, become alcoholic
>mom dies when I'm 31
>drink myself into liver failure
>uncle pays for rehab, get sober
>try to get job at 35, interviewer literally laughs at me for 30 seconds
>give up forever
>now 40, never kissed a girl, cry every day
>mfw I threw away my only chance at love
>mfw wasted entire life

Any advice?

>met "girl" on IRC, fell in love, dated for a year
>she finally tells me she's trans
>sperg out and call her a pervert, block her
geeeeeeeeeeeeeg

A tranny hiding behind a computer screen on IRC is not a love connection; that's a mentally ill man who crossdresses, inserts things into his anus, probably drinks piss, and may or may not be a real threat to himself and others - nevermind his tendencies for self sabotage and mutilation. The only reason you miss him is because you're suffering from your own form of mental illness.

My advice is to start doing drugs. All of them. But most of all PEDs. Get yourself a cock enlargement surgery. Enroll in the navy seals traing course. And then study how to become a serial killer. Become someone dangerous.

Failing that, what will you do otherwise? Probably relapse drinking. Probably lose all masculine honor and dignity by fucking a tranny. Honestly, identifying as a NEET is a retard move - 121 IQ seems to be correct. Stop this degenerate behavior.