I’m pretty self aware about this and I stop myself from doing anything too retarded or corny, but as the subject says, I’m basically a self aware attention whore

It’s only gotten worse as I’ve gotten older and more isolated socially, I have like 3 (kinda) irl friends, 2 I don’t really enjoy that much but as you can imagine any attention is good so I keep them around, and the other one is probably only my friend cause we share physical intimacy and such.

But either way these 3 people are the only constant social interactions I look forward too and I barely see any of them, I feel horrible trying to go to new places to find attention or validation, usually when I’m not seeing anyone I just use dating websites but I just don’t feel comfortable doing that now, I’m not trying to see other people.

I just really can’t think of anything, I’m a massive shut in and I struggle in public settings, literally one of the reasons I’m friends with one of my 3 friends is cause I stalked them online cause they randomly complimented me so I found them and became their friend.

I’m also a fresh high school graduate so I feel like that might add some better background, I’m not in any schools at the moment, and I barely work, just to fulfill my needs and no one at my work is anything like me.

Anyway, I’m just trying to find ways to meet people to make connections that I can get attention from in a somewhat healthy way, or just share your thoughts I don’t care