Thread 5010846 - /an/

Anonymous
7/2/2025, 10:45:33 PM No.5010846
I'm never truly gone
I'm never truly gone
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How often do you think about your departed pets?
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Anonymous
7/2/2025, 10:47:38 PM No.5010848
not as often anymore, not as painful anymore
Anonymous
7/2/2025, 10:56:47 PM No.5010855
>>5010846 (OP)
I think of them often. I miss them a lot. I wish I could've done better by them.
Anonymous
7/3/2025, 12:13:34 AM No.5010890
>>5010846 (OP)
Every day. When does it get easier, dudes?
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Anonymous
7/3/2025, 1:22:15 AM No.5010909
My dead dog haunts me. I don't mean it in a bad way though. When I'm feeling very alone at night she'll come cuddle with me and be in my dreams.
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Anonymous
7/3/2025, 1:39:22 AM No.5010912
>>5010846 (OP)
Pretty regularly. Not constantly, days can go by. But I get reminded of them and I think about them and even get to talk about them with family who knew them.

>>5010890
It'll always hurt. You just get better at dealing with it.
Anonymous
7/3/2025, 2:31:46 AM No.5010923
>>5010846 (OP)
very rarely, unlike some deceased relatives
Anonymous
7/3/2025, 6:45:50 AM No.5010966
>>5010846 (OP)
I had a lovebird as what was essentially a sibling for 25 years. 10 years later I keep waking up thinking he needs help or I forgot to give him food or water just. I don't know if it gets better but I haven't had a pet since.
Anonymous
7/3/2025, 8:52:12 AM No.5010991
>the dreams

countless dreams
is it just me
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CD97_cAnb4o&list=RDCD97_cAnb4o&start_radio=1
this song man, this song
songs to cry to pls
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Anonymous
7/3/2025, 9:13:54 AM No.5010994
>>5010846 (OP)
>departed
they dead bro
Anonymous
7/3/2025, 9:18:37 AM No.5010995
99 percent of the tears I've cried in my adult life were when I lost my two dogs less than a month apart from each other.
I don't cry, I've lost blood relatives I loved and didn't shed a tear. I'm not saying that to sound tough, I'm a genuine pussy. But it's just not how I naturally react to things for whatever reason.
Losing those two, though. Ugly crying. Full body crying, man.
It hurt every day for three years. In year four now, and I still think about them every day, but the memories aren't painful anymore. I can even smile thinking about them.
You don't have to hold on to pain just to hold on to memories, I'm slowly learning that.
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Anonymous
7/3/2025, 3:21:18 PM No.5011046
My cat was the only creature that ever trusted me implicitly with no ulterior motive or expectation of reward, and the only individual I never got any bad vibe from. I will never forget her, and light a candle for her every year until I die.
Anonymous
7/3/2025, 4:46:33 PM No.5011074
>>5010991
Here's mine
https://music.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLJEOAQwzD0wok-jHyisSvGsErEqX_a4Wd&si=SE0WE7kAylIbi5NN
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Anonymous
7/3/2025, 8:17:33 PM No.5011140
for me it's
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85RoDQyZpoA

>>5010995
it took me around half a year until I wasn't crying once every week or two, it's painful
Anonymous
7/3/2025, 10:05:29 PM No.5011174
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I don't really understand your attitude about dead pets. All that matters is if the animal was happy. Now that it's dead your feelings for it don't matter anymore.
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Anonymous
7/4/2025, 2:36:10 AM No.5011389
Every fucking day.
Sometimes i resent missing my black cat boy so much.
Lost my boy at under 2 years old.
All u guys upset after having more years with your kot are lucky; i'm jealous and makes me want mine back 4 longer.

Brought an expensive bare root rose and buried him underneath after the ground thawed this spring.
Gonna get a new kot soon.
Not enthused.
Though i'm telling people the opposite.

No kittie can replace my boi
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Anonymous
7/4/2025, 3:48:28 AM No.5011412
>>5010846 (OP)
My family had a somewhat small American Wirehair that lived to 19, my next older sibling a big fat neighborhood-domineering one that would make himself in the homes of neighbors from time to time, and lolll on the sidewalks without concern at passersby. Fairly often about those two.
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Anonymous
7/4/2025, 4:15:27 AM No.5011423
>>5011412
*there a certain big orange feral one in my neighborhood I see almost every day, and do that winky thing with. I call him Shitler for making certain excavations in my garden areas, but enjoy seeing him around.
Anonymous
7/4/2025, 6:19:11 AM No.5011449
>>5010846 (OP)
(gonna be lengthy and gonna be venty but i dont care i'm a wreck)

I actually lost my best friend and childhood pet a few days ago. I was with her when she died in my mom's arms and I'll never forget it. She was a toy poodle. She still looked like a puppy, even though she was 12 and would've been 13 this November. I've had her longer than I haven't had her.

We've been crying and hurting so much these past few days and my heart is in shambles. We had her cremated this morning, and that's when it really hit that she was truly gone. These past few days have genuinely been the worst of my life.

It fucking hurts a lot. I can't envision living the rest of my life without her. I don't know how to live the rest of my life without her. No other animal could replace my girl.

I miss you so much, babygirl. I've never been religious, but I so badly want there to be a heaven or some kind of afterlife, just so I can see you again.
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Anonymous
7/4/2025, 8:08:50 AM No.5011475
>>5010846 (OP)
Every day, especially since she used to sleep right at my feet under my computer desk that I use for work and shitposting on 4chin.
Anonymous
7/4/2025, 3:03:42 PM No.5011542
>>5011449
Anonymous
7/4/2025, 3:04:44 PM No.5011543
>>5011449
I hope you recover mentally anons.
Anonymous
7/4/2025, 3:15:03 PM No.5011545
Lost mine the other day, everytime I come back home I assume he's coming to greet me, but then I realize it's just his memories
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Anonymous
7/4/2025, 10:49:43 PM No.5011691
>>5010846 (OP)
At least weekly, even ones that died 10+ years ago. My first dog from when I was a kid I still keep his dog tag on my keychain. His name was Happy and he was a very good boy.
You never stop missing them, but you know the time you spent with them is worth the pain of having to say goodbye. Otherwise we'd stop getting pets, but I have two young dogs right now and I'm fully aware how much it's going to break my heart when they go, but again, it's worth it. If anything it helps me live in the moment and better appreciate them while they're here.
Anonymous
7/4/2025, 11:32:28 PM No.5011707
>>5011545
Same. My cat died on wednesday and it hurts opening the door. I just want to hear his paws patting over with his meow.
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Anonymous
7/5/2025, 1:00:16 AM No.5011733
Not often. When a cat dies we get a new one pretty quick. So theres not a lot of time to feel like theres something missing.
Anonymous
7/5/2025, 1:00:58 AM No.5011734
my cat died 9 years ago and I still think about her every single day
Anonymous
7/5/2025, 1:16:08 AM No.5011737
yaaa
yaaa
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A lot.
The family cat. My hamsters. Even my shrimp and insects. All of them gone, now.
I'm so fucking lonely, i have nothing left to care for, and i haven't been in the mood to take on something new.
Anonymous
7/5/2025, 1:20:21 AM No.5011738
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>>5011449
>babygirl
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Anonymous
7/5/2025, 9:02:32 AM No.5011867
>>5011707
Sorry for your loss. I'm sure they're prolly in a good place.
Are you considering getting a new one?
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Anonymous
7/5/2025, 9:23:20 AM No.5011871
>>5010846 (OP)
I had two pets in my life. A little chihuahua/terrier mix who got abandoned and I took in because I didn't want to see him run over, BEGGED my mom to let me keep him. Dusty was my best friend and helped me through some tough times in my life. Little dude knew when I was hurting from my first breakup, he knew when I needed comfort. I'll never forget him. Similar story nearly two decades later, a fat wild cat with too much hair. I saw her creeping on my patio to escape the elements. She ran anytime I opened the door to go to my car or take the trash out. I started leaving a water dish and some cat kibble out for her. It took weeks but I finally got to pet her and another month or so to come inside. Another month or two to get her in a cat carrier to get her to the vet. Dusty died to, what I can only assume is old age, he was mostly blind and would let out these little silent farts that smelled so bad. Kunicat had a random seizure right in front of me and died before I could get her to the vet.

I still think about them both a lot. I miss them and I wish I could have taken better care of them both, especially Kunicat. I hope they know I loved them as much as they loved me. I always tell myself I should visit a shelter and find a friend to bring home, but I'm not in the best place in terms of money or my own mental health right now.
Anonymous
7/5/2025, 2:03:50 PM No.5011918
My family and I are haunted by the ghost of Jerry the Goldfish. Like all ghosts, I'm sure he has some unfinished business but no one can figure out what it is so now we just ignore him.
Anonymous
7/6/2025, 4:23:22 AM No.5012174
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My sweet Annabelle...

I just want to hold you again...
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Anonymous
7/8/2025, 8:46:38 AM No.5013181
>>5011867
No. Not for a while.
Anonymous
7/8/2025, 10:54:22 AM No.5013200
>>5010846 (OP)
Daily all I think about the dog I still have is how much I'll suffer when she's gone and I know it won't be long as she has a strange condition
Anonymous
7/8/2025, 11:37:19 AM No.5013210
>>5010846 (OP)
I had a dream about my family's dog we had to put down a few years ago just last night.
Anonymous
7/8/2025, 10:49:36 PM No.5013626
>>5010909
I hope this will happen to me
Anonymous
7/8/2025, 10:51:51 PM No.5013627
>>5011174
They do matter because they don't go away. There's an impression they leave on your soul that never leaves.
Anonymous
7/8/2025, 10:53:21 PM No.5013629
Lol never. I'm kind to animals, but I never elevate them to people levels.
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Anonymous
7/8/2025, 11:12:09 PM No.5013642
I just lost my friend not even a hour or so ago. He was sick, he was told he would only have 10 years to live but he lasted for 12. His body just gave out and he was suffering, he was there for me when I had no one and he loved me unconditionally. He couldn't absorb food anymore and I fought so hard I kept fighting and fighting and I couldn't save him.
It hurts, it hurts so much to the point I can't cry anymore but somehow tears keep coming out no matter how much it hurts.
I love you buddy, I always will my tuxedo cat.
You lived
And you will live on with me.
Anonymous
7/9/2025, 12:13:56 AM No.5013670
>>5012174
Just one last time, just one more day...
Anonymous
7/9/2025, 12:19:20 AM No.5013676
>>5013629
Grieving for a dead friend isn't elevating them to people levels. What kind of stupid goycuckery is this?
Anonymous
7/9/2025, 12:50:59 AM No.5013684
No one fruly departs from this reality. Our atoms remain hrre forever
Anonymous
7/9/2025, 6:29:46 AM No.5013808
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>>5012174
Zanzibart... Forgive me
Anonymous
7/12/2025, 6:19:56 PM No.5015346
>>5010846 (OP)
I mentally wish them goodnight everyday as I get in bad.
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Anonymous
7/12/2025, 6:20:56 PM No.5015347
>>5015346
*in bed
Anonymous
7/12/2025, 7:54:38 PM No.5015390
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I lost my first pet cat ever a few months ago. I try to remember the good parts, to drown out the last few days that are etched in my memory.


He was always sickly for being a wild cat but I had hoped we would have gotten better soon. Kidney obstruction is terrible for male cats, he had FLUTD so it was doubly terrible.
Anonymous
7/13/2025, 11:37:13 PM No.5015841
>>5011074
KOMM SUSSER TOD MENTIONED
Anonymous
7/13/2025, 11:40:41 PM No.5015843
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>>5012174
my sweet sweet sugie
Anonymous
7/14/2025, 12:05:29 AM No.5015850
I don't think about them often, but the other day I was going through some screenshots of threads that I liked, and I ran across one where an anon had found a sick kitten the night of some holiday. Because of that, everything was closed and he asked for advice on keeping it alive until it could be taken in. However, a few hours into his thread he freaked out, because the kitten started gurgling and flailing its paws before succumbing.
I don't know why I saved it, but I look at it sometimes and think about it, and I pray that this anon is doing okay now.
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 2:10:35 PM No.5017328
Hollow
Hollow
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My cat was sick and my mom took her to the vet to get her looked at, and she would be put down that very visit. I was never told this, I never got to say goodbye, didn't even know it was a possibility.
I didn't even know it happened. It wasn't until days later when I saw a vase of flowers on the kitchen table, and I happened to ask where they came from and what they're for, and was told they were from my mom's friend for the passing of the cat. That's how I found out about it, and my mom said she thought I knew and just didn't want to talk about it, thinking I would notice that her food dish wasn't on the floor anymore.
I never got to say goodbye, weigh in on our choices/options, or anything like that and it tears me apart inside just thinking about it, even typing this makes me sob.
My mom apologized to me, but I couldn't even bring myself to accept it or do anything resembling the sort, I would just stand there quietly before walking away. Its something truly unforgivable that I think I will hold onto forever.
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Anonymous
7/16/2025, 3:37:55 PM No.5017341
>>5010846 (OP)

I have had so many pets, yet it's my cat Pierror that haunts me to the most. I miss him so badly
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 4:30:51 PM No.5017352
>>5017328
Thats fucked up. But its not...uncommon.

The way I found out our dog was getting put down was when the vets showed up at the door to do the deed.
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 4:38:31 PM No.5017354
>>5017328
During the pandemic, his husbandโ€™s mom saw that their healthy for her age, 17 year old cat had leaked a bit of pee outside of the litter box and decided to take her the vet to put her down because she didnโ€™t want to deal with that.

Didnโ€™t even stay or let him stay to be with her when they did it, just told them to call her when sheโ€™s gone, and to throw away the ashes.

She is genuinely an example of BPD, got legit mad at me once for having a cup of juice with dinner, threatening to kick me out for being so shameless. When I heard that, it made me want to stay with our cats to the every end if it came down to euthanizing them after trying everything to make them feel better. My mother in law hated that I cared too much about the cats.
Replies: >>5017374
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 4:49:24 PM No.5017356
>>5010846 (OP)
Such a sweet, but sad imageโ€ฆ
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 5:26:54 PM No.5017374
>>5017328
>>5017354
Most people don't actually value cats that much. they're seen as disposable pets like hamsters and fish.
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 6:31:57 PM No.5017393
Animals (except parrots) live shorter lives than us so we have an opportunity to rescue multiple in our lifetime. It took me a while to get over my first cats but eventually I got another. I don't regret it, but I will never forget the first.
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:32:20 PM No.5017430
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>>5010846 (OP)
Every. Single. Day.
She was my first dog and I wish I could stop missing her so hard. It's been like 4 years and I still want Penny back.
Replies: >>5017432 >>5017435
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:33:58 PM No.5017432
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>>5017430
Big dumb lump.
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Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:37:23 PM No.5017434
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>>5017432
I'd never had a dog before. 9 years wasn't nearly enough.
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Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:39:20 PM No.5017435
>>5017430
>>5017432
>>5017434
Looks like a sweetheart anon
How did you adopt her?
Replies: >>5017439
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:41:24 PM No.5017437
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>>5017434
Name: Penny
Responds to: Idiot
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:45:13 PM No.5017439
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>>5017435
My wife is a sucker for sob stories. She saw the face on one of her iPhone whatevers. I resisted, but here we are now. A damn decade later.

Meanwhile, her awful shitty kitties are going strong with no end in sight.
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Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:48:36 PM No.5017442
>>5017439
Chill dog. I'm sure you gave her a great life.
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Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:49:34 PM No.5017445
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>>5017439
But she got a painting of Penny as a ballerina.
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:53:49 PM No.5017448
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>>5017442
I hope so. It just wasn't enough for me.
Yet that asshole dog from upstairs continues on and will probably outlive all of us. No justice.
Replies: >>5017456
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 7:59:33 PM No.5017456
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>>5017448
Replies: >>5017462
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 8:04:07 PM No.5017462
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>>5017456
Also responded to HEY STANKY!
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 8:04:09 PM No.5017463
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>>5011389
Your right, no cat can replace him. I'm an old fag, have lost 4 cats to old age. I lost my girls two years ago.

No one can replace them, but kittens can help heal. I still see them in my dreams. When I do, I know I'm dreaming. I hold them to my chest and cry, wishing I wouldn't wake up.
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Anonymous
7/16/2025, 9:15:44 PM No.5017508
>>5011174
Holy consoomer
Just consume new product and forget the old, right?
Same mindset
Anonymous
7/16/2025, 10:10:21 PM No.5017528
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>>5017463
It's not about replacing, fellow oldfag. I've found that repurposing that lump of loss in your chest to make it an impetus helps.
This is Cleo. Any time I'm missing Penny, we go out and just have best dog day.
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Anonymous
7/16/2025, 11:48:56 PM No.5017610
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>>5017528
One more.
Had a massive inoperable tumor that fucked with her heartbeat. Healthy and unstoppable for 9 years.
We called a guy who'd put her to sleep in house. It was in her bed and her light went out in my arms.
The dude loaded her up with barbituates and I will never forget the sigh she gave when all the pain was gone. Eye contact.
She said goodbye but I don't know if I can.
Anonymous
7/18/2025, 10:47:00 PM No.5018757
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When my cat died I immediately felt gutted, but also relieved.
For years she'd been lethargic and antisocial. She wouldn't spend time with me, she'd just yell for food, and once she got it she'd fuck off.
Sometimes she'd be nice, other times not, but she always seemed depressed.

I felt terrible all the time, knowing I wanted her to have a good life. The vet couldn't find anything wrong. I told myself she was just a crotchety old lady. I wanted her to be happy but she didn't care anymore.

When she died, it felt horrible, but it was also the lightest I'd felt in a long time. To know she was no longer unhappy. She looked content. Tired, and finally sleeping.

I love you puss. I wish your life could have been better. I'll always remember the early years when all we had was each other.
Anonymous
7/19/2025, 11:25:08 PM No.5019423
>>5011738
NTA but you made me laugh while I was already on the verge of tears, thank you
Anonymous
7/20/2025, 1:46:16 AM No.5019497
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>>5010846 (OP)
When I'm in a blue mood, all the regrets weigh on me. Over the span of my shitty childhood, there were a bunch of animals I just couldn't properly take care of, such as a bunch of geckos my oldest brother just dumped on me to take care of when he moved out mere months after buying them. I tried, but they were clearly not thriving, and when they eventually got sick and died young, I felt so guilty since my brother only got the stupid idea to buy them because I had asked for two bearded dragons and he enjoyed crafting the interiors for their terrarium.
Likewise, I had previously rescued an escapee budgie on my way home from elementary school, and that budgie had the most miserable life living in the living room where my insane, autistic mother watched TV at all times. She eventually tore out all of her feathers from stress, and I blame myself for having brought her in. We had some rodents, too, more often miserable than not.
My bearded dragons were relatively low-maintenance, one died young at 8 years from progressing myasthenia which explained why he'd always seemed klutzy from the start, the other died at 12 or so. My dearest pet was an African giant snail an acquaintance grew tired of weeks after buying it, it seemed content for the 8 years we've had together until it just stopped eating and literally fell apart from one day to the next.

My whole family is dysfunctional and cursed, I still have crippling untreated ptsd (at 27) from abuse, and I refuse to get any pet unless I can ensure its happiness and health.
Anonymous
7/20/2025, 1:48:24 AM No.5019499
https://www.thedodo.com/9-touching-epitaphs-ancient-gr-589550486.html

Some things never change.
Anonymous
7/20/2025, 2:27:26 AM No.5019515
>>5010846 (OP)
Every day.
Anonymous
7/20/2025, 9:18:15 PM No.5019867
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>>5017528
It's Cleo's 3-year adoption anniversary today. We're going to the beach, she's getting a burger with dinner, we have some dog ice cream (peanut butter flavored, obviously), and I'm pretty sure my wife is going to make her wear a hat at some point.
Anonymous
7/20/2025, 9:43:58 PM No.5019879
>>5011389
Which rose?
Anonymous
7/20/2025, 9:56:54 PM No.5019893
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I still use my dead pet names for passwords or vidya characters
Anonymous
7/21/2025, 12:47:48 PM No.5020360
>>5017328
my parents didn't wake me to tell me our dog is getting put down, so when I stepped outside that day I saw her dead already, and had to help put her in the grave
I don't know if it would have been better to be there desu
Anonymous
7/21/2025, 2:30:19 PM No.5020382
>>5010846 (OP)
Rarely, I loved both of my cats and my dog but they were just pets.