>>938737629
holy fuck youre going to end up on some YouTube video if you keep posting like this.
you can kill yourself. a bag around the head with a tube of helium from one of those party supply stores is the most painless method.
before you do, try something. read a book and think about what you read. write it down and stare at your roof thinking about it for hours. apply what you read. take a bath. clean. watch the top 10 best movies of all time. talk to a stranger on the bus or something about the movies you watched. clean. learn. read.