>>939855247
Okayy, you deserve some cuddles to make up for no more chicken wings. Come here, kitty!
>maybe i just feel love so intensely that i just fall into disbelief that anyone could truly love me as much as i so strongly feel it in me
I can relate to that! In the past I often felt that I put more effort into my relationships than the other side, which lead to me being disappointed with certain people.
And in some cases I wasn't exactly wrong, some people just aren't worth it to pay them too much attention, they might be shallow or selfish... But others may simply see the world differently than I do. People express their feelings differently, but it doesn't mean they don't like or love you, they might not realize how to show it properly. It's all kind of a murky area, and it takes courage to operate in it with confidence.
It takes a mixture of having some default goodwill towards the others, and ability to not care about those who do not deserve it, to feel comfortable in building your relationships with people in my opinion.
It also helped that I got bulkier and now can easier beat up people who offended me :p
Anyway, I'm afraid I overcompliated what I wanted to say, I hope it's not all nonsense. You should take your time and recharge your positive energy and things will get better, I'm sure :>