Thread 23102330

Imagine constantly having a bombshell in the chamber like i have by being a 34 year old kissless virgin who never had a gf while working as a beloved massage therapist for now 7+ years.
And by every passing year, especially as i will look alittle better by losing weight and improving some other things to come, the bombshell just keeps getting bigger.

At any point in any conversation i could spill it all and just destroy someones worldview or many peoples worldview at the same time with so little effort as just simply stating the truth, like i do here online.
Thats disregarding the fact that i already fake a more loud, extroverted personality when im outside my house.
I have explained this to my family that i feel bit sorry i dont have the energy to express myself like i do at work for example. Even though those at work deserve my enthusiasm, love and friendliness much less than my family.

They have accepted it though which im happy about since they atleast get the real me when im with them. I have stated that i do love them even if I dont express myself that much.
All in the name of preserving energy to use at my work as to be liked, for the purpose of pleasing customer, for the purpose of pleasing the boss, for the purpose of keeping my job.

With great power comes great responsibility.

>>23102330 (OP)
Are you autistic anon?

>>23102330 (OP)
>Imagine constantly having a bombshell in the chamber like i have
all i have to do is tell the other national socialists that i have a boyfriend.
they, like the left, have this fantasy idea in their head where gay men must always be on the left.
i'm fully on board with national socialism if that just means socialist policies, but only for the nation and it's race. i've always been on board with nationalism, and you can actually use hard math to convince me that having some socialist policies won't turn America into Venezuela.

we could afford thirty percent of America being neets, if we kicked out all of the non-whites. because, most of the people on those benefits are not white. we could afford to house and pay ALL of our veterans until the time of their deaths, if we just kicked out all the niggers.

the idea of someone with a loving boyfriend saying any of this is just beyond most people's comprehension. but how can i not feel this way? i live in a place where if i get a job, i'm more than likely to be the only white. where anti-white, anti-american sentiment is celebrated. it's only natural i would want to live with the other white people, when for as long as i can remember it was the non-white people making my life worse.

it wasn't white people who broke into my home twice.
it wasn't white people who bullied me for being white.
it wasn't white people who stole my car.
you can fuck all of the dudes you like, if you can't see this reality you are fucking retarded.

>>23102330 (OP)
We don't have to live like this

>>23102330 (OP)
So what's the issue I don't get it