Thread 23179622

The things I said yesterday, I think they have more value than other things. 10 years ago, approximately, I started to wonder what should I do in order to keep people away from me without having the need to live like a hermit
>Do I have to beat someone?
>Do I have to murder someone?
>Do I have to rape someone?
Those options aren't options at all. No matter how sick and depraved you are, for some reason "good people" still try to be involved with you

But now I have a better exit. Not only that I will draw the line, but I will also make people cherish their life. Regret is an important step in the realization of things. By regretting you're acknowledging events, actions and feelings objectively. Everyone shall do it, eventually

More pretentious shit.

>>23179622 (OP)
what hubris
the fact you feel you have a right to do any of those things—including what I presume is a veiled threat of 'making them regret', whilst also spinning that as a positive action on your part—reveals exactly what kind of person you are:
a sad, hollow little piece of shit; a jumped-up, garden-variety, narcissistic nothing like so many others
uninteresting
cowardly
pathetic

you're transparent
unfuck yourself

>>23179622 (OP)
anon are you okay?
i hope you won't disappear or anything

>>23181989
Do I show narcissistic feelings, anon?
>>23185229
I'm all the ok that someone can be. Today I talked with a female friend who would like me to have a relationship with a classmate of mine. I would like to avoid that
What about you?
>i hope you won't disappear or anything
If what I have in mind end up happening, then you will know about me, for sure. You shall be able to look at it in the news of my country

>>23188003
>If what I have in mind end up happening, then you will know about me, for sure. You shall be able to look at it in the news of my country
that's an edgy thing to say, but i'll have no way to know it's you
it's a bad fate to be chewed up and spit out by the media machine, used as fuel for political agendas & then forgotten
better to have your own life
>What about you?
just sitting here NEETing, collecting ideas
being a bone collector
i need to follow through better and work harder
i'm doing okay though, relatively
eating well and stuff
>>23188003
>I'm all the ok that someone can be. Today I talked with a female friend who would like me to have a relationship with a classmate of mine. I would like to avoid that
i see
it's good to set clear boundaries about stuff like that
i hope the friend isn't pressuring you too much

>>23188021
>but i'll have no way to know it's you
You should, just look at the spiral
>i need to follow through better and work harder
>i'm doing okay though, relatively
>eating well and stuff
That's an important step, well done
>i hope the friend isn't pressuring you too much
She says that I look and talk different when I talk about that classmate of mine. I won't lie you, that girl is just sweet, caring and loving. However even if she did wanted me to cuddle her when we hanged out in one occasion, I just can't take her as a girlfriend. There are ways to solve this, and in last terms, a horrid conclusion. Even if in part it's to make people understand who I really am, at some extend it's also for what is fair. I think I have the guts to do it, not like I'm desiring to do it. I'm not eager, I'm just expecting

>>23188372
>You should, just look at the spiral
i will keep that in mind..
>That's an important step, well done
tyty
>>23188372
>She says that I look and talk different when I talk about that classmate of mine. I won't lie you, that girl is just sweet, caring and loving. However even if she did wanted me to cuddle her when we hanged out in one occasion, I just can't take her as a girlfriend.
i had this exact same experience when i was 15, funnily enough
she liked me & we cuddled once, but i was very anxious about other things & was in denial about my feelings toward her
i still look back on cuddling with her as one of my best memories
>There are ways to solve this, and in last terms, a horrid conclusion. Even if in part it's to make people understand who I really am, at some extend it's also for what is fair. I think I have the guts to do it, not like I'm desiring to do it. I'm not eager, I'm just expecting
i just hope this is rational or in your best interest, anon
please try not to feel pressured by either me or your friend or anyone/anything else
just figure out how you really feel & then honor it
maybe...

>>23188505
>i still look back on cuddling with her as one of my best memories
I can relate to that. It's not like I'm innocent or anything, but having her hugging my arm when we were sitting on a bench, and me trying to get her off was... like, "romcom"? I don't know, I don't watch anime
>please try not to feel pressured by either me or your friend or anyone/anything else
>just figure out how you really feel & then honor it
I'll see. Even if I don't do anything, I'll have to get physically stronger, and save plenty of money and resources anyway. So it will have some use
My friend told me that I think that I'm "invulnerable", because I always avoid to get hurt by people. That's not true, and I told her this same thing I'll say; People can't hurt me because I expect them to do bad things anyway, so they would never surprise me with anything. It's still complicated for most, because I can't give them genuine trust, I'll always save a bit of distrust, just in case
I know, no one can live like that forever. But I won't live forever, so it will end eventually even if it sounds obvious
There's more stuff, like realizing that I never had a real change. I was always the same, no significant change other than anger and sorrow. I got to the conclusion that I lied to myself and lie to others in my so called "best moment". No such thing ever happened, I was still as bad as ever
That's why I'm telling you all that I might do something, because I was always meant to do it. Inevitable, as death itself
And well, how do you think that a wife would feel knowing that their children will never know their paternal grandpas? Not because they're dead, but because her husband despite his family, with fair reasons, but it's still despise. I know, the woman should have known her man better before marriage and before raising children, but most people just don't work like that