Thread 23298944

I'm drinking vodka because I have had a big emotional knot in my stomach for days and it's not going away.
Anyone else drinking today?

yes sir
i am 50 cl:s into one of my 3 vodka bottles
cheers etc and such

Feels so nice to get it out of the way. It's literally just pure happiness juice

>>23298984
yayyyyyyyyy thats nice. its nice.

>>23298944 (OP)
i ran out of proper mixers so now im just doing lemon juice with water and honey
it kinda works

>>23298993
sweet. sweeet. im just mixing with fanta exotica cuz i dont want that raw hand sanitizxer taste

>>23298944 (OP)
>big emotional knot in my stomach
I’m feeling this right now but have no happiness juice slop. Fucking kms

>>23298998
Ddont. DONT DO IT YET . its for. its fdor oldies like me.

>>23298944 (OP)
Don't talk about me with your friends on discord thanks

>>23299001
Ritsu so drunk he can barely type

>>23298996
>fanta exotica
that works fine i suppose
i prefer schweppes red russian however
sadly my local store doesnt have it and i live in bumfuck nowhere

>>23299009
aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh SORRY. i dont have that my friends right now anyway.
>>23299013
whats a red russian? is that a good mixer? i have never tried that im an alcohol noob

>>23299011
NO i can type. but im too lazy to did. FIXC all tha typos i make. or it would take me a whole MINUTE of writing it and editing. im not author im a shitposter

Hand sanitizer therapy HAND SANITIZER THERAPY. Fuck you stupid white foid who thinks they have competence for having an instution handing out a degree you get MOGGED BY FUNGI POISON

>>23299020
this thing right here
it mixes very well with hard liqour
i can highly reccomend it

>>23299044
U . I hhave never seen that kind of soda or drink here, but if I find see one imma try it out thanks

>>23298944 (OP)
yes i am on my 5th glass of single malt whiskey

>>23299056
thats. complet. lie bhow come you arew on your 5th glass and are omcomplete fine. that makes zero sensae. AAAAAA M TREIOD OF MAKING TYPOS

im on my 6th glass. im. feeling pukey on my 4th. and yeah my liver is kinda weak. but 5 glasses and no reaction. nowa y. maybe i just serve myself way more

>>23299026
>>23299059

>>23299059
i am closing one eye nad focusing very hard on my keyboard

>>23299067
not. not my fault i got gene testedand they told me i have a gentetic defeniejcy which means i dont have same amount of enzyme s as average person to break down chemicals, but dk about alcohol i think i have some kinmd of toleralnere already since im not even that drunk
>>23299075
HE IS THE AMSTER OF THE ALCOHL,. its like that naruto episode about rock lee

>>23299066
>maybe i just serve myself way more
maybe. i also just ate a bit ago and that helped some

>>23299075
Tommy when will you be drunk enough for me to be able to convince you to post pictures of yourself

>>23299081
yo0u. you arecheating to make me look weak no wayy. thats crazy

No it wants to come out. im starting to feel pukey to a risky degree. how do i lessen the puke risk?

>>23299081
although with that said glass #6 is trying to make my tummy turn

>>23299088
>>23299088
sometimes it helps to sip a glas of cold watre for bit in between drinks

Surving this cold indfferent universe.

>>23299116
water is YUCK im that unhealthy. i am drinking some fanta exotica inbetween to wash my tongue.
i think imn gonna be on my oast one rght now

Resisting the evil careless world by brimming with warmth and empathy.
i hope i can die in a few years from now, but i need to work on a few things before i vanish

>>23298944 (OP)
No. Alcohol fucks up your brain and I do NOT need any more of that in my life

>>23299143
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=prRdyQwKnw0&ab_channel=thisendlessforest
I understand. its bad, because it fucks ypu up. right now everythinbg is hurting me. everyone i talkk to i cant connect to. even the music that i used to kept me going for so long hurts unless i drink alcohol. everything is hurting constantly even in my dreams until i drink this forbidden drink. i understndt hte physical health implications are bad. but my brain was bad to begin with. ajnd. there are a lot of peopel that can relate to that. people who are broken abnd have cabn obnly feel hgappy with this

>>23299117
i do this

>>23299124
this moght be my last one as well tonight i think

>>23299124
>water is YUCK
youre drinking the wrong water

Last years I have just been rotting. I have just been enduring. I have just wanted to scream and punch my walls while stopping myself from doing so. everything in my life is gettin ghard to bear, i really want to kill myself i feel like a walking failure all the time. i just want the pain to stop and nothing is making it stop. everyone else is just living their lives. it hurts so bad seeing everything becoming a nightmare, it hurts so bad feeling like the most worthless person in the world and i just want to be loved. but i still feel so out of place and so useless in this world that seems to think of me more as a furniture than as a person
>>23299170
tghis universe is so cruelø we have to stick together

I don't want my brain to be fucked up anymore. I don't want people to have horrible thoughts and intentions about the things I love and care about. I don't want to be thrown around like a pebble.
its like everyone expects you to have infinite patience, self control and no dream of your own.

and. I prob won't make it great in music. that hurts me a lot. that all the years of growing up I couldn't pay back for who I truly cared for. and that's going to be excrucating... but im happy that i atleast am trying to. My whole life has been an embarresement, my whole life has been humiliating. I just want to do the one thing that could make me feel like it was worth living. but i might not be able to. and if im not able to then i want to die.
i just dont want to be abandoned again

im no music prodigy. i spent my entire childhood and teenage years running away from my problems and coping. there was no chance for me to ever get into this early. i might just die worthless and useless

>>23299052
it goes absolutely wonderfully with vodka
if you try it out let me know

>>23299210
Idk where to even buy it. It might just be a sweden only beverage or something

the constant feeling of inadequacy. the constant feleing of being a failure. the constant feeling of being out of depth the constant feeling of just wanting to make up for the shitty life you lived.
im just talking to the void, but its' better than nothing

>>23299174
Krewl world
>>23299197
>and. I prob won't make it great in music
Your music is nice tho, everyone has told you that, other musicfags even seethe at your music. And it hasn’t even been that long since you’ve started music probably
>but im happy that i atleast am trying to
Yes keep doing that

>>23299227
>Your music is nice tho, everyone has told you that, other musicfags even seethe at your music. And it hasn’t even been that long since you’ve started music probably
in a small pond im maybe a decent sized fish but in the big scary ocean im small.
and idk if i will be able to catch up. thats the thing. uncertainity. i have read a lot of books, i have practiced a lot, researched neurosicenc/practice to get better. soaking up so much information. having days where i spend hours on music, but i still feel like i might not catch up.
because i might just not be enough no matter how hard I try

https://voca.ro/1aCeX1jzQmuo
I'm forever going to be an outcast clown. and thats the role the world has assigned me. and its just been exrucating from day 1. i wish i could transmit my emotions directly to another person so they would understand how devastated i feel

Mikus voice is the most nostalgic thing to me. it feels more nostalgic than hearing the voices of my parents. when I hear my moms voice it just feels disgusting. maybe because I have seen and listened to miku since I was 11 ish years old. half my lifespan.
im just sperging. i dont know anymore.

>>23299236
>but i still feel like i might not catch up.
>might
You can’t give up or feel sad because you feel like you MIGHT not make it, you’re doing very good for your level, you keep doing it and you’re gonna keep getting better, it’s obvious but I’m still saying it.
>because i might just not be enough no matter how hard I try
I can understand you feeling this way, it’s ok. At the end of the day tho, you have to keep trying and doing it because like you said here >>23299197 it makes you happy. There’s always a chance that anyone doing anything might not make it at that, but if you completely stop doing it then you devoid yourself of any meaning. It’s completely basic shit I’m saying here I suppose but I hope it makes you feel a little better. It’s not in your hand if you’ll fail or not, all you can do is try and play your cards

>>23299244
Very calming miku posted by you in such a doomer mood

>>23299257
>You can’t give up or feel sad because you feel like you MIGHT not make it
I don't want to give up even if I know I'm going to fail. Because not trying hurts, but failing also hurts.
>all you can do is try and play your cards
I know. I'm not gonna stop, I just don't want to fail despite everything despite how much it means to me because the pain would be excruciating. Lately, everything has just been painful.
I'm getting criticised more than before, I feel like my whole life was wasted.
>>23299264
the lyrics are sad and her voice is very melancholic. original song is karakuri piero.

>>23299271
>Lately, everything has just been painful.
What happen
>I'm getting criticised more than before, I feel like my whole life was wasted
But your music has improved tho, I don’t understand why you’d get criticised more
>her voice is very melancholic
Sounded calming to me for some reason

>>23299284
>What happen
idk just a lot of shitty events.
>But your music has improved tho, I don’t understand why you’d get criticised more
I feel that, but everyone seems to ignore and criticise me more than before.
I'm trying my best to get better.
>Sounded calming to me for some reason
Melancholy can be calming. I tuned her similar to how pinnochio p felt like to me growing up. Soft/melancholic and pretty

>>23299216
i very much doubt that

>>23299298
>I'm trying my best to get better.
Yes keep doing that

>>23299312
I have never seen it before in Norway atleast.
>>23299315
I'm gonna until everything falls apart completely and then I'm going to vanish

I dropped .50g of a new batch of shrooms i grew to test potency and I'm pretty disappointed, so I started drinking instead. My last grow was PE and .50 sent me on a very pleasant music journey. Oh well. Golden Teacher is weak sauce compared to PE so a trip will have to be 5 grams.

>>23299325
>then I'm going to vanish
Too soon talking about allat

>>23299331
i have no idea what you are talking about.
>>23299334
It's hard to predict the future. my past self didnt expect things to be this bad

>>23299174
i agree
borm to die
world is a fuck

Just give it your all and if everything fails you just die and your life is over anyway. Better than living on pretending you are fine not asserting yourself to do your best to become who you truly want to be.
>>23299365
i want this world of narccisistic normies to change

>>23299339
Yeah i wouldn't imagine you would, but i sure as hell wish you did. Might solve some of them noggin problems you're always complain about

>>23299404
Shroomies ar eillegal in norway. some guy got imprisoned for it. and even if i would risk it im not going outside looking for them when i dont know enough about shrooms to not get poisoned

Also I fuckin' swear I had your name filtered but I guess not. Welcome to the ranks of the annoying and irredeemable.

it drunk bed time now i think
gngn

>>23299438
Suddenly there’s new tripfags
Kate, loly and matt
Loly is just korbo putting on his best pedobait tho

>>23299438
Filters are for the weak and frail

>>23299438
Then fuck off from my thread if you want to filter me you little shit.
>>23299443
skeeo well sweet dreams

I wish I could filter your fungal ass but you dont even have a name or a trip. you just are an anomous doucebag

>>23299491
Drunksu relax

>>23299498
these filter using nigs always have to tell everyone else who they are filtering thats how fragile and how much of a princess they are. foid brained \neckbeards. they prob got it from their mothers who were giant whores in college. white woman syndrome

>>23299531
Only time I’ve ever wanted to use a filter is to filter that retard newfag American who spams EVERY thread, is here no matter what time and accounts for 50% of posts in every thread he’s in

>>23299585
Sorry I was gone. I have had to pee like 6 difefrent times last hour or so.
and yeah I feel you only filter truly annoying people. if you filter half the board you are a bitch

Filter fishtank spergs

Alcohol is wearing off. time for bed

>>23299660
NO
time for more alcohol

>>23299666
Don't turn fellow autists into alcoholists

>>23299675
He can't turn water into water

>>23299660
Goodnight ritsunig

>>23299675
dont make it sound like im doing something immoral here

I had win id in last ritsu thread too, interesting

>>23299660
wake up

>>23299707
he died

>>23299930
this is great news thanks for sharing

>>23300344
that is not great news
its terrible news actually
i think you might be going to hell just for saying that

im the real ritsu!!! fake ritsu imposter scum¡!!!!!!!!

>>23300754
now why would anyone do something like that?
pretending to be some other anon that isnt you?
despicable
i would never

>>23300783
It's weird because you're both Swedish and that also means if you knew who he was you would have bee around the same time he was which is a statistical anamoly of sorts because there are only ever so many Swedish posters. But you don't quite seem like him because he was a total asshole