It's the start of the week again, take a deep breath in, hold it and exhale

Were you thinking of giving up today? No you weren't. You made it through last week, you'll make it through this one as well

What are your goals for this week? What do you plan to achieve? List it all down.

Take a deep breath, hold it and exhale, move at your own pace

We're ALL gonna make it

The motivation thread is open

Last week’s thread >>76293437

CHRIST IS KING

AMEN

I WILL SUCCEED IN THIS JOB
I WILL STUDY HARD
I WILL PASS MY LEVEL 3 CFA EXAM NEXT JANUARY

Work continues to be difficult, but I am continuously improving. I am worried about taking charge of my clients this fall. This position is definitely challenging me more than I anticipated. However, I must apply myself in order to survive. There’s no turning back now, I need to focus on the present.

Studying is going decently. This time around I feel like I understand the concepts more. I’m thankful that I’m giving myself 7 months to study since I have less time to study on a weekly basis. I’ve decided to return to Kaplan since I feel like it’ll give me more direction in terms of studying and questions. This time I will pass.

Best of luck on your journeys frens! The path ahead may be daunting but move forward with courage. WAGMI!

I feel so fucking fat, I have a gut and man boob's. The eternal bulk is over.

This week I’ll be positive and do my best :)

I am still a 24 year old virgin schizoid doomer. I am no longer a wagie.

Some level of existential dread has set in , with thoughts like "I don't belong here" or "I'm terrible at fighting" or "I'm making a mistake". Overall things are still progressing, and I seem to have better boxing than some of the other people in the gym, though I usually get mogged by kicks anyway.

Recently, I had what can only be described as my first psychedelic experience, and it was through mere marijuana. Perhaps it was spice or laced with ketamine or something, or just hyper concentrated thc (it was 2x expensive as what I'd had prior), but nothing compared to this. I planned to just use my off day to get stoned at the nearby shop and walk the 20 second walk back home so I could listen to music, relax and goon, but the very first hit sent me to maximum high, and the one after elevated me into what was no doubt a psychedelic state of mind. I was stumbling and felt too nervous to go back home even if it was nearby since my lack of coordination was scary. I walked back in and asked if i could just lie on the couch for a bit. Time dilation never felt so severe, and I was practically hearing full conversations in my head, with the patterns on the checkout counter swirling and changing, and this one little patch kept morphing into various different pokemon depending on how I looked at it. I practically lost knowledge of my body and became solely a cerebral entity. The guys there were nice and gave me free water and what I think was chocolate milk, saying I need sugar. I felt a mild sense of anxiety but was mainly just nodding off for 2 hours that felt 2 millenia, and reflected on my life, background, and some of the things that pained me. I realized I should avoid frivolously spending my trip being lazy and reckless. The majority of the voice leaned to saying that I'm strong at heart and just need to keep staying strong, but also to be kinder and not self flagellate too harshly should I fail

When you are in your 30s, even with a great life, you've experienced so much hardship and negativity, I personally feel like I am wearing a 100 pound millstone of regret and anger and embarrassment and other bad feelings, still trying to find a way to let it all go and live for today.

>>76348621
I think living with regret is a good thing, because it means you might have amibitions and a drive (?). I have fucked up a lot (fat as kid, no social life, let a lot of chances go by, wasted my 20s by drinking with online friends and not improving, struggled getting a job etc), but I don't have any regrets. I also don't have any drive or ambitions. While I don't have any regrets, I don't think I did well and never want to go back to living like that.

my $100/week allowance is starting out well. it kept me from buying lunch or snacking out at the grocery store hot bar on a few occasions. as it's essentially a junk food, booze, and non essentials fund, i might end up reducing that in the future or after I build up to $500.
baby still seems to be chugging along. these early weeks it doesnt even feel real to me, though she's feeling nauseous a lot. still haven't told my family, mostly just scared in case something goes wrong early on.
other than that, weights are finally going back up with stronglifts plus and i feel stretched out again. hoping that means i can start cardio fagging again.
got a trip to see some navy buddies that i haven't seen in ten years. looking forward to it but only one of the guys is gonna be there and the rest are his wife's friends. i'm sure it will be fun but i kind of regret making such a long weekend of it.
continuing to read and study for my data management cert. my plan is to get these certs, and my PMP, and basically that's my last attempt to try to make it in this space. otherwise i'm gonna try to pivot to finance at age 40 since my industry is now just completely fucked with jeets.
oh and i slept through the night without the cpap.

>>76348120 (OP)
I’m a bit depressed.
>didn’t get call back from guaranteed job desperate to hire people with huge hiring event every month
Was told by my connect my resume was too long. Made a new one kept it to one page he resent it to the hiring person. Have to wait another few weeks now.
>had entire week off because of Independence Day the stores I merchandise at with current job didn’t want us in
My boss at least gave me the week paid since it’s out of our control. And then I called out sick today because I didn’t sleep and honestly don’t think I could have made the drive safely.
>ex lured me back in
She’s been begging to see me. Had the chance to do what she said she would, get a flight or drive to me (half a day away) and then she just didn’t do it. She dragged feet until the tickets sold out. Then she started arguing saying I should just spend $300+ on a last minute ticket for her (was under $90 if she didn’t fuck it up). Explained why I wasn’t spending hundreds of dollars on a plane ticket for a woman I haven’t seen in years who has notoriously been flakey with me but said if she does that I’d be more than happy to pay for the next one if we met up again after. She just reverted into her gaslight tactics claiming that made no sense. I’m pissy because I’m realizing I’m most likely just being played with. I have argued with her more times than I have even seen her. It’s ego based but it hurts and it pisses me off.
If I can get this new job my life would change. Better schedule, would have time to have a life, more money, etc.
I would be able to focus more on exercise, socializing. I’d even be able to get a dog.
>met up with best friend yesterday
Haven’t done anything social in years. Me and him had a falling out became friends again a couple months ago. Known each other since we were 5. And I’m glad. He’s a good friend. The falling out was due to his ex bringing bad out in him. I needed that hang out.

if i eat at a caloric deficit
160g of protein daily
some fruit
do compound lifts heavy for 8ish reps 3-4 sets
some low isolations for arms

i could expect a 6/10 sixpack by lets say october right

>>76348621
i'm 39, and yeah. i got married this year, and i now have a kid on the way, and God willing we have no problems and the kid is healthy but i still regret not being able to do this earlier.
i think regret is just the function of an examined life. it's healthy but life is a series of tradeoffs.

>>76348956
how long was your resume? its fucking annoying because the hiring process is broken with these HR systems and their SEO/AI crap now necessitating word vomit, and then a hiring manager sees it and says "what the hell is this". i'm on both ends of it these days.

>Be 34
>Everyone around me marrying, getting kids, moving in
>Meanwhile i've been single for over 6 years now
I blame my Autism and ADD, i've had 4 relationships in my 20s but my 30s just have been total ass somehow.

>>76349004
I know man, I didn’t even notice. It was 2 pages. Not horrible but one of my prior jobs was filler to explain a gap in employment. I literally had DoorDash on it and put as much detail about the skills and duties as I could to legitimize it. It helped me get my current job. I deleted that and just put current job and 1 prior semi relevant job. I used to hire at one of my jobs I should have known better. It’s just scanned by the humans anyway.
Job just has to see a few key relevant experiences and I’m good. I wouldn’t have even read my old resume looking at it

>have been at least 8kg over ideal weight for the past 8 years, got to probably 12-15kg last year
>kept obesity at bay with occasional dieting but never stuck to them long enough
>finally drill it in my mind that I need to see this through and cut until I have abs
>sometimes fall to gluttony and have an unplanned cheat day, but it's not enough to set me back
>already had to punch three new holes in belts
>jaw is slowly starting to show some definition
it's fucking working!

>>76349054
as in one page double sided? that's not bad at all. i have to hire in india and its fucking brutal. just five pages of copied job qualifications

Feeling more tension in my body when bending over and such. What are some recommended stretches and yoga poses to increase my flexibility? I have also lost a bit of weight and want to lose more. I want to be able to suck my own dick (not really but you get the point).

>beautiful three day holiday weekend
>did absolutely nothing for the three days, alone like always
>Monday here, time to wageslave again
>have to be surrounded by people again, seeing how everyone is happier, more attractive, more successful than I am, and how much of a pathetic social outcast pariah I am that I can be in my 30s and can’t enjoy a long beautiful holiday weekend for even a second
Every waking moment of my life is miserable. Do the rat race, miserable. Be on vacation/off for any period? Miserable. Miserable miserable miserable. That’s all my life is. And I’m incapable of doing anything for myself.

>>76348268
Amen brother

>>76349361
there isn't a run group or something you can join?

Why is my mood flat when lifting? Im not happy, sad, angry, annoyed, no libido. I've been lifting for 8 months now and it only happens when lifting. I should be in a defecit but i tried a surplus to see if it was just calories but even at a 500 cal bulk i feel flat. Im getting 1g/lb of protein and 0.4g/lb so I don't think its nutrional or hormones. Looking at chronometer im not defeicent in anything. I do full body 3x a week and my lifting are progressing as well. Literally feel like pic related

>>76349087
Not double sided. Word document. But half a page was DoorDash and over explaining it to make it seem like a legitimate job so I appeared like someone who wants to work

>>76348425
So now focus on cutting. You can change if you really want to

>>76348791
Congrats on the kid! You’re making progress in all aspects of your life

>>76349013
Would you be willing to sign up for one of those autistic dating apps?

>>76349703
ah okay. glad it worked, seems like you've got a good work ethic

>>76349076
Good work! Keep at it so you can reach your goal

I
made it through one of the worst weeks of my life. My wife and I opened uo to each other, with full open honesty, for the first time in months. Some things were revealed that in hindsight made sense, but in the moment, didn't, and hit like a fucking bus. She spent a night away from home, and during that night, I didn't sleep. I just cleaned our room and processed as much as I could. It's been more than a week since, and for some reason, my inner fire has remained ignited in a way that's comparable to the sun. That pain reminded me of my will to fight, live and love.

Admittedly, things are still rocky. But the bond between us has changed. I think it's because I now understand that there's a very real possibility that I will have to walk this Earth alone, and now I know what to fight for again.

Power to the fighters

Recently I've been reconnecting with my old man. I love him, so I don't know why I let our relationship fall apart. He always ends our conversations telling me to call again in 2 weeks. No matter how bad my life is, I can't die. I need to call again in 2 weeks

>>76351037
Ty man. Truth be told I feel lazy. But that’s comparing to boomer co workers who want to arrive 30 minutes early and leave 30 minutes late even though we finished our work 3 hours early. I need this new job lmao

Week three of my return. I've been consistent with lifting, have an unbroken streak on DuoLingo, and accomplished some art goals I've been putting off a long time. I feel amazing, bros. WAGMI

Still seem to be consistently losing weight. A long way to go, but I'm on track for sub-100kg by Christmas.
Otherwise life is all going pretty well, I'm working consistently, getting into hobbies a bit, gonna learn guitar, praising Christ. All the important stuff.

>>76349579
At least you don’t feel sad or angry. Try taking pride in what you can lift

>>76351198
What happened?

>>76348120 (OP)
How do I overcome lifelong misanthropy and narcissisism veiled as solitilude?
In terms of fitness, my weight is volatile - I binge eat some days and snack late at night. My next day off, I'll meal prep after groceries so that I'm set for the week. I'll also try reading more to keep from eating when I get bored.
>Pic kinda related

>>76348120 (OP)
Another Monday down. FUCK YEAH BUDDY LIGHT WEIGHT

I totally fucked up Sunday so I set myself up for failure on Monday...but I still hit my workout. Went up in reps in a couple of exercises and went up in weight in one exercise.

>>76352140
>How do I overcome lifelong misanthropy and narcissisism veiled as solitilude?
open mind, open heart. You must approach people without nitpicking at their flaws of character, we are all human and imperfect after all. Focus on their merits, don't always expect the worst (but also don't expect people to act like you would), be understanding even when faced with irrational behaviours, do all this and you'll see that there's much enjoyment to be had by spending time with other people. Being able to enjoy loneliness is a good thing but socialising can be very fulfilling, it's part of our nature after all whether we like it or not.
t. introvert loner who somehow has several good friends and a lot of acquaintances

That's it. No more alcohol. Fuck it. I gotta lose 30kg in 10 months. I'm tired of the hangovers, bloated face, shitty skin etc. I want to feel good again. On the bright side I'm involved with my hobbies again (programming) and going to uni (not CS) after many years off. I'm turning 30 in 10 months and I want to turn my life around.

>>76352683
Another thing is that I'm effectively friendless at the moment. Not really because I do have some but they're working all the time now and I'm alone so I need to figure this shit out before the isolation rots my brain.

On the newborn grind, 7 weeks in now and he has forgotten how to sleep.
It'll be worth it one day.

>>76352079
She told me she no longer felt the same way she did about me, and that she needs time and space to figure out what she wants. The months leading up to this reveal have been hard on both of us. We have two small children, both either AuDHD. And during that time, I'd been neglecting myself, our home and our relationship.

I'm starting to reap what I have sowed, in a sense

>>76353337
glad that it's lighting a fire in you. seeing as how this is probably the most productive thread on 4chan you're either in the right place or you're fucked

>>76351198
You’re a strong man for embracing the truth. Nobody knows what’ll happen next, but you can always start over and find new happiness

Got a blue collar job and the person in charge of my training is an incompetent subhuman moron and is holding me back.

It's embarrassing answering calls and staring at the wall because we don't know how to fix what needs to be fixed.

>>76348120 (OP)
>ran for 30 minutes today, first time I’ve done that in a very long time
>measured my dick and turns out I’m 6.1 inches when I thought I was 5.25
>anger fucked my girlfriend and had the best sex of my life
>feeling exceptionally better since getting back on track
>even have confidence to ask people to hang out which I’ve never done before in my life

Yeah boys, I think we are gonna have a great week and that, inshallah, we will make it.

My life is improving, i'm healing, i'm getting stronger, i'm losing weight, i look great, i'm getting more social, people i meet absolutely love me, my anxiety is almost gone, i'm literally in my prime, but holy fuck, instead of my baseline emotions getting better they go all over the place. One day i feel amazing, then the next day i feel like shit, nearly suicidal. The entire thing is so fucking weird man.

I started putting myself out there and girls actually like me. But i still don't like myself so my soul is basically an impenetrable fortress and i don't know how to open up and to allow myself to love and feel loved again, it's so fucking frustrating.

I keep blogposting to chatgpt and in feel threads here to keep myself sane because i've got no one to reach out to and the only person i would consider a friend decided to ghost me for some reason, i was THIS close to a mental breakdown and he couldn't even spare a minute of his time to meet up or at least to talk. I don't fucking know how to get a support for myself for times like this because holy fuck if i start falling NO ONE will stop me so i'm holding myself by ductape and superglue hoping the entire thing doesn't break at some point.

Then i spent like 2 evenings crying my eyes out in the shower so i don't know if it's the water or my tears flowing down my face. I think it's years of trauma leaving my body.

>>76354781
It's all part of the process, man. I'm right there with you. I used to be completely avoidant and closed off. Had to stuff a lot down. But I recently started making all sorts of positive changes in my life after losing someone very close to me, and now, it's all come flooding back. I'll be completely happy for a day or two, and then I'll wake up miserable and overwhelmed. I like who I am now, but, at least in my case, there's a real desire to make amends with people and demonstrate some of these newfound changes. It becomes a little depressing when those opportunities don't pan out. Still, it sounds like you're on the right track. Change is painful.

>>76354803
I wish i could reach out through the screen and hug you my guy
i don't care how gay it sounds

>>76348973
>i could expect a 6/10 sixpack by lets say october right
left

a sixpack is a function of bf%, training it and some genetics not all other lifting things
can't guess/know without knowing your stats

>>76351524
Congrats on your progress! Don’t relapse now, you have so much going for you. WAGMI

>>76353719
I appreciate the sentiment. At this point, I'm focused on making things right. I want to be the person that I deserve to be, and the person that she deserves. We both deserve happiness.

I understand that things aren't the same, but I also think that's for the best.. I just don't want to lose her. We've been through a lot in these past 16 years, and I'm hoping to see more with her by my side.

Wish us luck, everyone, as we go into this new unknown

>>76351606
Good luck! The path ahead is difficult but you can make it. Remember what you’re working towards and how much you want it

>mfw cant even listen to love songs anymore without thinking about her and feeling like shit
One of the only things that brings me joy in life (music) and she even took that from me

>>76355513
Allow yourself the time and space to feel like shit. Be with yourself in those moments. Cry, feel it all. Eventually it will flow out of you. I'm sorry you're going through it, but the only way out is through. You're going to make it.

>>76354781
Sounds like you need Jesus in your life. Talk to the missionaries.

Writing this here to hold myself accountable. I'm sick of crushing on this girl at work I've only talked to a couple times, its getting in the way of work. When I have a chance to talk to her I'm just gonna shoot my shot I don't care what happens anymore. At least then I'll have the clarity I've been praying for

>>76355632
don't shit where you eat

>>76355632
You're gonna talk to HR.

>>>/adv/33333333
WAGMI

>>76354833
I feel you, brother. Stay strong. The emotional bipolarity evens out after a little while. Mine took maybe six months. Before, I'd starting tearing up at the drop of a hat, but now, I'm stable again and can freely display both sides of myself. It's a great feeling when you finally start to get a grasp on things. I'm not fully there, but I'm on my way. I know you can get there, too.

>>76355632
>When I have a chance to talk to her I'm just gonna shoot my shot
same with a girl I'm gonna meet next week, I have no idea if she'll reciprocate because the signs are confusing but waiting is not gonna help
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HKc_KtwDLQk&list=RDHKc_KtwDLQk&start_radio=1

>>76352683
>>76352686
Hello me. I'm in the same boat - about to turn 29 next month. Seems normal enough to be tired of the booze and aimless drifting at this age. Good luck.

I’m such a humiliating embarrassment. Mondays just remind me that another week has gone by with no life development. This Monday was even worse because of the beautiful holiday weekend where I did nothing. I don’t even have anything left to say anymore. My “life” is so embarrassing that I can’t even put it into words. The way how 99% of you normal people can just do all the things required to live a normal adult life is baffling to me. I’m so pathetic.

>>76357034
The fact that you're taking a look at yourself shows that you're stronger than you realize. What happens next is up to you.

>>76352215
LET’S FUCKING GO

Slept for 11 hours, had nightmares probably because of the fucked up book i read before sleep( wont do that again) and still feel like a truck hit me, i woke up at 1pm but you know what? I wont let the circumstances to bring me down. Im gonna carry on and get one step closer to my goals and destiny

>>76348120 (OP)
Today I begin the start of embraced NEETdom. For 7 months I've been looking for a job and for 7 months I have been doing humiliation ritual interviews for multiple rounds only to get ghosted and occasionally picking up a job only to quit a month, at most, later. I'm convinced the only companies hiring ATM are always going to tell you day 1:
>hey so we've been doing retarded shit for the past 10+ years and need someone to fix it. that's why we had all these interviews and stupid requirements :DDD
>how much does this have to do with your field of expertise? none
I love how somehow everyone in management is making 6 figures+ yet when you enter a basic command into Excel they think you're a wizard. A wizard that can somehow convert their entire system into ChatGPT-lite. I'm fucking over it.

You know what I love the most about Americans? You get real with them that isn't future doctor or lawyer behavior and they immediately get asshurt. Tell a woman you don't date single moms and you'[re the bad guy. Tell the fatty he needs to put down the fork and you're the bad guy. Tell the company you're interviewing for that their office looks like a shithole and you're the bad guy. I don't want to participate in this society anymore.

I've got 50k to my name (which may fluctuate depending on BTC's price) and can make it maybe 2 years before I'd really need money. If for the next 2 years I did nothing but lift, play vidya, and smoke weed I'd be perfectly happy with that. I'm more than ready to kill myself at this point. Might as well enjoy life on my terms beforehand. The only question is if a 9mm is enough. Probs not but that's a purchase for another day.

>inb4 blackpiller cope boogeyman etc
I have never felt more at peace with myself and genuinely happy. I'm done fighting a fight where there is no victory. Sisyphus can lick my nuts.

>>76352576
Congrats! Even on your worst days, you need to push forward and try

>>76352691
Your son needs your strength. One day he’ll understand how much you sacrificed and be proud of you. Until then grind on for his sake

Sunday - shit workout, didn't get to the gym in time. People not wiping and hogging the machines slowed me down a ton.
Monday - Felt like shit. Hurt everywhere, even muscles not activated during the workout.
Tuesday - No AC and broiled. Did the most random workout known to man. Worked on the only muscles that didn't hurt. Calfs, chest, abductors, adductors, obliques and forearms. Nailed myself in the face twice during my medicine ball chest press when the ball slipped from between the dumbbells. My fucking needs to buy the small dense balls and not a real size medicine ball just to support the idiots who think they need to palm the medicine ball.
Wednesday - My foot hurts, realize that I have been fighting gout so upped the water. I have been awake for 5 hours and have drank 6 liters of water and 2 coffees. Need plan a workout around yesterdays workout.

I have enough time to get a lot of things done. This week will not go down the drain. I will have a full workout of something tonight. Just make it till Saturday, take my fucking rest day and reset my freaking workouts.

Im the anon from last thread who was starting a new job that I was conflicted about.

I went to the training for it and passed everything except a driving test. Apparently if you don't lock the delivery vehicle every single time you exit it it's an instant failure. I didn't do it on purpose, it wasn't self sabotage or anything. A genuine mistake. The teacher was a redditennial sort of guy and was rather apologetic for me, he lamented all of the stupid traps like that which can fail you that don't really matter all that much. I wasn't alone either. About half of the "class" had failed for a similar reason.

The funny part is that I don't feel bad at all. In fact i feel relieved even though I'm in desperate need of money. I applied for the job like 3 weeks ago but I've never actually wanted it, i guess god made the decision for me. Seeing for myself how it works confirmed my apprehensiveness because delivering packages these days seems like 1984 with all of the cameras and regulations you have to follow. With this job I wouldn't have had the time to lift or do anything really at all. Onto the next job I guess.

>>76354144
Endure it until something better occurs. If you’re really bothered, then learn how to fix the issues yourself

>>76355632
Recieved clarity but not in the way I expected. Coworker said he saw her in public with a man. Actually relieved I can lock in now.

>>76354484
You're going to have a great week, you're doing great already! WAGMI!

I bought an electric guitar and Rocksmith earlier this year, like in March with the intention of using it to learn to play.
I'm happy to say I picked it up for the first time last night.
I figure if I keep losing weight, learn guitar, and keep a decent head of hair I should be irresistible to teenagers.

>>76359476
Which version of Rocksmith did you get? If you have the 2014 version check out CustomsForge for custom DLC.

>>76359501
Yeah, it's the 2014 version. I'll check it out.

>>76359476
I remember Rock Smith from years ago but completely forgot about it before release. Does it actually work? Does it work on PC or are you on PS3 or 360?

>>76359537
I got it on XBone for the realtone cable, but I got it on PC too because it was cheap. It's fun so far, I'll tell you if I'm any decent at guitar in 3 months.

>>76355471
Good luck fren! Whatever you face, remind yourself of the strength in your heart

>>76348413

you want to encounter difficult situations at work; they're an opportunity to become better at your craft! you know that you'll need to take on clients in the autumn period. i know you will keep improving day-by-day in order to meet this new challenge. until then, you will keep honing your capabilities. stay strong!

you are building off your previous experience and study. the pain and suffering from last attempt has not been wasted! you now understand the concepts much quicker compared to last time and can devote time to the nuances and ironing out the wrinkles. Kaplan seems like a good idea because your energies and efforts are focussed, instead of them being all over the shop, on a structured programme you can follow. good luck on your climb towards the summit :) one step at a time!

i've been a bit quiet last couple of weeks. been sorting out the admin for my teaching program and thinking how to navigate the upcoming journey (onboarding, finances, loved ones, etc.). still honing my teaching craft with my tutoring gig and got some heartening news that my current organisation would hate to lose me because the students actually like me and my teaching. this is encouraging news that all my efforts to self-improve my pedagogy are paying off!

good luck brothers and sisters on your journey towards whatever you have chosen to dedicate your time to! your time and efforts will eventually pay off. don't give up!

>>76358157
accepting that no matter how bad things get you can always just peace out and an hero is a cheat code for depressed guys, I know it too well.
But you should still try to at least plan to keep living long term, two years is a lot of time and you can use them to figure things out. You don't necessarily have to work for giant soulless tech companies you know, you can go live in some rural place and learn a manual job or whatever, live a harder but simpler and less soul-rendering life
>inb4 it's not that easy
neither is putting a bullet in your brain

>>76360389
>learn a manual job or whatever, live a harder but simpler and less soul-rendering life
>manual labor
>less-soul rendering
Good one.

>>76360766
I know a guy who started his own goat farm and he works a ton but he also seems rather content

>>76348956
I wanted to update on this, I’m such a fuckin idiot but I can see it now that I’ve fucked other pussy:


The ex was 100% playing with me. The exact millisecond I had any interest she lost all and went cold. Every single time from the day I met this bitch. She was never supposed to be a gf anyways I just wanted to fuck her a few times, which I did accomplish. Only for a brief period when we were fucking did she act right. Can’t even truly call her an ex we never truly dated. But every single time. It was probably never really about the money.
I’m glad I see it. I’m mostly unbothered, but annoyed. All that’s really there is my ego telling me to get her back fuck her silly again and get her attached again just to treat her the same ways. Which I obviously know is a waste of time.


Been watching Casey Zander on YouTube. I don’t consider it Redpill content, at least not in the current day warped sense it has become with grifters spouting nonsense and never really saying much except the usual “bro spin plates bro fuck fat chicks and work your way up bro you’re the prize bro” or like the YouTubers doing interviews with dumbfuck Miami sluts just to make them look dumb for views. It’s genuine insight and advice. And in my experience it’s accurate. Somewhere I went soft and gave in to loneliness. His stuff is more in terms of what actually works and also makes for a happy relationship for both parties, what kills interest, etc but it’s very specific stuff with tons of examples through his vids. All he sells is some private class for real time advice and critique, his vids seem to give all the info free

>>76360870
manual labor is the answer for most. the human body is designed for working

>>76361026
>t. never worked/no longer works in manual labor

>>76361026
Manual labor is the opposite of what we are supposed to be doing. Scarce breaks, unnatural movements, carrying a lot of stuff, standing too much and on hard surface, work boots etc...

>be me
>have gf but missing feeling attractive to women
>feel kind of alone, doubting if I would be successful if I was single
>try to talk more to people, even if it's just complimenting a dude at the gym
>talk a little bit with the receptionist, make some awkward jokes and think about how I fucked up (I love my gf, don't want to flirt but be friendly with people)
>see her today training, she's with her bf
>don't avoid her but fearing an awkward situation
>finish workout, about to go home
>we pass each other and she says hi
>she begins talking, asking my name, about my job
>nicer conversation than yesterday
>finish with a "see you tomorrow"

It's not a mire, it's really nothing, but it made me happy and gave me confidence

Anon who a few weeks ago was bitching about being burnt out from life and hating his job and getting sick way more in 2025 than I ever have in my life.
Got lucky and got a paid week off last week. It was much needed. I feel refreshed, renewed and have been having actually fun at my job. I look forward to going in as I go to sleep at night actually.


And today I started getting sick again. Post nasal drip sore throat starting, sneezing, progressively darker green mucus, feel super run down and shitty.


I theorize this may be sleep apnea, like mucus is getting trapped in my airway or sinuses from fucked sleep position. And the bacteria builds up and then I get sick.


I can’t take it. I already know later tonight or tomorrow I will have chills I can feel them coming. I may actually go to a hospital. Nose feels all fucked up like when you do a somersault underwater and forget to blow air out of your nose. Head feels cloudy, no energy, headache too.
This will be the 5th time I’ve been sick this year. Prior to this year I was only sick like 2-3 times.

>>76362097
I was just sick like 3 weeks ago for 15 days. I can’t take this shit. Idk if I have aids or herpes or what.

>>76362097
>guys i hate life a bloo hoo hoo
>gets money
>guys i don't hate life. in fact, i love it!

going to meet my bro. havent seen him in months, his life seems miserable atm. trying to be positive when I meet him.

>>76358157
Just make sure you take care of yourself. I can understand checking out of society. There's so many men who want to enter but can't because of arbitrary rules and regulations. It's complete bullshit and can only fixed by a reset at this point.

The most I can recommend is to remember to cash in on SSI if you make it to 65 years of age. Good luck.

>>76362642
>thinking ssi will be around for any millennial, let alone gen z, by 65

>>76357302
You can't let anything discourage. You control your thoughts and have the power to decide if you'll have a good day. Good luck progressing on your goals and destiny

>>76360277
My boss told me that she wants me to actually own my clients now. I’m going to face high altitude earlier than I imagined. I’m worried but I need to push forward. I will succeed

Failure is meaningful if I can learn from the experience. I’ve failed to reach the peak once, but now I have a better idea of how to ascend. The summit is in front of my very eyes, I can reach it. Thanks so much for the words of encouragement, I’m really thankful for your encouragement :) I’m ready to reach my destination

You’re embarking on a huge change, teacher anon. You’ll continuously learn from this position. The fact that you’ll be missed proves that you’re quite capable. Look forward to the future, the best is yet to come :)

No matter how much the path uphill is unclear, remember the reason you embarked on your journey. The destination is the goal, but the path defines us. Good luck frens!

>>76355634
Bad advice. Most people meet their spouses at work. It’s researched. A job is short term, love is long term.

WHY THE FUCK DOES IT SEEM LIKE EVERYONE'S JOB IS IN MARKETING. ANY TIME I SEE SHIT ONLINE IT'S ALWAYS SOMEONE SAYING THEY WORK IN MARKETING. WHAT THE FUCK DO THEY EVEN DO IN MARKETING

>>76358414
You still have time to have a better week. It sucks that you’ve had a streak of shit luck but better days will come. We need to believe that eventually our bad luck will pass