>>76553104
Notice how you’re shifting blame about who you are with some story you’ve made up in your head to try and distance your identity from your behavior. Accept yourself for who you are. If you were an impulsive and expressive kid, you wouldn’t have been able to be conditioned in this way aside from serious abuse, not from being “oversocialized”. The grass is greener is a saying for a reason. Your suffering is simply because you want a fantasy you’ve made up in your head triggered by the fact that our culture associates anger with masculinity. You should do some brief self analysis and then move on, imo. Lingering on who you want to be when it’s in conflict with your natural instincts is poison. It serves no purpose. There are plenty of masculine archetypes that don’t rely on warrior like attributes like excessive anger.
Don’t waste your time trying to rebut or rationalize how “um akshually talking to my therapist gave me omniscient knowledge over the causal chain that has formed the very physiology of my brain!!” because that isn’t possible. It’s always a guess except for what I’m saying because I’m actually omniscient
