>>106016407no I quit that too, but its hard (pun unintended). it's very fucking hard.
I end up lightly flirting with women out of some fucked up ancestral instinct and I run away like a coward because I cant bear to see their reactions and be potentially marked as a creep or something. Just like "haha I gtg". Really fucking socially retarded because that's the last thing she hears before I leave so they're likely to remember it and they've probably gossiped to everyone else that im a creep, but so far there hasnt been any consequences or strange looks so maybe they're being nice and merciful. But it causes significant distress. My best bet is to make them think im gay so I become immune.
I dont know how the nofap people do it, they're either fucking lying through their teeth or one of the most psychologically resilient people known to humanity. and I dont consider myself a nofap person, im just doing this because I saw the damage porn was doing and masturbation had to go with it because of the association, nothing to do with nofap.
everyday hurts, I sleep at night throwing my phone away and picking it up to type pornhub and I throw it away again. this is harder than withdrawing from adderall. june 27th was the last time I looked at porn, and the fucking images are seared in my head. I have to take cold showers so that I dont masturbate in there either. I scream into my pillow every night muttering insanity to distract myself.
