Thread 106271537

>Parents give me unrestricted Internet access when I'm only eight years old
>Twenty years go by and my entire life still consists of being on the computer all day
>Don't even have anything to show for it after all this time

How do I cope with being shackled to technology and never having a chance at a real life? I have receipts from my childhood that prove beyond a shadow of a doubt I was spending upwards of 10 hours a day online before I had even hit puberty, meanwhile every single kid was doing fun things outside and hitting milestones. Now everyone is addicted to technology but I'm still the odd one out, because I'm not a coder, grifter or faggot e-celeb. The best part is that I have zero friends and zero money despite access to a tool supposedly built around making it easier to attain these things.

The funniest part about all of this is that I could compare my life to Serial Experiments Lain, except NOPE! Lain was in middle school when she became an Internet addict, by all accounts she had it way better than me! All of my formative memories, every single one, took place on a fucking screen.

>>106271537 (OP)
Sorry kiddo you got set up by your parents and then filtered hard by technology.

>>106271537 (OP)
Same thing happened to me. Alcohol made all problems disappear.

>>106271537 (OP)
I'm in the same boat and I'm going to jump in front of a semi truck soon. Enough is enough.

>>106271537 (OP)
Just turn the computer off... like... go outside bro.
It's that easy.

>>106271591
Sign your inheritance over to me first.

Tech and the internet is a force multiplier. If you were already a top tier, ambitious person, it was only going to make you even more overpowered. If you're naturally mediocre, lazy, a consumerist slug, then yes, you're trapped.

>>106271614
Just remember this when it's time to put them in a nursing home.

>>106271537 (OP)
>The funniest part about all of this is that I could compare my life to Serial Experiments Lain, except NOPE! Lain was in middle school when she became an Internet addict, by all accounts she had it way better than me! All of my formative memories, every single one, took place on a fucking screen.
btfo troon

>>106271537 (OP)
>Don't even have anything to show for it after all this time
this is normal even if you """touch grass""" and act like a normie. even the ones with a house and family. their lives are empty and meaningless, their families are trash just like them. this existence is just pointless, we are amusing ourselves to run out the clock til we die and that's all 99% of humanity ever achieves.

>parents made me goon all day

It's not them it's you.
You're the kind of person who wanted to be this, if you weren't you wouldn't. The internet was more fun for you than IRL that's why you chose it.

You're one of us.

>>106271652
You'll inherit like 20k of debt and no material possessions nigga.

>>106271537 (OP)
You're retarded and would have done nothing even without the near-infinite network on knowledge.

>>106271537 (OP)
>How do I cope with being shackled to technology and never having a chance at a real life?
28 is fucking nothing ... so change, or don't. Just try to stop blaming others, it's pathetic.

>>106271795
Just like everyone else.
The real problem here is the lack of real human connection.
We evolved to be social. To interact in person with others.
Sitting on the internet all day deprives us of that.
We were addicted to the internet when other kids were forming critical friendships that last for life.

>>106271827

Socialfags get one shotted and trapped by it as it's an inferior version of the real thing. But the naturally autistic introvert tinkerers do magical things with it and see it as an extension of their tooling. If you view it as entertainment first that's how you get fucked.

>>106271537 (OP)
that's literally all of us here nigga
I can remember getting scouted from gamebattles on cod4 in 2007 and because my single mom couldn't afford to get us the necessary shit (hauppage hd pvrs, latest flatscreen tvs, fastest broadband package available etc) myself and my brother were both bulled out of serious esports opportunities when the industry was first gaining legs, biiiig feelings of being left behind, trying to keep up editing on an acer laptop with cracked vegas as the tech snowball began... even writing this burns lol
to this day I'm convinced that was a major turning point for both of us, very blackpilling time, having to go to college together to study bullshit which also went nowhere... combination of a bad city (where I'm from is nicknamed after Afghanistan but I'm in the UK and as you can imagine there is no industry for anything here just retail and crime)

>>106271861
We are deprived in a way that our peers were not.
We long for social interaction because that's how our brains are wired.

>>106271875
Holy shit are you me? Bong, scouted at 15 through GB, started well and got into Decerto but my parents dropped the ball and by the time I just turned 18 I was working at Asda to salvage the situation.

>>106271537 (OP)
>the funniest part about that
is still your superiority complex even tho being a complete failure

>>106272213
No friends your entire life can make a nigga crazy n' sheitt nigguah!

>>106272213
>achieve nothing
>coast off of other peoples effort
>have a massive victim and superiority complex at the same time
Wonder why I insist boomers and zoomers are exactly the same..

>>106271537 (OP)
having no friends says a lot more about you than anything else. a lot of otherwise decent people are deadbeats or losers, and those people just need time to figure out their place in the world. but someone who is consistently friendless almost always has a moderate to severe personality disorder.

i suggest you get a job. it either solves the "no money" issue, or it makes the issue you have to work on incredibly obvious

>>106271537 (OP)
at least I hacked due to my antisocial nature, but you idiots just wasted your life with being passive consumers of media

>>106272313
>still ended up on /g/
Actually grim.

>>106272365
I come by every now and then to shitpost, it's cozy here

>>106271537 (OP)
Pretty much same here. Hoping to either build up the courage to kill myself eventually or that something else takes me in the next few years. Maybe I'll get it right next time.

>>106272688
>Hoping to build up the courage to kill myself
You will never do it. You're that much of a failure!

>>106272726
Too tired to get baited bro, you also forgot your gaki.

>>106272313
>hacked
h-acked you say...
w-what exactly did you do?

>>106271827
>Just like everyone else.
Haha, no. kys

>>106271537 (OP)
Go outside and get a job you faggot

>>106273265
hopefully he has 5+ years experience to get one

>>106271537 (OP)
I'm in a somewhat similar situation as you, but maybe a slightly different perspective.
I started going on the internet when I was around six, although I had a desktop computer when I used when I was a kid offline before that. I started going online because of flash games, but I became really interested in chat rooms that some website had with the games. I'm a very shy & private person, so even as a kid I found it easier to talk to people over the internet.
What really hooked me was the forums at the time. I began to recognize usernames and enjoying reading how people acted online, whether it was serious discussion, flame wars, or people trolling. Ended up making a few very good friends from a niche forum that I talked to for years on Skype.
When I look back, I don't really know if things would have turned out that much different for me. I might have ended up just being a bookworm or something similar. I do think it helped me become a fairly decent typist which is a skill I do take advantage of pretty frequently in my career.

You can still go outside now you retard.

>>106271537 (OP)
>how do I cope
It sounds like your whole existence is just coping with your inability to be functionally useful.

>>106271537 (OP)
Anon give yourself a break, you realize you fucked up, instead of dwelling either do something different or convince yourself you like your lifestyle.

>>106271537 (OP)
You stop caring when you realize how fake and gay everything is now. 50 years ago you just went out and "get le job" and then you were fine for life. Now you "get le job" and you're still homeless. It was over for you before it began

>>106271537 (OP)
Nah bro it's just you.
I had the same, 8 years old when your first pc rolled up, no parental control, nothing. Just me enjoying what miniclip, imageboards and anything in between had to offer.
Got me a degree and a wife. You have zero excuse.

>>106271641
You cannot be a loner for 20 years and become a social guy the next day. It's physically/biologically impossible.
The brain is a muscle. And his is litterally athrophied at that point. He's got zero social skill.
He probably has a speech impediment.
He probably cannot even control his facial muscle, and do something as simple as smiling naturally.

Each time he's setting a foot outside, he's doomed to get microaggressed by someone because his behavior is factually repulsive and uncanny.
It's a vicious loop.

He's got no friend, remember? There's no one to support him in the windows of time he would require to fix his brain's.
And he doesn't have the money to get professional help either, by the look of it.

>>106271537 (OP)
You should seriously consider suicide. Auto-strangulation is relatively painless way to go.

>>106275142
You're overthinking it. Talking is very simple as long as it serves a purpose.
If he's capable of talking to cashier at walmart when purchasing robux gift card, he could talk to anyone. Truth is most people fucking sucks and not worth talking anyway.

>>106271537 (OP)
>How do I cope with being shackled to technology and never having a chance at a real life?
I cope by drinking but I do not advise you follow my path.

>>106275142
I appreciate the honesty but I'm not a mute autist nor do I have suicidal ideation. I'm just a guy who slipped through the cracks despite doing everything he was told.

>>106271537 (OP)
>I'm not a coder, grifter or faggot e-celeb
damn, why not?

>>106271537 (OP)
Step one is recognizing that you have a problem, so good job on that and you shouldn't take this lightly. It's very easy to come up with new delusions so you can keep coping and never have to own up to anything, you can see plenty of people like that ITT.
Now you just have to do something about it.

>>106271537 (OP)
And what's a real life? Doing stuff you don't want, get some useless titles, to impress people you don't like?
Stop blaming the big picture when you are too lazy to do things, figure out what you TRULY want and stop crying

I guess I'm lucky that I grew up in a time when the internet wasn't as widely accessible because it's mostly retards, like 99%

It's like that experiment where a child grew up alongside a chimp, eventually the child started to act like the chimp and made chimp noises and the parents had to end the experiment

Don't let chimps dominate your mind

>>106271614
I wish people were capable of realizing this same logic when it comes to showering, brushing your teeth, dieting, and going outside for pleasure

>noooo there's no way you could possibly struggle with all that as an adult! You should've brushed your teeth as a kid! Your drug addicted, absent, and paranoid mother had NOTHING to do with this!

>>106277188
I convinced my narcissistic father to pay however much it cost to fix my teeth that rotted because I was too busy meeting irrelevant "social" demands to even perform basic hygiene. He never even taught me how to shave, only bought me one of those electric garbage that is already in the dumpster by now, almost like he was telling me that I'm too retarded to remove hair from my face with a simple blade.
Worst part is that I was still brushing my teeth, just not flossing, and not ever going to the dentist, as if a kid is supposed to know that you must do yearly dental checkups. It turned out that my bite was so misaligned, that some healthy teeth cracked from shearing forces, this retarded faggot tried to laugh it off like my teeth rotted
>from candy or something
the moment my last tooth is fixed, I'll spit in his face, tell him that I'm not grateful at all, and cut him off. You can make it as an adult even with piece of shit parents.

>>106277188
>ignores body smell to focus on something else
>ignores feeling on teeth to focus on something else
>ignores sensation of fullness to feel more tasty sugar
>ignores the natural drive for conversation to protect ego
>geez someone should have teached me those things like school

>>106271537 (OP)
>parents restrict computer access to a certain degree for the ages I had but internet access was never restricted, monitored or discussed
>yo bro, check out this goofy extension called stumbleupon
>spend better part of my youth deep into early internet memes, lore, and learn so incredibly much about electronics
>buy arduino at 12yo in 2009 or something
>suck at coding but still learn even more about electronics
>high school physics and chemistry was ez mode
>math was still hella gay
>become EE
>make EE bucks
>engineering life 's good
>kinda mad about my kid will never experience this because internet has been slopped and pozzed

>>106271537 (OP)
you wouldn't (couldn't) be so locked in to technology with an above average looks, so if anything tech has made your life more bearable

>>106277868
>life is only sex or technology
retard

>>106277941
>>life is only sex or technology
you're retard if you deny this

>>106271537 (OP)
How do I unsubscribe from this blog?

>>106277868
>>106277941
To end up abjectly alone like that is typically almost down to looks. If they were even of average good looks, they would not be having these problems.

>>106278007
so true anon, women would never settle for an ugly rich guy, and ugly rich men rotally never visited epstein's island, only chads get pussy

>>106278022
meaningless to mention since money can put you out of any situtation. you can get surgery and become not ugly.

>>106271537 (OP)
What is this absolute massive pile of faggotry?
OP, you fucking idiot, don't make excuses, I starting playing video games at 4... in 1998
First I learned english on my own as a second laguage, and then learned to code, and then became a software dev,

If you don't have the balls to kys, make yourself a favor, and stop making yourself the victim of your own shit.
I know how good would be to get a savior, but don't be fucking retard, and save yourself if you are gonna keep dragging yourself trough this shit that we call life.

I would have killed myself many years ago, but decided it was better to at least not increase my misery while I keep watching the world burn. It will fucking end someday, and seeing the future afer I m dead will be way more shit than what I have experienced so far is comforting.

im 26 now and i think i hit a sweet spot. the internet wasnt the wild west anymore so i didnt see a ton of gore or something, and it wasnt all short form slop either. i learned more things than i would've otherwise. i may still be a retarded autist, but my horizons are much broader

>>106278099
ok so you admit that it's your fault that you're poor and ugly

>>106278194
>you admit that's it's your fault
no, retard.

People are shitty. Computers don't judge you.
You made the right choice

>>106271537 (OP)

U sound cool op, wanna be frens?

Getting stuck in the past is the biggest trap a man can get into.

>>106271537 (OP)
I was the same, but I learned to do stuff with those computers that earns me a living nowadays.
If it’s any consolation, your problem was never being addicted to technology itself, and would’ve probably ended up a bar drunk in 1800 or something.
IDK man, I hope you find your way. You’re younger than you think. You have no idea how much you can change in just a year if you set out to do it.

>>106272213
>>106272231
I know a guy who's like this. He did poorly in school and wasn't a smart person by any stretch of the imagination, yet he thought he has arcane knowledge and a profound understanding of reality despite making repeated mistakes that he never seemed to learn from.

>>106271537 (OP)
>lust provoking gif

>>106271537 (OP)
You at least research obscure topics and gain knowledge right? I'm somewhat of an internet addict and that's what I do and that's what I have to show for it. Have you advanced an ideology?(literally any is valid if you honestly think it's just)
Also watch Welcome to the NHK. Watch it again if you already did. The only difference is a strange girl wont come to save you in the real world, but keep her in mind and you might make it.
>>106275142
>You cannot be a loner for 20 years and become a social guy the next day.
Actually you can. If you make an effort, don't over think it and follow your gut (usually you get a certain feeling when you're making people uncomfortable but socially inept people ignore it, passing it off as social anxiety)

>>106271537 (OP)
cheer up o algo

>>106271537 (OP)
I used to think just like you until a series of events a few years ago proved beyond any doubt and made it painfully crystal clear that it's all entirely my fault for being an unsociable autistic sperg that doesn't know how to interact with people to save his life.

>>106271537 (OP)
install gentoo.

>>106272288
It's not always personality disorders.
Severe social anxiety makes it so you never meet people, hence you don't make any friends in the first place. This is usually the /g/ disorder.
Personality disorders make you a self-destructive unbearable subhuman, so you make friends easily but those friendships don't last more than a few months/weeks.

>>106283365
there were gooners long before internet porn

>>106275142
I had the same upbringing as you & was super reclusive and unsocial. Worked as a chef for 3 years and it completely "cured" me. Now I have a wife and children. Literally just get out there and be social every day no matter how painful it is

>>106283451
Some people are actually just different. I've spent 6 years being super social and normal and it hasn't cured me at all, I just want to stop. I'm tired of pretending.

the internet was my escape from my parents yelling at each other or at me or hitting me

>>106277849
>>make EE bucks
most unbelievable part of this story
t. you but 6 years younger

>>106271537 (OP)
Ejaculation is my preferred method of cope

>blaming your parents for you being a loser
kek

>>106278367
Underrated trvthnvke. People complain about "lost media" and whatever but the reality is that there is so much past history of the internet archives and still around relative to what survives from a normie's memories. There's a reason that "old internet" threads on /pol/ consistently hit the bump limit in short time.

>>106283403
Severe social anxiety is a personality disorder, clusters A & B are by nature a lot more public and obvious.

>>106283625
The internet was my escape from normie hell. I realized this going to school and afterwards. And it still is.

>>106271537 (OP)
2001 zoomer here
I remember stumbling on the Pain Olympics when I was not even 10
What a wonderful world
I'm still a sane person although I'm socially awkward because I'm shy and stutter lol

>mom never let me have any sort of video games growing up
>only got an hour of computer a day, usually none
>she dies in 2006
>done nothing but be on the computer and video games since

It's like she knew