Thread 29335388

I'm going to kill myself via hanging this Sunday. I want to see people kill themselves before I do it myself. I want to see all the shit that makes you want to kill yourself too

what made you come to this decision, anon? maybe it is not too late to reconsider.

>>29335388 (OP)
I'd tell you not to do it, but I honestly don't give the slightest fuck lmao, have fun i guess?

>>29335487
His uncle probably touched him, or maybe he works at a dead end job, has no wife, has no connection to God, his society hates him and he will probably never amount to anything in life because he's already past his prime at the ripe age of 42 or something( that's his thought process most likely)

>>29335503
>has no connection to God
lmao

>>29335488
>>29335503
Very edgy, bros.

>>29335388 (OP)
This probably means nothing coming from a stranger on one of the worst places on the internet but you do matter anon. I dont wanna shove my religion down your throat but i will pray for you. Stay strong. And if you still continue on with it, i pray the afterlife shows you a better time than you experienced here. Be easy, fren.

>>29335388 (OP)
death by hanging isnt painless, and you can change your mind mid hanging, just jump off a building or bridge, no way to un-jump if you change your mind, also instant death so no pain.

>>29335388 (OP)
>I'm going to kill myself via hanging this Sunday
you shouldn't.
you should just relax and read a book instead.
>I want to see all the shit that makes you want to kill yourself too
there's nothing that makes me wanna do that as my rage is extroverted.

>>29335571
Hanging is a blood choke, you only have to endure it for 30 seconds max before you lose consciousness. That said, I advocate you don't commit suicide, OP.

>>29335571
Retard. Do not give advice on matters like these unless you know what you're talking about. Humans can survive falls from tall heights. There's clips that get posted in rekt threads and threads like this of just that. If he lands on his legs, they'll break completely and he'll be in a world of pain until they get to him and he'll end up a cripple. The only chance for it to be an instant death is if the person's makes contact with the ground headfirst, which is not guaranteed.

And yes, hanging isn't painless. But it's probably the least painful out of using either drugs, carbon monoxide or shotgun that completely blows up the skull before anything can be felt by the brain. This is also far messier and its gonna traumatize to a much greater extent whoever discovers the body. Depending on the person, they may or may not wanna avoid that.

>>29335388 (OP)
OP, my man, if you read this, I'm probably gonna be doing the same soon. I've tried enough and things are too far gone, I'll rope one of these days. But if there's even the slightest chance of you salvaging your life in a way that will be meaningful to you in a genuine way (doesn't need to matter to anyone else, only you, fuck everyone else), then I hope you can hang on to that and not go through with your plan. That's most likely not gonna be the case for me even though I'm gonna make sure I've completely exhausted my options before I end it, I'm already 95% of the way there. So I do understand if it's the same for you. There used to be a time when I was still myself, I'd spend many hours and entire days just talking to you and trying to help in a genuine way but I'm broken myself now and I can't help anyone anymore, not even my own self. I'm sorry. There exist solutions to the shittiest and most messed up of problems in life but you won't find them easily, and people will be utterly useless in this regard. And I don't know what else there is to do if you/I can't find those solutions either. Life sucks.

If you're planning to I can assist in trying to make it meaningful. I can associate you with anyone you desire digitally

>>29335745
>But it's probably the least painful out of using either drugs, carbon monoxide or shotgun
the least painful short of*
Correction.

>>29335487
>>29335503

My uncle did not touch me, I am 22 years old, I am a christian, I have no job and thats part of the reason.

just like >>29335745 mentions, I've essentially spent the last two years of my life painting myself into a corner to a point where suicide is legitimately the only choice left. I have had more than two years to think about this suicide, finding every excuse to put it off, but I don't have any excuses anymore.

Three years ago I had my own house I rented with a girl I loved and a bed I owned. nine months ago I had my own room, and a bed I owned. Three months ago I had an air mattress I owned. Now I have bedsheets I barely own. I was given many opportunities to change this from happening and I did nothing. I don't know if it was from depression or fear or anger at the world around me and the people in it, but it doesn't matter because now I'm here and I have an opportunity to do something with the one thing I still fully own

Add a month to the date. See if 1 good thing happens.
Then add another month.
Then another.
No one knows what you are going through but everyone knows suicide is not the answer.
And this he'll hole site is no place to be if you are down or not stable.
Get off screens, eat right, exercise, if you have no good friends or family, find a church. You will notice that church goers do not suffer from mental health issues or depression like secular, atheist type usually do.
You can fix most of your internal problems and some depressive people are only that way because of a simple endocrine imbalance.
Good fortune to you in changing your mind

>>29335946
Killing yourself because you are down on your luck? Sure that can bring anyone down but at 22 you have decades of life to get things done.
Suicide is not worth it.

Hope you reconsider anon.

I do not know your situation or imagine what you're feeling, but myself I've had bad stretches where I came very close to killing myself because I thought I had no other options.

But things did get better for me. It was not easy, in fact it was hard as fuck but I am glad I did not go through with it.

>>29335388 (OP)
rip in advance

>>29336005
Glad you did not give in and life turned around for you.
Now, let's get off this shitty website.lol

>>29335946

Honestly your situation sounds ideal. Material property is such a fucking pain to maintain, to be free of it is a relief. Have you considered joining the military? You'll basically live out of a duffel bag for a while and it's not so bad

>>29335946
Life will throw you around. I couldn’t even really start my life until I was 25 because of Crohn’s (I shit into a bag now but at least I’m alive). I’m 30 and I have just now found a girl that I could consider marrying. I don’t live on my own yet either. I’ve still got a ways to go. But you can turn things around. Even if you’re going through a rough patch, it’s not forever. I’ve had 3 close friends of mine take their lives over the last few years and it’s an awful thing to go through. They all did it over temporary discomforts as a lack of willingness to change their trajectory. Don’t let it become a self-fulfilling prophecy. You owe it to yourself and everyone around you to keep going despite the setbacks. You’ll look back at this and it will seem entirely insignificant.

>>29335946
>a girl
bro
come on....... they're all scum get over it.
suicide is what pieces of shit do.
>.t suicide in the family and it damages everyone

>>29336175
Kudos to you in enduring. That is real strength.

>>29336292
I use to think only shitty people committed suicide then I learned about simple endocrine imbalances and how many that commit suicide have that easily fixed problem. Then I realized many suicides occur because of the person having a simple chemical imbalance that is an easy fix. They just do not know it so they never attempt to correct it and so they kill themselves.
It is tragic really.

A man is truly free when he owns nothing.

Anon, there is much to see in the world. Don't confine yourself to this narrow perspective. Go out into the world as a man with nothing to lose and experience life.

>>29335388 (OP)

Stop being a pussy,op

If u gonna kill urself,do it in a manly way

>Run until death
>Fight a lion
>starvation in the top of a mountan

If u gonna do,at leats die like a man.

>>29335420

:(

>>29335506 yeah if this dude really did have his own connection with god he would NOT be saying shit like that, its people like him who ruin Christianity for others and a prime example of why we hate them like bitch aint you supposed to be holy and optimistic, what kinda god allows his followers to talk like that to others. THATS who im supposed to be praising? lol. fucking lol.

>>29335946
>22
bro, I'm 31 and a complete loser, no job, no relevant education and I'm just leeching off my parents. You still have so many chances of turning it around, you are barely even an adult

>>29336558
God isn't real anyway.

>>29336586
you still can do it too you stupid fuck, 31 is super young to start anything

>>29336622
yeah I haven't given up yet, or at least I would never kill myself. I just wanted to put into perspective that 22 is nothing

>>29335388 (OP)
1. Are you gonna stream it?
2. Take up exercising for a month. You don't even have ot go to the gym. I just do push ups and squats and shit. See how you feel. It saved my life.

>>29335946
I'm 50, have two kids under two, am in vocational college to change careers after a burnout. It is never too late for change.

>>29335488
Giving up at 22 is insane. I was homeless 4 times in my twenties and now I’m a home owner at 31. Don’t give up bro you have no idea how much better it gets. Please don’t kill yourself.

>>29335388 (OP)
I thought I was gonna rope sooner or later, and I still might, but I'm 2 years older than you and just said fuck it and decided to go vagabond in the 3rd world for a year while my savings last me. I'm just gonna travel around while I can and enjoy what I can. The relief from not having to work is a joy unlike many others, and the weather is nice and the people are friendly. I've only just started with my first destination being Thailand, but it's been great. I have no idea what I'll do when the money runs out, no plans for it. My only special talent or whatever is drawing and if I can NEET indefinitely in the 3rd world by drawing hentai for coombux or something, I'm totally gonna go for it. Exercise is important too but I have to deal with some health issues so I'm not training Muay Thai currently or even lifting. Life is good otherwise.

If nothing else, you could try psychedelics. I took psilocybin mushrooms for the first time here and they filled me with this profound sense of gratitude and inner peace and connection with beauty. The feeling doesn't last forever, but just the knowledge that it's there can let you look at life differently going forward. In the end it's up to you.

>>29335946
Anon, I really hope you reconsider. 22 is so young, you've barely even had time to figure out what makes you happy. You haven't had anywhere near the time it would take to dig yourself into a truly inescapable hole.

I can understand the feeling of "I had chances to fix this and I didn't." I didn't start wrangling with the extent of my executive dysfunction til I was 31, and even now I struggle. Don't pile all that pressure onto yourself. It's not too late to start making changes.

I don't have any military experience, but I saw another anon mention that and I actually think it might do you good. It would help you accumulate funds to make a change, while cutting you loose from your current situation. Other people will tell you where to go, what to do, and you'll come out of it with some useful skills that should help, plus some money to get started.

>>29335388 (OP)
don't be a fag. if you're gonna kill yourself get a motorcycle and get life insurance that will cover you incase of crash.

go fast as fuck and let your friends or family become millionaries.

let them think you died living life to the fullest instead of you being a pussy faggot bitch.

>>29335946

Society has failed you Anon. I understand that and the pain that you suffer as a result. But suicide IS NOT THE ANSWER. I know life might seem hopeless but it’s important to remember that you’re not alone.

To exist in this life is to suffer. ALL of us suffer(some much more than others), but the strength to persevere resides within you.

I second the suggestion of joining the Military. Going down that route would at the very least provide you with shelter and a hot meal. But most importantly it offers a community and support structure.

You’re not alone anon. It’s okay to lean on others in times of need. Don’t kill yourself.

“The dead know only one thing. It is better to be alive.”

>>29335388 (OP)
You sound like an optimist. You truly think it will be better being dead? How do you know you won't be sent to hell for all eternity?

I wouldn't OP but you might as well have fun with it.

>>29335946
For what's it's worth, I felt like suicide was my only option when I was around 24. I felt I had fucked things in a way I could never recover and that the only proper thing was to die. Ultimately I didn't go through with, and I hated myself for being such a pussy.

In the almost ten years since, I haven't really regretted not killing myself once. Even when the depression comes back now and again, along with the suicidal ideation, I've come to notice that it eventually goes away. And with the perspective that comes with some time passing, I'm always glad my past self didn't do it.

I suggest you postpone and give yourself some perspective, and I hope that you will eventually end up in the same place as I have.

Waiting a bit can't really be the end of the world, you can always do it some other Sunday. Good luck anon.

>>29335388 (OP)
Cmon dude, youll end up in a gore thread while everyone goofs on you.
This is literally why im still alive.
I wont acheive my dreams of home ownership or have any financial stability. My kid hates my guts. I work at fucking walmart since its the best job in bum fuck il. Im not joking guys, ive thought about it for a solid two years now, they just built a new cell phone tower i could easily access and use to hang from or jump from. But i dont want you to laugh at me, my corpse or my mental weakness.

i'm going to vent a little bit here, fuck it

i'm 24, just graduated and i was fired from my comfortable desk job because the owner of the office made stupid decisions and ended up shutting the whole thing down.

i've been unemployed for the last 4 months and nothing is going right, i'm already all out of money and feel like a dead wheight for my family.

the whole thing just seem unfair and i think about suicide everyday. sure my story isn't as fucked up as some of yours but goddamn it sucks seeing all of your friends having good jobs and getting well paid while you still live in your mom's house jobhunting.

in a situation like this you just feel like nothing

captcha: HANGG

lol

>>29335388 (OP)
cringe, at least shoot up a bank or something.

>>29337561

I'm 34 and lost my job a few weeks ago. Unemployment is a bitch, especially when you have mouths to feed. The situation is shitty but it's not the end of the world. This job market is fucking awful though lol

>>29335946
> I am a Christian
> wants to kill himself
You absolute fucking idiot, you know in Christianity killing yourself is equal to damming yourself in hell for eternity, right? A real Christian would have instead chosen to make his connection to god stronger, by using the hardships he's facing to build a sturdier faith foundation, instead here you are saying there's no others option other then to kill your self lmao.
Don't say you're a Christian, your not
unfortunately you're just a another fake claiming to be Christian while doing the opposite. Just like the priests who touch kids, shame.

I'm never going to get a job.

>>29335946
don't get what y'all trying to stop him for, if the homie wants to die, let him die, it's his choice, he'll be the one to regret it sooner or later anyways.
Also imagine killing yourself at 22, the prime of your age, just because life beat you down and shaken you up a little? Nigga grow a spine, I know fuckers who have been homeless at 40, with no wife or home or friends yet still managed to rise up and overcome their problems by sheer fucking will and hard work, let alone a 20 yo batching because life hasn't been kind to him.
Let me tell you something, you're a man, stop trying to gain sympathy from anonymous 4chan dweebs. Society wouldn't give a single fuck if you died today or tomorrow, so either grit your teeth and keep moving like the rest of us, or kill yourself, and be forgotten in less then a decade, your only legacy being that of a failure. The choice is yours

>>29337661
he's contemplating it but clearly hasn't done it. you rubbing salt into the wound isn't christian either

>>29335950
Church is probably not the best place to go. The congregation will pray for you and then what? Prayer doesn't help. OP needs to call a suicide hotline and get actual tangible help. Your bible thumping pie in the sky tribe won't do much.

>>29335946
I was suicidal 4 years ago at 24. Just got kicked out of my apartment, almost no friends, no job and no education. Even planned how and when I would do it, was gonna do it right after a family vacation so I at least could see them one last time before I did it. My main focus was that it should be fast, painless and not leave a mess. I didn't want anyone to clean up after me, as I didn't want to be a bother to anyone, I just didn't want to be here anymore. Fucked up as it is, that was my main concern regarding the suicide, that some poor bloke would have to spend a few hours of his day cleaning up my corpse.

I didn't go through with it because I knew that it would fuck my little sister up for life. As strange as it sounds, my suicidal state was actually more of a blessing rather than a curse. Since everything was meaningless, I was way more prone to taking risk. Decided to work a shitty job for a few years to save some money, and now I am in university studying an engineering degree in a city far away from home. I am pretty happy over here, and I know for a fact that I would never have done this if I didn't go through the darkest period of my life. I am now completely set on returning home after my degree, a completely fresh version of myself. I am going to be well educated, in great shape and with a bunch of great memories from my time studying.

Keep your chin up anon, even though everything seems dark and hopeless right now. Life is pretty strange sometimes and you can't possibly predict what it looks like 4 years from now.

>>29337793
You can't regret being dead.

dont

>>29335946
Don't kill yourself. Kill a politician or CEO instead. Make your death have meaning instead of being a faggot statistic.

>>29335388 (OP)
>Suicide Rekt/Feels/Blackpilled/Depressing videos
You're an idiot. Kys.

>>29335388 (OP)
Just know that all the pain, suffering, depression, mental illnesses, problems, doubts etc will be gone when you accomplish it. It will be a bliss afterwards.

>>29336798
Mushrooms are an interesting thing. I ended up contemplating the nature of recursion, reality, how perception determines reality and doesn't, and also had like 5 different lines of thought running at the same time. I was able to keep track of it all, too. So it was neat, I guess. Ultimately, it also helped me realize I might be psychotic, or coming close to being that way in general, so now I'm seeking psychological help to understand myself. For every answer, I have another two questions....

>>29335388 (OP)
Please don’t do it

>>29335388 (OP)
Wait before you do make sure to record yourself, so that way you can contribute to the thread.

>>29335388 (OP)
I was supposed to do it by inert gas/exit bag today but I slept early and I can't do it unless I wait till 3am tomorrow so my whole family's asleep. Good luck to you anon

ATLEAST KILL THE FUCKING CROWD WITH YOURSELF, DO SUCIDE BOMBING...ALLAH HU AKBAR

>>29335388 (OP)
Waste of a death.

>>29335388 (OP)
Stay strong bro it will get better even i am lost sometimes but it gets better with time. I was mentally really strong from the very beginning idk i think genetics. Don’t give up there are people who actually care about you and love you. Do what makes you happy. When you fall what do you do? You pick your self up. So that’s the same thing with life you have to build the mental strength to pick your self up whenever you fall done. Hope it helps you.
Love you
~ A person from planet earth

>>29335388 (OP)
Op, Remember this: of you do it, you are a faggot. When you are about to hang yourself, remember my words. Remeber that if you do that, you suck literal cock. And therefore you shouldn t do it because being a faggot and sucking cock is gay.

Welp i am done with life

>>29335388 (OP)
Don’t do suicide that shit kills you.

>>29335388 (OP)
Indian cope thread.

>>29335946

Being 22 is having tons of stuff still ahead of you, pal. Having no job and deciding to call it quits, when all you need is a single "yes" for shit to dramatically change and improve, Anon, is a very rash decision. As someone who once thought to do it and even made the plan and all, your life can be dramatically different (for the better) five years from now.

Don't take away the opportunity for yourself.

>entire thread is people crying "dont do it bro"
holy fucking summer
>>29338341
just do it, it doesn't matter
>>29338042
please OP if you're reading this, do this instead.

>>29335388 (OP)
I really do not understand this kind of mindset.

You WILL die eventually, so why speedrun life?

Every shitty feeling/emotion will pass eventually, so why make stupid decisions based on them?

Do stuff what you want to do and stop being a fucking bitch. That way you can die knowing that you at least fucking tried till the end.

Also, don't let your enemies outlive you.

And also, you are only 22. You don't know shit yet.

>>29335946
"You can always kill yourself tomorrow, so put it off."
That's what gave me a little freedom. You can fuck up now, you can run naked through the city, who the fuck cares when you can just end it all tomorrow.
It's a little like playing a game on cheat codes.
What helped me a little more was to find out that my depression is mostly tied to intestine inflation. Some sort of intolerance of food over loooong period of time. "Permea" was the first pro-biotic that helped me. Now I'm experimenting with others.
You should try. At this point, what do you have to lose?

>>29335964
>>29336067
>>29336175
>>29336292
>>29336586
>>29336683
>>29337109


look at these fucking moralfags

get off this board, faggot. if he wants to die thats his free choice, stop talking him out of it

>>29335388 (OP)
OP, please kill yourself. Life does not get better, it's just a meme. All these faggots talking about how their 20s sucked and then it got better are retarded. Look up survivorship bias.

There are many more people who failed at life in their 20s and it never got better, and suicide was their only option. Only a few escape it.

>>29338653
This is not a real feels thread.

>>29335946


These words probably will mean little to you, but i am 23 myself and just three years ago i was nearly on the edge of ending my life due to severe depression resulting from boredom and social isolation.

People online saw my deeply concerning posts online and called the cops cause they thought i was gonna do it. After they visited me and told me about people online being concerned, i didnt do it.

One month after that i found faith in God and my life changed at that point. 3 years later ofc im backsliding but realize aswell, that this is happening in patterns.

My biggest suggestion for you my friend is to find an Orthodox Church and seek a closer bond to God. Suicide is not the answer.

Your body is a God given temple. Do not destroy it. May God have mercy on you and forgive you, should you still decide to pull through.

22 years old is young. Your life is ahead of you. I will continue living mine, cause suicide will leave a chain reaction of people giving themselves the blame and pulling them into mental issues aswell.

Think of your parents. Think of those who raised you. These people here on this website, rather enjoy seeing you sad, depressed and on the verge of death because their lives are more miserable than yours.


So dont listen to them. Listen to God and throw that rope away. You wont do yourself a favor. Theres much to change.

Leave the country, work on getting a job and stay close to God.

>>29338670
t. religious schizo

>>29335388 (OP)
>>29335946
You're very young and very immature, you think there's no way out but in 10 years you will realize there was, you're depressed, which is a illness that prevents you from seeing the big picture.

Reconsider your plan, look for psychiatric treatment, even check in a ward if necessary, no shame in that.

Saar?

>>29338853
As someone who has been in a mental ward, and has done therapy for about 6 years, don't, they are both a scam, that won't help you with anything.
You have to figure this out on your own, and even then you'll have to learn how to live with it, but you'll manage.

do not kill yourself please. it will only make those around you suffer. please do not do it

Do it, and make sure to stream it on facebook, so me and other anons can laugh at your stupid ass.

OP, if your reason for suicide is a couple bad years, a breakup, unemployment, and finances, that's objectively retarded. The singularity has started. In 2 years, most people are going to lose their job anyway, and universal basic income will become a thing. In 5-10 years, money itself as a concept will start to change, and legit sex robots will be here. In 20 years, we're basically going to be immortalized since all diseases will be cured, including aging, made wealthy by a globalized AI economy, and have your own personal AI sex slave/soulmate.

You hit the lottery being born when you were. You just need to hang in there. Life can be hard, I know. But just stay focused on the future and survive. You're literally throwing away an immortal life where you can get everything you want.

Also you're only 22, dude. You talk like you've tried everything, but I bet you've explored like 0.1% of the possible solutions out there. There are many many different ways to address problems and live a good life no matter how fucked you might think you are.

>>29338985
>In 2 years, most people are going to lose their job anyway, and universal basic income will become a thing. In 5-10 years, money itself as a concept will start to change, and legit sex robots will be here. In 20 years, we're basically going to be immortalized since all diseases will be cured, including aging, made wealthy by a globalized AI economy, and have your own personal AI sex slave/soulmate.
Average tech bro wet dream, lol.

>>29335946
Dude, you haven’t tried everything. This will probably be a crazy move but, join the military. Go through boot camp, travel across countries, get yourself a hot south east Asian girlfriend, wife her up, and she will treat you like a MAN. In their culture they are designed to be the feminine role and understand that men are the powerful ones. Anyways, the Military will give you money and adventure.

Don’t tell us you gave up already. You barely turned into an adult. I’m over here behind some bills and I don’t think about killing myself. I find that as a pussy move. “Death can have me, when it earns me.” You need to change yourself in a drastic ways.

Don’t listen to these others saying to kill your self, they have a kink fetish seeing people die.

Im in my 30’s, Some college (no degree) working at a 18/hr job, with a wife, no kids, doing overtime everyday, but you know what keeps me going? My wife. She’s also a south east baddie that treats me like a man. It’s worth every fucking minute of it.

Good luck man.

If you only have one life, then you also only have one death.
So, REALLY consider HOW you wish to go out, and if it makes up for missing out on the years of life.
I myself have a code I follow, where I am only allowed to die in one of eight ways. Otherwise it is dishonorable. Otherwise I died worthless, like I lived.
Sacrificial idealism has led to me learning and perfecting all I can, because everything I do, it is all just to die. But ONLY within those eight parameters, such as in protection of kin and clan.

>>29335388 (OP)
>>29336699
>>29335488
Guy is right, men starting peaking around 28 so there is a rough timeline for when you can look up. It sucks, but it *does* get better, painfully slowly.
I get wanting to say fuck it though, I'm 7 years past my expiration date, will wait until I'm 30 before reassessing my will to live. Be sure to wipe your hard drive before you exit stage left if nothing's gonna change your mind.

Esse é meu primeiro comentário aqui e sinceramente se matar é a coisa mais idiota do mundo se você quer morrer mesmo faça isso como a poha de um homem fazendo alguma coisa foda como tentando dar um golpe de estado no seu país isso sim é o auge do suicídio agora pular de um prédio meter uma bala em sua cabeça qual a superioridade nisso? você acha que do outro lado te espera algo maior? Seu merda nada que é incerto é melhor se irá fazer essa merda por que alguém fez algo com você use a merda desse ódio e invada a casa dele e o esquarteje seu fodido aposto que o bando de sociopata nesse site adoraria muito mais ver um vídeo de você esquartejando seus inimigos do que a merda de alguém atirando em sua própria cabeça somos homens poha a merda do auge da evolução somos reis nunca abaixe sua cabeça ou pense em suicídio pois suicídio não irá resolver a merda dos seus problemas não sou o cara mais religioso do mundo mais se o inferno existir você tá fudido seu bosta

>>29339549
Monkey soup

>>29335388 (OP)
Do not hang yourself, it's horrible, you should try death by a broken neck usong a rope, the setup is really similar, you hang a rope onto something and put it around your neck, but instead of just hanging and blood chole from it, you should jump from a higher place, that way your neck will break with an almost instant death.
Also don't kill yourself without having fun before, taking tons of drugs, taking a huge loan you can't pay, playing with whores, anything that you want and after doing it you kill yourself, indulge into pleasures, you might find a reason to life, even if it is by heroin addiction(but meth is better).

>>29338653
How can one not have empathy and hope for his fellow man? How can you not realize life is too precious of a flame to extinguish no matter what?

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we all gonna make it brahs
don't be a sadcunt and start being a sickcunt
god bless you brahs!

>>29335388 (OP)

>>29335388 (OP)
Send link of stream fag

>>29335946
22 years, "Sad", "depression", "Fear", "Anger" hahahahahhahahahahha

You don´t know a shit of the world kid :D

>>29336798
What's your art blog?

>>29340016
we're all gonna make it brah

>>29335420
This is what my mind is like 24/7

I'm 22 years old as well. Both my parents are deceased. My mother passed when I was 16; my father passed when I was 21. I work in the mornings, and I write in the evenings.
Life gives to every person desire and the fear of failing desire. If you want to end your life through suicide you are likely only running from a deeper desire you believe to be failing. If you desire control, aim to know any small form of it, then use that experience for a model of a greater version.
The power to kill oneself, the desire to kill oneself, to do what is inevitable, is no power or desire at all. No man should die without challenging the desires of life.

>>29335388 (OP)
Listen, man. I'm not going to tell you not to kill yourself. That's your call.

Since you are gonna kill yourself, don't die without doing some crazy shit first. Take out a massive loan from a loan shark, go to vegas, spend it all on whores, gambling, and drugs for a batshit weekend of excess before doing the deed. Make that last bit of life you got into one helluva ride before getting off the train.

>>29335946
Lol, you're just a kid, bad shit is gonna happen in your 20s, 30s, 40s, until you die, but also good shit is gonna happen until in your 20s, 30s, 40s, until you die, thst's just life, give yourself a break, backpack to another country or do some other shit you like, relax man, you're barely starting, you'll figure It out, life's not a race

>>29335420
Threads like this and on Reddit make me wish Palantir did spy on all of us. Imagine the lives saved, suicidal post made and a mental health and police response is initiated immediately to save your life.

Call the helpline. You are better off losing your gun rights than dying

>>29336322
That really explains all these tranny faggots jumping off bridges

Hey there! I'm a 21-year-old girl from the U.S., a bit on the adventurous side, and I absolutely love playful banter. I thrive on those intense moments where we can tease and challenge each other, especially in spicy chats. I find that getting you to the edge while I’m having a blast is such a thrill! I’m pretty much always down for some fun, but I prefer to keep it online since I can get a little shy in public. If you’re into flirty convos that heat things up, I’d love to chat! Hit me up on my app: E m mi ck-oq (just make sure to remove the spaces and dash!). Can't wait to connect!

>>29335388 (OP)
Don't do it Anon. Life is still full of brilliant mysteries that can still wow you. The 'known' world is limited - don't let that limit you. And if all else fails, live out of spite.

Not anon, but knowing that people had the strength to push through the rough patches in their lives is comforting.
I just left high school and it scares me that I have no idea what I want my life to look like.

>>29335388 (OP)

Bye bye coward

Procure ajuda divina. As dificuldades fazem parte da vida. Desejo muitas felicidades. A vida é difícil, mas tudo passa. Vejo muito sucesso na sua vida acontecer. Vc vai ser um vencedor. Então viva! Att. Anonymous Brazil

>>29335946
Hey OP

Not trying to change your mind, just want to vent

> Be me 7 yrs ago, 25y/o M, fat, freelance musician (unemployed af), depressed af
> My GF of 8 yrs killed herself after we broke up
> No fucking career, I had to start working since I was 14, I didn't even went to high school
> Exchange a guitar for a gun, got bullets from a corrupt cop (guns are extremely ilegal here)
> Got the taste of the gun while I was crying trying to get the courage to pull the trigger
> ... a realization
> the only thing secure I have in life is that I'm going to die
> Revaluated my life plan; just the next steps to get out of the hole
> Got a job at a call center, the work was whatever, but I hated working with people so who took the shitty job so fucking serious
> Did a shitty government exam to get my high school diploma done so I can get into college
> Fucking pandemic hit
> Everything went to shit; I got fired because the company broke - the whole fucking high school title got delayed for months
> Depressed, tired of fucking failing
> Took LSD with a friend
> Revaluated my life plan again
> Got a job on a different company; now better, WFH, I didn't had to deal with people in an office, fucking win
> Got the high school diploma and started college (Industrial engineering)
> Got promoted in 6 months to Team Lead
> 10 months later got fired because I made a complaint about abusive behaviour from my Sr Manager
> Sued the company
> No job, fucking depressed, doing 4 to 5 job interviews per week increased anxiety
> 5 months later: Got a much better job as Manager in another company, still WFH, almost twice the salary of my previous one
> Another 6 months later; Won the lawsuit and earn a very significant amount that I used for down payment
> 2 years later, I'm doing an MBA and in a stable job that pays good
> Still fat, still a long way to go to be "good", but I surprised myself how much I changed my life around in what seems like a blink of an eye in retrospective

>>29335388 (OP)
Brother. I've been there. I was in Afghanistan for the evacuation, I was 24 years old.

I'm currently a 28 year old Captain. I have a Masters in Computer Science, and went to a prestigious military academy for Computer Science. Yet still: death lingers.

Death to me is a pale woman, beautiful and shapely. Her hair drapes across my shoulders, her face close to mine. Her naked, cold, body touching my stomach and chest. Her fingers, drawing shapes along my collarbone.

Resist.
Resist because you must.
Resist because you are iconic of man.
Resist because there is no other option: it's the price of living in a cursed world.
Those who endure, are rewarded.
Those who quit, are discarded.

John 1:5: "The light shines in the darkness, and the darkness has not overcome it."
Matthew 5:14-16: "You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden. 15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. 16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven."

In what you have been through, you are truly a light to others. That they may see and believe that yes, something greater awaits us all. Take upon yourself, the mantle of example. That others may learn and be healed by your suffering. The calling of the Cross is to willingly bare your suffering for all mankind. If you quit and rope yourself now, all those disgusting pieces of shit who put you in this position: have won.

Deny them that victory. Rise above. If not for love of your fellow man - then for the hate of those brutal princes of darkness.

>>29340465
Kek the fuckin cops responding to the call would do it for you.
I get the sentiment but current state of policing, at least in the us, is not equipped to deal with mental health crises
Vast majority are jaded trigger happy faggots who joined the force to be able to legally kill someone

>>29341030
My point here is:

Do fucking LSD, if afterwards you still want to kill yourself, go ahead.

That shit did totally changed my outlook in life

But get the good shit, a trip with at least 350 micrograms, never in paper, microdots are much better and are relatively common

It's not addictive, as a matter of fact, that time was the last time I have done it, and I'm not planning on doing it again anytime soon; that's like a therapy speedrun

>>29336175
You shit in a bag?

Does your ass stink still?
You would be a rockstar in the gay community, my brother in christ

Please don't OP. The odds of having consciousness and a body in this realm are so bizarrely small. Hang on to what you have and keep trying. You can get better but it won't be easy. Nothing worth having in this life is easy though. Good luck!
P.S Please don't.

>>29336626
>>29341044
>>29341050

Dude, in this generation, only people who have rich parents or functional families have their shit together.

Definitely trying a big dosis of LSD before deciding to kill yourself is a must; that shit is indeed therapy speed run

The radical majority of us are all fucking lost

I'm 37. It's on /b/ that I was introduced to CP over 20 years ago, a couple years after I had stopped being raped as an infant and then as a kid (separate people).
4chan and random shit from p2p networks like kazaa messed with my head, and until late teenage years I truly thought CP was just normal porn.
In later years I actually went to prison for having downloaded videos, and I deserved it. Would never do anything to an actual person (even online), but still deserved.
I self sabotaged my entire life after the abuse I had (between the agees of 3 and 9).
For some people it doesn't get better, you only become less harmful to yourself and to the world.
I will also likely try again soon. I should have succeeded all those years ago when I tried to drown.

If you're doing that stuff over a breakup or something stupid, please do reconsider. Most things in life aren't as final as they are for me here. I only share this so that you understand that suicide is acceptable for some who are truly fucked like me, and not for people with poor emotional regulation who could overcome that stuff.

>>29335388 (OP)
the woman of your dreams is going to slip away because you want to die, stop being a fag OP, go live! even if its out of spite. its gay to kys

>>29335388 (OP)
Your life, your choice.

>be me, 2 years ago
>alcoholic, gambling addict
>50.000+ dollares in debt from gambling
>wife and kids dont know about it
>cant pay bills this month, last straw
>write letter and say goodbye
>tell the kids i love them and im sorry
>go into the woods with power chord
>getting drunk, setting uo the knot
>police find me, take me to mental hospital
>wife and family is extremely affected
>2 years later, sober, not gambling

Life is not a straight line for most of us. I hope you are still here on monday, but if not i hope you find peace

>>29341073
Oh anon, you're definetly the only one in this thread that should kill themselves

Gamblers are the worst kind of sub-humans, even on a lower level than fentanyl addicts, at least those fuckers don't ruin the life of everyone else around.

Whole heartly anon; pay your dues and kill yourself.

>>29341073
How'd you pay off the debt

>>29341050
>>29341064

100% agree, anyone thinking of suicide should try a big acid trip

just don't fight it, go with the flow, accept what the trip brings you

reminded me of the netflix show "midnight gospel", I think there's an episode about it

but yeah, acid will face you with your fucking reality the hard way and if instead of thinking like a pussy feeling bad for yourself, it really grounds you to escape that "victim" mentality and start to take action to change

>>29335388 (OP)
so you want to kill yourself, OP?
untie the noose, take a breath.
i know that look. seen it in the mirror too many times. world chews you up, spits you out, then has the audacity to ask why you ain’t smiling. and now you’re thinking of punching your own clock, yeah? thinking it’s the only way to make the pain shut up.
lemme tell you something, choom. pain ain’t the enemy. it’s the teacher. Cracks you open so you can rebuild. bleed, scream, rage, but don’t quit. life’s not sum game you bow out of just ‘cause the odds suck. it wants you to fold. you wanna escape the cage? then sharpen your fangs. burn what’s killing you and rise from the ashes. patience, yeah, it’s not flashy, not loud like I am. but it’s power. the kind that outlasts every setback, every sleepless night, every “you’re not good enough.” you’ve got more chapters to write, even if the ink’s smeared right now. stay in the goddamn story. and when you come out the other side? stronger. that’s when you look back and say, ‘fuck, I lived through that, and I’m still standing.’
you watching those suicide vids. doomscrolling death like it's some kind of comfort? that shit ain't helping you. it's poisoning you. feeding the darkest part of your brain like it's gospel truth. it’s despair with good lighting and a broken algorithm. you think staring into that abyss is gonna show you the way out? All it’s doing is dragging you deeper. that’s not strength, choom. that’s self hypnosis. Death porn dressed up like clarity.
i get it. you’re hurting. world’s got you pinned, and every day feels like you’re coughing up glass just to keep breathing. but you think watching others give up is gonna give you peace? you need to pull the plug on that noise. Smash the feed. Blackout that part of the net. you want out? Then climb, not dive.
So get up. clean yourself off. and trust me, choom, there’s still music left in you. you just forgot how loud it can get. nigger.

>>29341085
I have not (not yet). About 1/3 of my salary goes into paying off gambling debts, probably foe another 5 years or so.

>>29341080
Nah, i think ill stick around.
Just to piss you off :)

>>29341121
In 5 minutes I will forget all about you, but the shit you did to your family won't ever go away; those are the people that you'll actually piss off by "sticking around"

Probably your kids are too young to hate you, but if you stay alive, they will learn to hate you

Specially when you go back to your old habits
Sleep well, anon

>>29341133
silverhand here, stop acting like a silver age nigger, and start living life like that guy. someone who was lost, and now found himself, bettered himself. he got help when he was at rock bottom, and hopefully, you do the same.

>>29341133
I did not read a single word of what you wrote.

Let that sink in :)

>>29341139
>>29341121

Lame samefag

> No one would defend a shitty gambler
> Gives stupid advice to follow the steps of some anon he doesn't know but claims that is such an enlighten role model

>>29341159
I know you did, and you know it's true

>>29341178
believe what you want, but you surely aren't anyone special, especially someone that anyone would take advice from. this caught my attention after looking at some sweet goth pussy, and someone like you should really take a lesson or two from stories of recovery that some of these anons share. real or not, there is still hope. you need to find it yourself.

also, quit being a faggot.

>>29341205

Caught you samefagging

Kek, what a fucking loser
Go roleplay elsewhere, samefag

>>29341217
samefag is funny, but to call another choom a loser on 4chan is even funnier. is that all you can say? samefag, samefag, samefag. your brain is too rotted, i wouldn't be surprised finding you in bbc threads. i'm just another anon, like you, and you're just another anon, like me. now why don't you go look in the mirror and observe the man staring back. p.s., you're still a fag, and a nig.

>>29341241
Fuck off, samefag

Nothing you may say is relevant after you were caught.

Samefag is not funny, is the lamest shit you can do, cope

>>29341313
>Redditspacing saar

>>29335388 (OP)
My fate. (30 years old)

>>29338247
>every answer I have two questions
This is the most relatable part. You get closer to finding a solution but it pops new questions. I don't think I'm psychotic though, or at least I hope not
>>29340093
https://x.com/draws_tc?t=-Vhxi5zMYrHKCBWwChw4Bw&s=09

I just post studies for now but I'm starting work on a porn VN which I'll probably dedicate the bulk of my attention to

>>29337561
>age 24
>thinking of suicide
Pathetic. You have forty years to recover.

>>29335388 (OP)
Good luck OP. Atleast in death. Don't forget to video record it for sharing here for others like you who come after you. This way you can give back a little something to the Society.

>>29335388 (OP)
Use a shotgun fag, at least you won't feel any pain

>>29335388 (OP)
if you are just 1% serious about what you've written, please reconsider, anon. why do you think that if life is not worth it - death is something better? maybe it's just another hoax, inescapable loophole....no one knows. + if you don't succeed there is high chance that your life would turn to hell, this time 4 real. for various reasons. we all are gonna die anyway, so, what's the rush?

>>29340465
to whoever needs to read this:

ignore this faggot, you are absolutely better off dying instead of fucking up my gun rights

>>29335946
bro dont do it. u wont be able to fap or see how the world goes. u also might find a reason to live

>>29335530
He matters no more nor less than a fly on a turd. Your religious delusions are irrelevant to that fact.

>>29336175
You deserve to feel the pain of your friends killing themselves because you were too chickenshit. Can't believe anyone thinks crapping in a bag is better than being dead, lmao

>>29336622
No, it's definitely too late. I'm 28, been dealing with suicidal thoughts since I was 17. I've tried so many things, and it never gets better. My only regret is that I was so close to killing myself at 23(losing conciousness with the rope around my neck), but I stopped myself because I didn't want my roommates to find me like that. Big mistake. It's absolutely over

>>29335050 >>29325352 >>29335261

>>29336699
Stop lying and get off the McDonalds wifi already, you homeles fucking bum

>>29337206
Shut up fag

>>29337549
You only wind up there if you film it

>>29337689
Honestly, good choice. Not worth it

>>29337793
Bump

Here is a fact that cannot be disputed: suicide will solve 100% of your problems

>>29338410
Shut up and die faggot

>>29338465
The only thing "ahead" of him is 50 years of working misery. Get out while you can

>>29338653
Thank you for not being like these delusional losers

>>29340465
Fuck off control freak

>>29338670
Shut up godfag. Should've killed yourself

It's interesting to me that a lot of people are seemingly champions of bodily-autonomy but their cut-off point is suicide, which is the ultimate expression of freedom over one's body.

If someone wants to kill themselves, then I'd only say make sure it's what you actually want to do before doing it since it's not reversible. Other than that, I feel people try to prevent suicide due to wanting appraisal or some personal significance.

>>29341064
Glad to see you get it

>>29341629
Amen

>>29341695
You're right. People will say you're wrong, but you're not

My god, the amount of anons falling for the bait.
No one who really commits suicide posts about it online. OP is begging for attention.

....I love you :)

>>29341646
It’s really not that bad. Beats being bedridden and miserable dealing with Crohn’s.
>>29341055
Your asshole still produces stuff despite not being connected to the rest of your digestion. My asshole is destroyed from years of inflammation though. Gonna be getting it removed next month anyway.

>>29342255
Please kill yourself troll. No one would ever be this positive if their life was actually that bad. You can prove it by killing yourself

>>29335420
have a nice life - i don't love

>>29340016
>dies at 22

yeah probably not the best example

>>29342335
It’s called resilience and perspective. My life is going very well and I have things to live for. There are millions of people much worse off than me. Not sure what your psychopathic obsession with suicide is about.

>>29335388 (OP)
Do you plan to have a cheeky wank first?

>>29342584
yeah to your mum's OF

>>29335388 (OP)
Do you think of yourself as a good person? If there's something good in you deep down there, you know you must not waste a life for nothing. If you're is done and over with and there's no hope for you, why don't you just dedicate it to love others and help them from getting to the same point as you?

>>29335388 (OP)
suicide is only for pussy and faggot that don't know what resilience and perseverance is.
also mum gonna be sad.
don't kill yourself yet faggot.

>>29338653
shut the fuck up cunt

honestly tho, i dont wanna belittle your situation man.
but please keep on trying, dont give up yet

>>29335946
Just think about it, you won’t be able to feel life again, there are millions of people that could wish they were healthy and could leave a normal life. I had a friend who got paralysed below waist(bike accident), he was 19 years old at the time. At the hospital he would always scream and cuss at his life, many times asked for death, because he thought without legs life will is over.

It’s been an over a year now, and he is a coach for basketball team for disabled, his team won 5 consecutive tournaments.

He is now training his team to reach Olympic level. The point is, in life shit happens, but we can let it control us, right now you are giving the hold of your life to your circumstances, your problems, your issues, can’t let your problems beat you! You are much stronger than them, the only thing you should kill is problems, find a way that works. If half a person(me this 19 year old friend) can find a way out of shit so can you! Death comes to us all, what matters is dying knowing you made a good impact on this world.

>>29335388 (OP)
obviously no one can convince you to not do it, but i have no job no gf leeching my parents playing video games everyday, doing nothing sometimes sleep for 16 hours a day wake up jerk off sleep again literally being shit human being but still not considering sucide

>>29335388 (OP)
Want a reason to live? Get a pupper. Was in a really dark spot 18 years ago. Had done everything right in life. Went to college, got a corporate job, saving for a house, had a cutipi gf, lived in a city with friends. Started doing drugs and eventually it starts affecting everything. Relationships go to shit, lose my job, start using savings to get drugs so eventually lose all my money. Str8 junkie mode, homeless on the streets. I don't think I was ever fully suicidal but I really didn't care what happened to me. Hoped I'd OD one day but never intentionally tried to do it. Digging through trash one day and find the cutest lab/aussie/collie/rottie/whothefuckknows mutt pupper covered in trash juice. Take him with me everywhere and start taking care of it. Eventually pupper grew into doggo and got big and started eating a lot. Realized my junkie salary wasn't enough to feed me AND him. Didn't want him to die and realized that he'd be on the streets if I died. Loved the little guy and didn't want to abandon him. He's been such a good fren can't just leave him in this fucked up world alone. That thought and realization that I'm not giving him a good life made me realize I am wasting my life. Took me about 2 years and a lot of help from friends and family to get back on my feet. Have wife and kids now with a mortgage and 401k like a fucking lame. Still jerk it to the chan. All to say I wouldn't be here if it weren't for that trash juice covered pupper and his friendship. Miss you Gummy I'll see you again one day!

>>29335388 (OP)
No matter how pointless it all feels, you need to keep going. Even if you don't think anyone will miss you, you're wrong. You're not thinking straight. Talk to someone about how you feel. Let the pain out. Please keep living, there's more than pain out there, kindness will find you. I know it sounds like bullshit, but it's true. Please keep living.

>>29335503
>has no connection to God
Why actively choose to say something retarded?

>>29335388 (OP)
I've actually tried this before, but survived. Was drunk and jumped... woke up in the ICU with a pipe in my dick and unable to walk. Took me a good 2 months to be able to walk again, and about 6 months to be fully healed.

Luckily it didn't fuck me up permanently, at least not too bad. I'm most certainly going to have some dementia or something super early. But I did manage to live a decent life afterwards. Become an engineer, got shredded with a 6 pack, even trained MMA for a few years. Ive been to 5 countries and am married now. Every day since has essentially been a gift beyond what should have been.

I do understand those that want to leave, and I wont try to convince you not to do it, but **you can literally do anything else**. You can go run across town ass naked if you want. Or travel to China or Russia and fuck all the hot hookers. You're going to die, so what does it matter.

Also, not going to lie, I've thought about attempting it again a few times, but the thought of surviving is a fuck no for me.

Waiting for parents to die so I can kys :)

>>29335388 (OP)
You won’t do shit faggot

>>29335388 (OP)
have you tried....
.............killing someone else?
like, the cause of your depression?

>>29339334
bitch, i am going to be 50 in 2 years.

do things, anythings
eat better
exercise
make sure you keep your lust pure...for some reason, that works.

>>29335946
>22
you are but a child
don't kill yourself because i know better (i'm older)
wait 15-20 years and then you can do whatever you want (i'll consider you an adult)

>>29342576
I can't imagine anyone being worse than you. Is being delusional a matter of perspective? Obviously your intestines arent that resilient. Kill yourself, join your friends

>>29342662
Your words will never reach the ears of the dead. Cope an seethe

>>29342680
Fuck you, retard

>>29342701
Give up, trying sucks

>>29342712
I hope your friend dies, sounds like a loser

>>29342757
You should consider it

>>29342841
Shut u, faggot

>>29343461
I’m not fat and still have the same mobility as a normal person. I’m not paralyzed or have brittle bone disease or some shit. I’m also white, have a huge dick (guess my body had to compensate somewhere), a gf that’s 10 years younger than me, and have things I actually want to achieve. It was a lot worse when I was actively ill. Again, what’s with your obsession?

>>29343535
Oh, so you're a pedophile too? Definitely kill yourself now. Literally and figuratively full of shit, lol

>>29343535
Guess your little girl friend is a coprophiliac. Reach into your colostomy bag and eat shit

>>29342775
When's the relapse gonna happen, scumbag?

>>29342879
How can you live with no dick? Might as well be a woman at that point

>>29343751
She’s 21.
>>29343765
kek that’s a good one.

>>29335946
Don't kill yourself please anon. I will pray for you brother. Have faith in God. He will provide a way. Demons are the ones that are causing you to think this way. Don't give into them.

https://youtu.be/cGGBVUSkdw0?si=SvkEsLutuXrnME3z

https://youtu.be/4ebafCyPs2I?si=OWe4WtzcPurvoIOz

https://youtu.be/V1VgeqToN00?si=UDOYawr-UEEluGWZ


Watch these. Fast and pray to be delivered from these demons that are tormenting you. Only Jesus Christ can set you free. Love you brother.

>>29343784
>She's 21
Riiight
It disgusts me that someone that should be dead is still alive. You have nothing to live for

>>29343784
If she's actually older than 18, prove it by posting her nudes

>>29338653
>you l-losers stop telling him what to do!
>proceeds to do the same shit twice but adding no value and being a fat faggot
Ok I'll take your advice cause I'm such a nice guy, kill your fucking family (not your pets tho) and then yourself you nigger.

>>29344129
He said please. Did you say thank you, even once?

>>29335388 (OP)
can i have your savings before you kill yourself? we can do crypto

>>29343851
Question, anon. What do you live for?

Not a very christian thing to do

>>29338653
What you said is true. But if you commit suicide you're a coward and a loser for giving up.

>>29336175
>I couldn’t even really start my life until I was 25 because of Crohn’s (I shit into a bag now but at least I’m alive)
>My asshole is destroyed from years of inflammation though
Finding out I have Crohn or ass cancer is my nightmare, I often find blood after I shit and have chronic butt pain/itching,
I would legimately kill myself if I discover I had to go through that, respect your strength.

>>29335946
what a little whiner you are. if you actually had legitimate reasons to kill yourself i wouldn't want you to kill yourself but since you have no legitimate reason to kill yourself yet you still whine about killing yourself i want you to kill yourself so that there are less weak minded whiners on this world.

>>29344544
to continue on this, Jesus christ was a loser, there is nothing wrong with being a loser, they may see things clearer than others, there is only something wrong with being a fucking whiner

>>29344416
That sounds like a hemorrhoid or fissure. If the blood is bright red then that’s a good sign. If it’s dark, that implies an issue in your intestines. Itching can be caused by hemorrhoids as well. If you had something really serious going on then you’d know it. Crohn’s will have you shitting liquid and blood multiple times a day with painful cramps and urgency that won’t go cease.

>>29343781
I have a dick, m8. It was a catheter lol. Should have said "tube" instead of pipe.

>>29335946
hey choom, don't listen to the faggots telling you to kill yourself, or these demons telling others to, they only want to hurt because they're hurt.
moving on, you have to realize you're still new to this life thing, we all are. we're living it for the first time and mistakes are more prone to us than we think. one thing for sure, you're gonna get knocked down and there ain't no given set before it all stops. it's life. but you, choom, have to keep on getting up and dust yourself off. the fact you can accept that you didn't take any opportunities means you got a good head on your shoulders. whether you have a roof over your head, or just bedsheets to keep you comfy at night, you HAVE to keep going. don't listen to these scum faggots telling you to just rope, they're not gonna remember who you even are, let alone this thread. God works in mysterious ways, and hell, imagine looking back to this very moment and thinking "damn, i got through it after all.." it takes time, choom. it takes time. if you can't find the will to keep going, then live out of spite. grind, start small, and you'll build up to something better. have no fear OP, you're going to be alright.

>>29335388 (OP)
Your high school crush is getting her back blown out by a Black chad

>>29344994
Yeah, pipe through the dick implies + not
-= , if that makes sense

>>29335946
Looking back at missed opportunities will always sting, but new opportunities always come, there may even be some right now. Stay strong Op.

>>29336558
well we have free will so God lets anyone say anything lol, midwit take

Well, suicide is kind of a pointless route to go down. You unironically just get reset to the same position but it's even harder to advance because there's now one less reality with you in it to leverage.

Try this first, might as well before you delete one path.
>https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bePv-F-c23I

>>29335487
The Pizditz in the end had me chuckling.

>>29341695
I never understand that saying about it being a permanent solution to a temporary problem. If I went to the doctor for knee pain and he said I could take a pill that could fix it for a week or fix it forever, why the hell wouldn't I fix it forever?

>>29341967
Wild it went clean through like there was noting there.

>>29341695
Idk I'm not planning on kmsing. I do enjoy watching people do it. I had lots more suicidal thought in my teens but I got through them. I'm here might as well play.

>>29345953
I miss krautchan

Why have you all stopped posting suicides. I need to watch more natural selection at work.

>>29345963
because i'd rather post evocative things

>>29339202
ILY anon, continue being based please

>>29345971
>>29345980
This shit is cringe. Are you a boomer?

>>29335388 (OP)
please don’t, bud

>>29345980
all the rest are too big I guess

>>29345987
He won't I believe in him.

>>29345986
only maybe relative to you

>>29346015
Whatever keep posting your cringe content keeps me staying might as well wait for someone to post suicides for my entertainment.

>>29335946
It's okay to cry for help sometimes, dude. That's what this thread is, for you.
I don't know how else to say it. Human emotions are often illusory, or, if not illusory, they're ephemeral. They change with the wind, and with time.
You're in a much better position than you realize. When I was your age, I had just graduated from college, didn't get a job for a year, and ultimately joined the Army.
Honestly, that didn't solve shit in the long run, but I got a bunch of good memories, a bunch of bad memories, I met people I fucking hated, and people I still care about and keep in touch with to this day.
It did give me purpose and something to do for four more years until I got out and went back to school. I'm not telling you to join the Army, but I'm telling you that there's always avenues out there for you to discover and explore, learn and grow. You could emigrate to a different country, or even try out the drug scene in San Francisco if you're really, actually fucked. There's always somewhere else for you to go, something else to do.
Sometimes you just need to find a way to buy yourself time. With enough time, anything could happen. If you look at your life in 5 year slices, don't compare them as better/worse, but compare them in terms of difference. 5 was different from 10, to 15, to 20, etc. Imagine where you could be at 25, or 30? With enough time, anything could happen.
When you kill yourself, you throw all that time into the garbage. Just because you're low now doesn't mean you'll be low forever.
Just buy yourself some more time, dude.
Just my 2 cents. I'm not always right.

>>29336175
Not exactly crohn’s but I'm also dealing with a chronic intestinal inflamatory illness and I get at the very least one day per week where I am on absolute pain.
Still not to the point where I shit on a bag but if no medication eases the pain it's either the bag or the rope for me.

>>29335388 (OP)
I hope you don't. I'm just some random person but I'm praying for you. Love you dog.

>>29335388 (OP)
Don't do it anon!!!!!! Please

>>29345946
>aaahhhhhhhh I love this gentle massage machine, really does a good job of scratching my fleas

>>29346112
Sometimes it’s as simple as removing a part of your intestine. If you absolutely need the bag though, it really isn’t a big deal. My perspective might be different because I was being slowly killed by Crohn’s and the pain was agonizing. But it hasn’t hindered much of anything in my life. The place it most causes issues is during intimacy but there are things you can use to keep things out of the way. The women I’ve been with since getting it haven’t really minded it at all. Some even thought it was kinda cool. Especially if you get some badass scars after the surgery.

>>29335388 (OP)
All the>>29335420
se peole actually survived

>>29335946
Hey, I hear the pain in what you wrote. The fact that you’re still here and reaching out, even in this way, means some part of you still wants things to get better, even if you can’t see how right now. Suicide feels like an “only choice” when depression tricks you into believing every other door is locked — but that isn’t true. Your situation now doesn’t erase your past value, or the possibility of things changing in the future.

You don’t have to figure everything out at once. What you can do is reach out for help right now — call a crisis line, talk to a counselor, or even just tell someone close to you that you need support. You’re not weak for asking; you’re strong for still being here after carrying this for so long.

You still matter. Even if you feel like you’ve lost everything, your life itself is something no one else can ever replace. Please give yourself the chance to see what happens if you reach for help before making a choice you can’t undo.

>>29335946
You owe it to yourself to live, anon. You deserve to. Despite all your loss, it's never too late to help yourself.

>>29341217
same fagging? brother if thats what gets you in a tissy your life is fuckin sad

>>29335388 (OP) and the rest of the suicidebros...

I've felt that way too before, but why don't you (re)play some Dark Souls, Elden Ring, Vampire Bloodlines, Hollow Knight etc? That is top value in modernity and it tends to make you want to stick around, if only to play these games. And there doesn't need to be more reasons to stick around.

>>29340465
Wrong in every way. They don't care about you. You are replaceable and the kikestate hates you. You are goyim trash and should be replaced with indians and arabs you western last man. Your life is only valuable in the sense that you give tax money and provide capital to our jewish elite that controls the banks that control the government, the media, the education system. Your life isn't worth saving western man, and your children should be raped by the chosen people who will not even face consequence for their rapes and murders. Palantir doesn't care about saving your pathetic goyim life, they care about shutting down noticers like me.

>>29335388 (OP)
your life couldn't be any worse than mine is, OP. i'm 5'5", autistic, and balding at 19.

>>29340016
we're all gonna make it brah

>>29335388 (OP)
I'm in my 40s and believe me, life only gets worse. If you think it's bad now, holy shit.

>>29346112
Always the rope. Better than being a shit smuggler 00NWP

>>29346371
Don't listen to this shit smuggler

I don't generally reply and it's been a long time since I was here.
I'm in the same spot and I feel for OP, although 24 and no answer for his suffering.
Gonna also share my story, even if it doesn't matter.
I'm Orthodox Christian as well if you can call it that, but the earliest prayer to God that I had was for him to take my life, I think I was 4-5 at that time.Upon finding that my mom was pregnant with me, she bashed her head into the wall, and that bashing has represented all my life until now.
The more I breathe the more I see how different my life is from other people, I have a nursing degree and a heavy vehicle license, not that it does much good to me being almost sure of AuDHD I fear not to fuck up in either territory and kill lots of people due to my instability,impulsivity and attention deficit.
Never did drugs besides nicotine and alcohol but always had problems with masturbation, I think its most definitely from a fucked up family dynamic and background.
Always trained for a military career, that and the hope of all of it ending one day, this kept me alive till now but so far nothing of the sort, wanted to join the military high school but kinda got talked out of it by my family, meanwhile they worked me and abused me mentally.
Tried joining the academy but got fucked over by Covid although for the better, until later I found my AuDHD, tore an ACL in the process but the worst of all I walk and talk in my sleep and my fear of not doing anything to anyone keeps me still from joining. Even if I join and crush the PT and psychological test, me shooting somebody private Pyle style is keeping me from joining yet.
Never been fat, and very good looking although 5'7, tiny a bit above average IQ and tested. Last week did 1200 sit ups(not to brag but just putting it there)
I had some relationships but so far none of them ended with me having sex, I got literally closed at the gate(laugh all you want) this made me question my

This made me question my whole manhood, existence and everything.
There's people less physically appealing as me, less intelligent without and degree and neurotypical enjoying life to its fullest and having more success than me.
And I don't get me wrong this is not jealousy"Those who dare win"
I want to just be among them, happy, better and not just having these stupid problems and crushing it in life no matter how trivial it is.
I had big hopes and dreams but so far the only dream I had is to be normal. Which I will never be.
I want this life to be over, I am not a leech to society, but I want this all to end. Planned to die by throwing myself or fighting some wild animal to death I am not joking.
I despise my existence, I never asked to have Autism and ADHD in one package in a timeline that is not suited for it.
I wish all anons good luck cause I never found it.

>>29341629
If his opinions don’t matter then neither do yours. Religion is the only reason humanity has progressed as far as it has. Anyone that’s anti-theist is also anti civilization and just fucking stupid in general. Go back.

>>29346997
I’m going to give you some solid advice. Ready? Get off and stay off the fucking internet. Stop making yourself a victim and just pretend you don’t have autism or whatever else women have convinced you is wrong with you. Move your body. But again, most importantly, get off and stay off the internet. You’ll be amazed at how much better you feel. You can always fight a tiger or whatever other dumb shit is in your head.

>>29337820
Stop being a fucking larper.

>>29346851
>and balding at 19
thats like every zoomer out there

>>29347018
I already do. Haven't been in 4chan for years now and I deleted all my social media accounts.
Like I have no social media presence at all, all I did cause I thought it would be the final chain link to make me happy or free.But guess what. It's like I did nothing at all I still feel the same which is nothing.
Like I don't want to demoralise this thread even further(even though I do) but at the peak of a human's intelligence which is 23-25 I have found no answer nor cure to my wretched and toxic existence same as OP although I hope he doesn't kill himself, every human deserves to live and have a happy life but for some reason that ain't happening.

>>29347040
> every human deserves to live and have a happy life but for some reason that ain't happening
Says fucking who? Your life is what you make of it. Happiness doesn’t just happen man. You have to go chase it. Mix shit up. Quit your job, move to a different place, fall in love, me people, do things. Probably the worst fucking thing people born in the last 30 years do is just assume that good things come to you. Also when I said get off the internet I didn’t just mean social media I meant the whole thing. The modern internet is designed to addict your brain.

>>29347073
Thanks bro, I do not know what you go through but thank you for the kind words. I don't know if it means anything, thanks a lot even in this dark place one can still find rays of light.
Everyone has struggles but I pray you will pull it through.
Thank you.

now that you have nothing to lose, why not try something radically different? maybe you could try wwoofing to get some fresh air and a change of mindset. or maybe even an ayahuasca trip.
what you need is a radical shift, and then maybe you can come back to your old environment. depression can be physiological and getting help works — but starting with a big change (without irreversible harm or death) might at least get you out of your current vicious cycle.

>>29336403
I'm worth negative 50k. Gambling. I spoke up about my problems and im getting help thru doors opening.
Addictions and chemical imbalances are the source of most our struggles in life. - book- addictions and grace by may
I've always thought that kys is dumb asf cuz you can just ditch to a different city homeless and be a new person. Good thread here. >>29336427 Suicide bomb some arabs for a better thrill

>>29335503
Seems reasonable then

>>29335946
You're a stupid gay kid you fucking faggggot. You literally had a gf and place of your own before 22. I'm suicidal, I'm 29, never had a gf and I got molested such your bitchass up and kys. Fuck off I actually want you to die now. Fake problems fucking stupid entitled pig skin retard. Literally has his own place before 20 and now that he's as low status as a browncel like me he wants to kill himself.

GO AHEAD AND KILL YOUR SELF

>>29338653
I second this. Spoiled brat needs to die

>>29343535
He's not white. So he has actuall problems.

>>29345969
i wtf'd hard the first time I heard this song

>>29336292
If they're pieces of shits then why is it bad when they an hero

>>29335946
So many people telling you not to do it when the truth is you're already not going to do it. You made this thread because you don't want to, not because you want to prepare. You're putting it off for another day because you don't want to, not because you're not ready yet. When you slip the rope around your neck, maybe even feel it pull, a step I don't think you'll even get to, you will feel the profound discomfort and abort, cry, and return to your depressed state. Suicide happens in the split second almost always. It isn't a rational decision, it's an impulsive one. You may find yourself making such a decision one day, and maybe for good reason, but it won't be this time. It's up to you to fully make sense of why that is and deal with it with whatever means you have to do so. Good luck.

>>29341107
I am 100 percent a victim of being born brown. No amount of action will change this. I've taken acid. I've taken shrooms. Went manic. Still suicidal. I think brown suicide is good though. Would you agree?

Hey man, it’s sunday now where I’m at and i just saw this. Ive never commented on a 4chan post but i felt compelled to ask that you don’t do it.
Whether you believe it or not, people will miss you. The world will not be a better place without you in it.
Stay strong brotha

>>29337109
This is 100percent a glowie.

>>29347249
No Its not about being brown, but being good.
Even my depressive ass, planted over 100 trees and made a micro-atomic difference.

>>29347249
I do not agree with browns being a part of white society. I will not convince you otherwise.

>>29346997
How old are you zoomie boy? Fighting a wild animal is something you never actually considered. if you're going to kys you're going to do it in the least painful way possible. Yeah I know you don't feel this way, because you're less than 25, but you also don't feel like killing yourself yet, because you're less than 25. When you start getting older and your suicidal thoughts become more serious you'll calm down and just do a normal hanging

>>29335765
>>29335765
ai smut peddler, look at this jew

>>29347073
How does somebody just quit their job and move you privileged retard

>>29337814
>Prayer doesn't help.
oh sweet summer child

>>29337814
>suicide hotline and get actual tangible help
you mean jew drugs that shrink your brain lol

>>29347277
Okay that's great, i dont know why you brought up white society, but what about brown people killing themselves?

>>29347293
Every night I pray for a big butt big tit 10/10 gf but I always end up sleeping alone

>>29347283
I grew up in a national park and I am 24 you boomer.
You don't have to take my word for it but you are right about me wanting to go out with the least amount of pain like throwing myself from a mountain.
Still fighting a wild animal sounds more dope than just hanging oneself.

Hey fags, post videos, this isn't a fucking support groupl

>>29341080
addiction definitely affects the lives of others, not just the addict

>>29337793
>I know fuckers who have been homeless at 40
What's their physionomy and frame? The average beta incel can't do anything more than wageslave at a low end job at best. If they went homeless they'd become a junkie and die. Literally don't have the testosterone to survive without someone protecting them. That's why they neet at home.

>>29337820
Wow you were suicidal but had a good family and people you loved so you weren't suicidal at all!

Fucking faggot

>>29339202
FUCK OFF GLOWIEEEEE

>>29346997
>I want this life to be over, I am not a leech to society, but I want this all to end. Planned to die by throwing myself or fighting some wild animal to death I am not joking.
I am not joking when I say you do not have the mental constitution to throw yourself off of anything, let alone fight something stronger than you. You will run in both cases. Your fantasies are just so, little escape hatches for your stress that don't even accomplish their goal. I bet you do despise your existence, I bet you do wish you were dead, I bet you wish you had the fortitude to throw yourself from mother mountain or die in a heroic fight against Nature. None of those things will happen. You will wither away. It is what it is. The sooner you realize this, the sooner you will come closer to something more tolerable.

>>29346371
>The place it most causes issues is during intimacy but there are things you can use to keep things out of the way. The women I’ve been with since getting it haven’t really minded it at all. Some even thought it was kinda cool.
This is hard to believe, but I hope it's true. Nice to hear you're doing well.

>>29335388 (OP)
I've seen videos of people hanging themselves, it looks very bad. I wouldn't want to die this way.
Either way, you probably shouldn't do it cause it's a stupid idea. But if you do it: don't hand yourself. That's just my thought, though. Do whatever you want.

>>29337549
Why would you have kids asshole

>>29347352
Already did fight things that are stronger than me.
But I do wish my existence to be over.
This is my first message in a long time so I did not come here to brag or make myself the macho man.
I wish all the best existence life has to offer cause for me it isn't.

>>29344354
The alternative is ass rape in jail

>>29340392
I don't desire what there is to be had

>>29341044
This was so gay I don't belive you were in the military

>>29343306
>make sure you keep your lust pure...for some reason, that works.
What so you mean by this

>>29342650
I wish I was white so much so I could have such a puppy dog view of humanity

>>29342775
I hate fake suicidal faggits like you

>>29345987
Stop patronizing him, pal

>>29347040
>peak of a human's intelligence which is 23-25
No it's not.

>>29347352
God is gay

>>29335388 (OP)
Wow I forgot I was on gif and thought this was r9k

>>29347291
Just quit, bro. Do some progressive quitting training and build up to quitting your job. Then move.

>>29347355
Thanks anon. If you own it, are confident about it, and fuck them good, they really don’t care. Unless I’ve just gotten lucky, but it’s been quite a few women and none have brought it up as a problem.

>>29346947
I’d love to hear your experiences then. Ever deal with this kind of shit yourself? Please enlighten me about how my experience and knowledge of the situation is wrong.

Hey there! I'm a 21-year-old girl living in the US, and I absolutely love to get wild during those late-night chats. I’m curvy and confident, and I seriously enjoy teasing guys to see how far I can push them while having a blast. I’m always down to explore the naughtier side of things (total flirt alert), but I struggle with some social anxiety, which makes meeting people in person tough. That's why I’m all about those fun, spicy chats! If you're looking for someone to share those steamy moments with, hit me up. Add me on the messaging app, but make sure to remove any spaces or dashes in my username: Em-mi-bl o k-z. Can’t wait to chat!

>>29335388 (OP)
>>29335946
Suicide is a mindset and your heads in the gutter, you've made committing suicide a personality trait instead of actually ending your life which even if you do, your faggot ass ghost will wander the afterlife trying to find a way to double kill yourself because thats just how much of a fag you are.
You just want to glamorize killing yourself so you made a thread two days in advance. if you weren't a faggot you'd have already done it, instead you want to watch videos of other people killing themselves so you can project onto them, because its more of a fantasy than something you actually want to do. Go fuck yourself.

>>29346371
Absolute blind shot but you're not a ukranian living in Germany are you? Got an old friend like that I need to apologise to.

>>29347774
Nah I’m American. I wish you luck finding him man.

>>29335388 (OP)
IT'S SUNDAY, OP
ARE YOU GONNA DELIVER OR BE IMMORTALIZED AS A FAGGOT FOR ALL ETERNITY!?

Heroin might be the answer. Ancient fag here (55) I was fucked up and depressed about everything in my life 22 years ago I was feeling suicidal and I was homeless. Instead of killing myself I decided to roll the dice and see if I could overdose. Instead of dying I ended up being a total wreck of a human being... But holy shit did I get laid. I'm not good looking, but I managed to get with 9 girls in eight months. Fine ass bitches. Eventually I got married but continued shooting speedball s. After 13 years of seriously insane IV drug use I did a shit load of mushrooms (18g of dessicated PF) and decided to quit shooting up and leave my job, wife, pets and friends. I left NYC and moved to the Midwest, got remarried and had a kid. Life sucks for me often and the psychiatrist keeps prescribing me more drugs, my PTSD is barely under control and I only sleep three hours a night... But sometimes it am having so much fun and I'm happy to be here. I'm not going to tell anyone not to become an hero, but I'm definitely suggesting that you take full advantage of having nothing to lose. Go ahead and take stupid risks. Enjoy hating life to the fullest. Death will eventually take you into her sweet embrace so go ahead and fuck shit up before you die. Oh yeah, you should experience all of the stuff that normal people are too scared to try. Shoot up MDMA at least once. If at all possible die laughing.

>>29347448
So your going to stay and struggle with the rest of us or not?

Still waitin

It’s sunday OP bitch, link to the stream? Or u gnna be a fking gay scumbag and don’t kys

>>29335388 (OP)
join the army.