>>17949068 (OP)
I grew up vaguely religious
Then I had bad upbringing
Then I self isolated
Then I dissociated as a hobby
Then I got into Philosophy
Then I got a BA in it
Then I *almost* went full christian but I couldn't connect to my Christian peers due to part 3
Then I started going crazy and read mystics
At this point I was spiritual
Then I met crazy people and did crazy things with them
Then something bad happened and they tried to kill me
Then I stopped dissociating for fun as much
At this point I was agnostic
Then I argued with Christians constantly
At this point I became atheist
This all spanned around 15-20 years of my life. Hope that helps.