>>7649391 (OP)You don't understand, that is what talent is, the art process is enjoyable, it's like pushing a beautiful rock(your art) up a mountain, drop it into the lava, and hope for it to magically become a dragon, most of the time it does not, and you do it all over again, and again, keep pushing the rock up and toss it into the mountain, feeding the hungry art God. It is an impulse, I feel I need to, do you understand, if I NEED art. 90% of what I do is art, even when I dream I dream of beautiful woman and worlds of the wildest imagination, even while dreaming within my dream, I am studying art. And the moment i wake up, i write about my dreams. This thing inside of me is relentless, I used to do 12 to 16 hours a day of art, draw, paint and sculpt. But age have caught up with me, this is the Asian genes, this is what you can't gain. I don't even need friends because I got art, it is a bad thing, you need a woman to balance you out, especially if you are a young man, don't only pursuit art, pursuit woman too, don't be retarded like me. Now I'm too old, and do not have a family of my own, and I have nothing to show for. Art is my noble pursuit, even if i fail, i continue. Can't stop wont stop. Here is my current art.