>>7706089 (OP)
A couple of weeks ago it finally clicked for me to just keep on drawing and enjoying it without thinking about timeframes, 'getting better' and so on. I've been drawing on and off for 10 years with pauses as long as 5 years, picked up drawing again late july this year and haven't stopped since. By the end of august every time I thought about drawing my tummy filled with excitement, the same sort of excitement I felt when I was 10, waking up and running to my computer to play Oblivion. (I still play it to this day and it still fills me with joy).
I stopped caring about bad drawings, and instead started appreciating them instead. Every shit drawing is just another step for me to becoming better.
And the biggest eureka/takeaway moment for me was that getting good (I define 'good' as a point in your art journey when you're confident enough you can draw whatever you like with or w/o reference and the result satisfies YOU. That's the main criteria. Your art must satisfy YOU first and foremost.) takes a lot of time and practice. My current aim is 2 years of consistent practice, if I'm not 'good' in 2 years time I'll just extend it indefinitely, because I really fucking love drawing, lmao.