>>7746625
>having trouble with individuation
Yeah, I think that's not entirely uncommon for very isolated people. It'd be nice if treatment for psychological problems was free everywhere.
>>7746643
Now this is just sad. Pushing people away is also something you do for the sake of self-preservation if you've had bad experiences.
>Seeing other people comfort each other makes me nauseous
Is it because there's no one to comfort you?
>People keep each other in line through fear and intimidation
Are you intimidated by people? Or do you feel that you need to be scary and intimidating to keep yourself safe?
>The day society turns its back on you
Anon... I really hope you'll find help... I don't know if your family mistreated you or if your friends betrayed you, but no one deserves whatever you've gone through to become like this. I hope you'll find someone who'll show their love to you, someone who'll help you with healing those wounds and comforting those anxieties that time and society has left you with. You must be living in a truly dark space if your outlook on the world is this negative. I'm sure it has a soothing effect as well. After all, if the world is full of bad actors who only pretend to love like fools, who are only governed by fear and nothing else... That means that if no one is there for you, it's just how the world is, it's not that you're alone, everyone is alone and those who aren't are just lying to themselves. This really paints a bleak picture...
But anon, it can get better. You won't be alone forever, I'm sure you can find a way out of this... I'm sure you have people in your life you never properly connected with. And maybe you just need to try with different people. I don't really know your life, you probably know best whom you can turn to, if there is someone like that. But whoever it is, I hope you can talk to them about this...