Thread 7789109

It just came to me the sudden realization that i'll probably never stop seeing stuff in shapes, value scales, color shifts, vanishing point in buildings or objects... It's kinda flabbergasting.

I also can't remember how i used to perceive things before i learned art, it's like learning art made me have some kind of autistic sixth sense...

>>7789109 (OP)
I was kinda decent at art but now I can't finish a single drawing. I developed chronic depression and rotted my brain for 10 years straight. I feel like I've lost my ability to create.

>>7789279
damn... i guess it is possible in those extreme cases

i hope you'll get better, bro

>>7789109 (OP)
a week hiatus is enough to turn me into retard. it's why I make lots of notes and organize my refs and notes

>>7789109 (OP)
I once drew every day for a little over 2 years, nonstop, I had the Tetris effect for art, and I had no plans on stopping at all. I took acid and ended up developing schizophrenia, it already ran in my family. Long story short medications and not being able to hold any schedule at all made me not be able to draw or go to school (graduated GED) and that "artists vision" went away. I was 14 back then, I'm now 24 and it still hasn't returned.

>>7789485
bruh, that's so fucking tragic... i suffered with debilitating social anxiety, but schizophrenia must be shit from a butt... i hope you get better luv u

>>7789480
strangely enough, it seems like i benefit from taking breaks now and them, it's like my brains is sorting out all the shits that i learned

>>7789109 (OP)
I got worse at hands since my peak hand drawing days. I was determined to be one of those artists who draws good hands, and I was, I'm still ok, but not my peak.

>>7789501
tbf hands are fucking annoying to draw

>>7789520
you should try a sessions of tracing, reconstructing, and simple copying lots hand only gesturing photos in perspective and foreshortening. I found it fuckin fun

>>7789527
i can actually draw them, it's just that i always have to put extra effort in drawing them and that feels kinda tiring, same thing with foots

good hands are like the guitar solo of your image. gotta get it just right, not a note out of place.

>>7789485
>never had any drugs before
>have considered taking acid/magic mushrooms/whatever to renew my brain's creativity

>>7789736
Don't worry, schizophrenia already ran in my family, and if you don't have any experiences with hallucinations, delusions, and paranoia, and you have no family history of psychotic disorders, there's a low chance you'll develop it or that psychedelics trigger it

Still have as much of a chance of anyone else to have a bad trip or have drug induced psychosis (usually only lasts under a month unless you continue using the drug that triggered it)

>>7789485
Belive in yourself. Keep going. 24 is young.

>>7789736
>>have considered taking acid/magic mushrooms/whatever to renew my brain's creativity
Don't. There's no undoing frying your brain, once you take that shit you're fucked forever

I forget every single day. I have to remember how to do every time I turn the tablet on and get used to how slippery the screen is, what the nub is shaped like, and how much pressure my hand naturally puts on the pen that particular day. It all changes every single time.