>spend ungodly amounts of time fearing a hypothetical situation with your life
>eventually manage to convince yourself said situation won't happen as a coping mechanism and partially forget about it
>it happens anyway and manifests in the worst way possible
Is there a single more traumatizing thing a human can experience in their country?

Yes
there are way worse things that could happen to you

Just look at dad british dad
he literally got hit on his head and his nutsack
shit must hurt

>>spend ungodly amounts of time fearing a hypothetical situation with your life
Me with thinking asking out a woman will instantly result in public humiliation even though every time it's happened it's either succeeded or I just never see her again

>>211816152 (OP)
its happened to me 3 times yeah im scarred

>>211816152 (OP)
what situation

>>211816352
My mother was bedridden with congestive heart failure and I would check in constantly and I would call daily terrified something would happen and I wouldn't be able to say goodbye
Doctor says she is stable and I start to worry/check in less
I go on a short trip and try to relax from all the stress this has caused me
She suddenly dies during a day where I didn't call her and the first thing I see on my phone is a missed call from the hospital

>>211816515
bro that straight up fucking sucks man, like to an unreasonable degree

>>211816152 (OP)
>be worried about something specific for literally years on end
>to the point of having regular IRL nightmares about it
>take all possible precautions against it
>it happens anyway
>wasn't even that bad, you get through it in like 2 days without major issue
We suffer more in imagination than in reality.

>>211816515
LOOKS LIKE SOMEBODY DIDN'T REPLY TO MY POST EVEN WHEN THEY WERE WARNED - SAD!

>>211816515
Patients with end-stage HF are very frail and can crump at any time, especially those with end-stage HFrEF can disappear within hours with an MI that nobody could have predicted. They just don't have the heart muscle strength to spare and go into bad arrhythmias sooner. It's a really sad disease. But you did nothing wrong, you were with your mom throughout her final days.
You are a good person. Go home and support your family but remember that always.

>>211816594
>wasn't even that bad
his mom died

>>211817556
that shit has happened to almost every single person who ever lived

>>211816515
sorry for your loss, man
my dad was in your shoes too
>grandad lived 3 states away
>dad took like a month off to take care of him
>grandad is finally stable
>move grandad from the hospital to grandads house
>dad drives home
>the night he arrives, he gets a call that grandad passed in his sleep
fucking broke the man, never seen him cry in my 20-odd years of life and here he is

its good that you're talking about it, anon
for what it's worth, your mother probably had you and only you in her last thoughts - she remembered how you called, you cared, and her last memory was probably thanking God for blessing her with such a good kid
God bless, anon

>>211816515
sorry anon but at least you knew she was sick, its worse when they die out of nowhere i think

>>211816616
bruuhhhhhhhh

>>211816594
>>211817660
folks process grief differently, man - thats what makes us human
if we were robots, we wouldnt have this "issue"

to live is to suffer, but to live is also to experience joy, happiness, whimsy
sometimes shit happens, and some folks brush it off but other folks will finally say *enough is enough* and all hell is loose

>>211816152 (OP)
Divorce?

>>211817835
It would be better to be a machine than a man.

>>211818129
its a double-edged sword imo
theres something wrong with my mental state, it just causes me to dissasociate when it gets too tough for my brain to handle
>nothing feels real
>no emotions
>no feelings
i dont even process physical pain, had no headaches whatsoever - it went away when i finally got a headache and i felt it