>>211885521everyond called me faggot. girls bullied me harder than boys. girls judged me for lacking masculinity even though I thought it was supposed to be a bad thing. when I tried being nice, respectful, polite and humble I was just a coward, faggot, "that creep who can't even look girls in the eyes", "that idiot who can't retaliate girls", "that spineless weak quiet shy faggot".
I couldn't talk to girls. I couldn't look at girls. I thought being 10m near a girl was sexual harassment. I thought smiling at girls was a sign of shameful horny dickbrained toxic masculine manipulative behavior. My whole fucking existence was just to prove that I am not predatory, not perverted, not harassing, not bigot, not sexist, not toxic masculine, not patriarchal and not anti-feminist. I stayed away from girls. I didn't talk to girls because ASSUMING they want to endure my creepy evil wrongful sinful XY existence was prejudice and toxic masculinity. I politely rejected and declined every small nice things girls even bothered to give me because I had to be a nice good safe gentle respectful feminist. I never deliberately did anything nice to girls unless the circumstances required me to, because ASSUMING your little moid fantasy nice gesture would force them to owe anything to you is toxic and wrong and perverted and evil.