are you also getting raped by life in your country?

>>212342605 (OP)
Not really, I got a second chance at 28

>>212342605 (OP)
Yeah but the worst part is it's entirely my fault so I can't even blame anyone else. Got kicked out of the military two years back for using drugs and have been shifting from security gig to call center until quitting my last job out of a moment of rage at a supervisor and now I haven't been able to find any work in two months (mostly because every job that would hire me drug tests and I'm never going to give that up). If I can't find any work by the end of July, I'll probably put a bullet in my skull out of embarrassment. Should've done so years ago honestly.

>>212342605 (OP)
I am raping myself by littering my room with hoarding ocd that I don’t own.. hope I can keep it next school year cuz.. I’m probably raped (no commieblock inheritance)

>>212342605 (OP)
Yes, and the worst part is that it all happened in the background while I was busting my ass in college. I don’t even care anymore. I have developed learned helplessness from it all because fate cucked me for shits and giggles.

>>212342605 (OP)
Yes. I got screwed over by work and laid off at the worst possible time, after tons of other companies have been doing layings too. I probably won't find a job for 6 months to a year, and will be forced to go to a shittier job field with worse pay and benefits.

>>212342674
Just stop doing drugs. Problem solved.

>>212343214
>Just stop doing drugs. Problem solved.
Nah, I'd rather kill myself. Life isn't worth living without them.

>>212342605 (OP)
At least you don't have to watch your hometown where generations of your ancestors lived being turned into a disgusting, noisy, run-down shithole full of pajeets and Ahmeds. I must have sinned in a past life to be experiencing this hell.

>>212343272
The drugs are destroying your life already. No need to speed up what they are already doing, faggot.
Life isn't worth living WITH them. I never understand people who just have to fuck their brain up on a daily basis. Is having a sober mind that terrible? You're just too much of a bitch to get through the withdrawal symptoms and kick that shitty habit.

>>212343339
You were reincarnated from an English soldier who fought da nazis.

>>212343272
life is worth living but you are too much of a bitch to realize that

>>212342605 (OP)
honestly yeah
>finished college
>renting is too expensive, decide to stay home
>"i'll stay a couple years then i'll move out"
>my parents asks me for money monthly, do errands for them on my day off, devote my entire life towards my job and my parents ergo no social life of my own
i graduated at 21, i'm 27 now and i resent them for holding me back

>>212342674
dont do it anon
if you come clean you will turn your life around
you literally just said that it’s only the drugs holding you back

>>212343422
>>212343480
There's nothing worthwhile about life without drugs and I know that for a fact.

>>212343595
>and I know that for a fact
that's called withdrawal syndrome moron
it's not part of a normal life
only you and jordan pertersaan experiences that shit

>>212343650
Giving up drugs would be giving up the only love I've ever found in my life and I won't do it. I'd rather it kills me and it will sooner than later. I'm not asking for pity or advice, just stating facts. I don't care how you feel about me.

>>212342674
You are going to get through this anon. Do not give up.

>>212342605 (OP)
It did, 2-3 years ago. It got better.
One day at a time anon.