Thread 212454191

why are you so lonely bro

>>212454191 (OP)
Severe (diagnosed) autism, social anxiety and a general dislike of being among people.

>>212454191 (OP)
Because I'm 29 and single and I've never really dated. Just kept telling myself "it's not the right time" or "once I get my shit together". Now all these years have gone by and I'm nearly 30 and feel more alone than ever and it's hitting that I've wasted all my youthful years

No job because I went to a university in shitty Westoid country
No Job
No Money
So called "friends" abandon me
Women avoid broke males like the plague

>>212454191 (OP)
one, something wrong with me

>>212454348
I say and do this, except I don't feel so bad about it

>>212454308
W

>>212454308
How much is your neetbux bro?

I'm ugly and tistic

>>212454191 (OP)
No girlfriend
No friends

>>212455085
I got perma-bux so I get around €1600 in total plus full senior benefits (cheap public transport, medication, senior discounts in most shops etc).

>>212455188
This except the other way around

>>212454348
Wow, I am walking the same path. Nice to know my future

>>212454191 (OP)
>alone but not lonely
i have friends but they're far away

>>212454191 (OP)
I'm just not normal and it's very hard for me to connect with people on an intimate level. The few I have connected with already have their own friend groups that they'd rather spend time with so any friendships I make at this point in my life are temporary. I've accepted the fact I'll probably spend the rest of my life alone. It sucks but there are worse fates to have.

>>212454191 (OP)
You refuse to be my friend

>>212454191 (OP)
It’s cheap. People cost money with not much return.

>>212454191 (OP)
Can't find people with common interests that I can hold a conversation onto.

>>212454191 (OP)
i cant afford dating

>>212454191 (OP)
girl texted me and said she wants me to lick her pussy, I'm going to get performance anxiety

you made me this way

>>212454191 (OP)
too smart and well read

>>212454467
yet

>>212454191 (OP)
I’m just a loser. I have no ability to talk to woman, no ability to make friends. I have major trust issues and I can’t open up to anybody. I can’t even pin it on a mental condition. I don’t have autism, ADHD, or a personality disorder. None of that. I just fucking suck. I run away from the world, run from adventure, run from responsibility. I make myself as isolated as possible and writhe in lonesome agony. I would say that I hate myself, but I don’t even recognize myself. I look in the mirror and see the face of a stranger. I am vastly more dead than I am alive. I have no hope or optimism for myself or the world. I don’t have plans to kill myself, but that’s probably where my road ends one day. But I’m scared

>>212456537
It's super easy bro
Focus on the clitoris, communicate with her, be rhythmic and repetitive once you know what she likes

I think you know. I'm so autistic that I went to a strip club recently and still was neurotic when groping the stripper. Idk I just cant chill out man

i am the main karakter

>>212454191 (OP)
i'm low iq and boring

The only people who ever text me is my mom and my dad. I am soon to be 28.

>>212454191 (OP)
i think only being on 4chan and nothing else has made me develop this innate deep desire for the human race to be expunged and sent into eternal torment and since i cannot enact thisbut know this will come about materially via progressign capitol systems and artifiscial environements it makes me ver ypassive

>>212459707
I don’t think that will happen fast enough for us to enjoy the schadenfreude, sadly

>>212458018
nope, that would be me. i can make you my sidekick if u want

>>212454191 (OP)
Completely incapable of opening up or building relationships with people

>>212456537
A sex haver friend once told me that using his tongue to write up the alphabet worked really well, so do that

>>212455884
>i suffer is sweden
Man i have every mental disorder you have but i have to wageslave. I svffer in my country

>>212459968
I relate to that image you posted except I’m not a shadowman with glowing red eyes

>>212459968
I want to discuss my feelings with others
they just don't want to hear it

>>212454191 (OP)
I’m not going to go into a lot of detail but I was molested by my cousin twice when I was a kid. Trying to tell others what happened only brought more pain. So I learned from a young age that nobody could be trusted. I’ve been isolating myself for my whole life. I have no ability to form trusting relationships. I am all alone and it’s hell.

I said some shit

>>212454191 (OP)
I uniroincally started dating a girl recently.

>>212454191 (OP)
I work remotely (finally got a job though)
Live with my parents
Have no childhood friends nearby

This place is my only form of socialization
It's a lonely world but I don't think there's anything bad with being alone, just that sometimes I wish I had some close ones that I could speak or share some memories with. I could try to move away but I don't know what I would do

>>212456537
>Eating pussy
Absolutely fucking disgusting

>>212454191 (OP)
got used to it and now i don't care about the company of women, also most people don't even care about my interests or hobbies, they just want money or influence, glad i got nothing like that, helps filter out the fake people.

>>212460402
Same except it was my older brother. It's probably what made me so spergy

Im not lonely, the opposite actually. I wish I could be alone. But Im stuck living with my parents like a trve greek. The best year of my life was when I had no human contact except superficial public ones like "thank you" when someone makes way.

I will emulate that year again, and I will finally be happy.

>>212454191 (OP)
I have trouble taking to people, diagnosed autistic, extremely shy. I wish there was a cure to this shit.

>>212460402
There's not much other people can do for you other than give you some moral support if you wanted to sue your cousing or bring the case to justice. I know it's anything but easy to do that alone but isolating yourself from the rest of the world is not the right way to go about it and will only hurt you more in the long term. There are loving and trusting people out there but you have to try to be approachable too.

If you got a family to do that to you you probably got unlucky and got a troubled family. Just don't let that affect your view on people in general, you have you pull yourself out of that hole

>>212461229
>a family
*a family member

>>212454191 (OP)
Small dick and autism

>>212454191 (OP)
I live in the middle of nowhere for a reason.
The internet is enough social life for me.

>>212461557
fuck man that pic made me melancholic...what a strange life

>>212461694
Is it the "retro" filter? I like that one.

>>212461557
what's your job? is it remote?

>>212461772
I work for a webshop a family member runs. All remotely. Mostly inventory but also sales and advertisement from time to time.

>>212454191 (OP)
i have a gf but im still always lonely. a rough childhood has just fucked up my head. sometimes i just think of escaping from this life

>>212461740
nah, that is the weak part because it's too dark on black. very hard to explain the feel. a picture speaks a thousand words type thing.
the air from the river, a lonely house, empty chairs, mountains, dusk, tress getting darker, anon from the other side of the world posting in the lonely thread and so on and so on.

>>212460860
I'm sorry that happened to you anon. It's a terrible thing.
>>212461229
>you have you pull yourself out of that hole
I know. I'm trying but it's hard. I'm scared of getting hurt again.

>>212461903
I get it. /int/ can be like that sometimes. That's why I love the photo threads the most.

>>212454191 (OP)
idk prolly social anxiety or smth

>>212454191 (OP)
I'm not.
Due to undiagnosed schizoid behavior.

>>212457733
kek

>>212457733
>You can touch me
>O-ok
>*Grabs her boobs awkwardly*
>*Dick goes soft because I'm too nervous*
>C-could you suck it again to make it hard?
>Sure.
>*She rides it for 20 minutes while I awkwardly grope her*
>I'm tired *hops off*
>*Dick is soft as fuck*
>S-sorry, it's not you. You're gorgeous, it's just that... I don't know. I'm a piece of shit. Shall we try it again
>You have ten more minutes
>Shit, forget about it

>>212463307
4chin is getting too relatable these days kek

I don’t have anything to discuss with people

>>212454191 (OP)
Guilt ridden between fucking off to the big city and leaving my elderly folks behind or staying isolated in their village but nearby.

I did fuck off for many years and partied and fucked around to my heart's content, always missed them and hated seeing them get old, now that I'm back I'm seeing my life slowly slip through my fingers as if I were gripping sand.

By all logic I should leave and spend my 30s in the big city, finding myself a woman again, etc... but the guilt is tearing me apart.

I guess I just wasn’t made for these times

>>212457733
If you're an akward autistic fuck what are you doing going to a strip club alone

>>212464753
"Just go outside, bro"

>>212463878
Can't you just visit sometimes? Being close to your family is fine but as long as they are cared for I don't see the problem with leaving them to their own. If they feel lonely they should get a pet or something

>>212454191 (OP)
I blame my parents and the fact I'm in a wheelchair

>>212465049
Based wheels

>>212457211
Go to a therapist

>>212464940
They're in their mid 60s, might have about 5-10 years left to live.

>>212463307
Brutal, but understandable

>>212463307
Eh it wasnt this bad. Its just she was shaking her ass right in front of me and I felt akward grabbing her ass. Never done it beforehand
I wish hookers here were cheap so I could just get it over with

>>212464753
Idk didnt have anything else to do, I need pussy but dont know how to get it so I went

>>212454191 (OP)
Idk