I blame all my problems in life and the lack of urge to improve myself enough to present female on the fact that I don't have a dominant bf, if I had a strong straight boyfriend to put me in the right tracks I wouldn't be thinking of detransitioning now, am I just delulu? because I really feel this but then again I have a lot of pisces placements which is the sign of delusion

>>40100365 (OP)
Nah it makes sense I don’t think it’s delusional. Like you need something to motivate you to do better and having a boyfriend would definitely probably help but it’s hard because it’s kind of contradicting. You need a boyfriend to get cute but you can’t get a boyfriend because you’re not cute. Idk anon you just need one thing and that’s discipline

>>40100392
I'm stopping E now, that will take discipline

>>40100365 (OP)
would a long distance one work

>>40100413
idk why

>>40100428
just wondering

>>40100693
im gynephilic

>>40100721
you’re gynephilic but want a boyfriend?

>>40100749
yes, I also get extremely shy and nervous around attractive man, but hot drawings of girls arouse me

>>40100858
men*

>>40100858
also arouse sounds like my peepee gets hard, it doesn't I just feel kinda fuzzy and excited

>>40100365 (OP)
You need to be cute to attract a boyfriend, and I doubt your personality is charming enough to woo someone? Or just find some autist obsess with a dying mmo and mold him into a strong enough man to care for you.

>>40100365 (OP)
Well, your crippling belief that you need someone else to fix all your problems passes as female.

As a general rule, if its "i will only transition if I'm hot" or "I will only transition if I get a boyfriend/girlfriend", you really shouldn't transition.

>>40100365 (OP)
We can talk if you want. Dont get upset when i ghost you though. I know i wont.

>>40101567
yeah, I was hoping I would attract someone by personality only, the first guy was an obsessive stalker that would not behave in a respectable way and sperged out when I was talking to anyone else, the second trooned out

>>40101747
yeah I'm stopping, I can't bet everything on ffs, neither afford it

>>40101836
too late
I also just coomed to hentai to get more in touch with my male self

>>40100365 (OP)
fuck you when i say i need a gf apparently i need to fix myself
so fix yourself

>>40100365 (OP)
>if I had a strong straight boyfriend to put me in the right tracks I wouldn't be thinking of detransitioning now
bf trying to help gf on her transitioning, no it wouldn't help
gf doomed and spiraled down and telling her to do things in whichever tone just makes her want to do them less
she's gotten better but not by me being dominant but by her going to therapy and developing self discipline

>>40102530
I can't bring myself to have discipline and take care of myself, I don't know why, I told myself that I would get a job a start laser, I got the job, but I don't wanna spend half of my payment on laser, I can't even buy groceries without feeling terrible about it, also I don't know feel like socially transitioning, I'm not a social person so what's even the point, what's even the point of me being in this planet regardless of my gender, oh well

>>40100365 (OP)
why do you wanna detroon?

>>40102830
I'm thinking it through but for now I'm reducing E intake, I had a pretty bad nervous breakdown yesterday too, a lot of screaming and crying like a baby

>>40103043
is it something you'd like to talk about?

>>40103150
Nothing serious happened, just stress and feeling tired, I'm too weak for my main hormone to be estrogen, everything leaves a big impression on me and it gets overwhelming too quickly

>>40100365 (OP)
I'll give a serious answer. Yes, you're mistaken that an external relationship will cure whatever problems you perceive to have. This doesn't just apply to you, it applies to everyone really. As a man, I can't expect a gf to fix all my problems and solve everything for me, wipe my ass etc etc. Everyone rightly sees that as pathetic. Perhaps this answer will provide some clarity and guidance. Change ALWAYS starts from within.
What you could do is live your life AS IF you had a dominant bf, and act accordingly. Over time you will change and become more attractive to them and then genuinely attract a dom bf.

>>40104075
im pathetic kill me

>>40104124
I'm dom. You have to see it from the other side too. We love helping and bossing you around but it becomes exhausting if you're constantly self-deprecating and not helping yourself. You're allowed to have bad days and we'll pamper you but you need that spark to become better. Don't say you don't have it, every human does. You may need to find it first and it's harder for some than others.

>>40102154
>too late
>I also just coomed to hentai to get more in touch with my male self

thats okay. i was just offering to be used as your sounding board. nothing more. nothing less.