I can never actually come out, I've always been ridiculously malebrained in comparison to say my sisters like i can never come out to them without feeling like a creepy male fraud fake trans evil person and that'll they'll see me for the fake moidb rained moidsouled moid i am forever and realise I'm not actually trans and feel disgusted by me. Like idk how I'd ever come out ever so ig I'll just have to hope i can manmode forever but i want to girlmode but will never be able to idk. I wish i wasn't so obviously a fake trans moid that i could at least come out to people without their immediate assumption being I'm faking it

>>40195441 (OP)
pain

>>40195441 (OP)
so real. I feel this way about most of the women in my life. like how am I supposed to look at them straight face and explain that I cry myself to sleep wishing I could be one of them without feeling like a total freak. I just feel so embarrassed especially as a giant 6'2 moidmoder like it all feels like one big joke.

>>40195724
So real, I hate that I'll never even be remotely close to what they're like. It will always be so far out of reach, and I'll never be seen as the same as them on account of my massive man body

>>40195848
fir what it's worth anon I feel your pain and you're not alone. I think the final solution for us is just manmode to cope and hope they figure something out medically in the future.

>>40195464
It's my own fault for being so masculine before idk i deserve the pain
>>40195724
Yeah I'm 6'3 i know the struggle. I have had to actually come out to friends before to get hrt delivered to them, it is genuinely so embarrassing trying to talk to my 5'2 cisf friend about how I'm getting on hrt or whatever while towering a meter over her. But it'll be even worse with my sisters they are both like very stereotypically feminine and are very close with eachother as sisters I'd feel like such an invasive moid coming out cuz I'd be pretty much asking them to call me their sister too or whatever and like they already say so much about how i do things different and don't understand certain things because I'm a boy like god I can't

>>40195963
>about how i do things different and don't understand certain things because I'm a boy like god I can't
god this one hurts especially. I had a coworker say something to this effect the other day and I actually wanted to scream.

>>40196001
It is genuinely constant it's the worst i hate how fucking gigamalebrained i am and i can't even "deworm" because the worms are happening in fucking real life. Idk I feel really bad about caring about being malebrained but just like with how much they constantly bring it up i can't ignore it

>>40195724
Fell the same altho am 5'4 i disassociated so hard i got myself into the army. Anyways i hot session ať the school psychologist (female) And actually told her i never Felt So emberrased in my life.

I take solace in my mother being more malebrained than me in a lot of ways.

>>40196128
Yeah i get too embarrassed talking about tranny stuff for therapy to be of any use whatsoever i can barely talk about it, it probably doesn't help any time I've talked about it outside of therapy it's been treated as a joke or like I'm confused and doing a bad thing
>>40196156
My mother is also fembrained and i mean even if anyone in my family was malebrained they still wouldn't be as malebrained as me.

>>40195441 (OP)
>>40196120
>>40196128
>>40196195

Take estrogen and manmode
If your tits become to voluptuous had your family a copy of men trapped in men's body
Get a straight acting bf
Pretend to be gay

>>40196234
Show them examples of successful male brained trannies (Jan morris, mrs cowell etc)

>>40196195
i hate how lonely this is, i love all my friends and family but now that this is in my life its pretty hard to share it with anyone

>>40196234
Lol this is literally my plan
>>40196195
I Dont know if you have IT same but its Linda hard to be in relationship (Even friendship) if you cant be genuine with them i kinda startem to hate everyone So IT gets easier

>>40195963
>But it'll be even worse with my sisters they are both like very stereotypically feminine and are very close with eachother as sisters I'd feel like such an invasive moid coming out cuz I'd be pretty much asking them to call me their sister too or whatever and like they already say so much about how i do things different and don't understand certain things because I'm a boy like god I can't
I understand this feel. At my last job I was the one guy one a team of very normalfag feminine girls and I kind of developed this weird dichotomy with them in my head where I wanted to feel like I was a part of their group and would take notice of any similarities I had with them but at the same time get angry when I realized how different they were from me or when they would reinforce the fact that I'm a man. It didn't help that my boss, who was both a stereotypical girly girl and pretty aggressive and masculine, would make some kind of 'ugh fuck men' comments multiple times a day. Made me wonder I she hired me in the first place.

>>40196414
Remember be careful of your actions, how you behave, what image you project. For whatever reason you were cursed and nearly every social group views you (us) as an abomination, maybe you'll be reborn as a fruitful woman in your next life.

>>40196442
she hired you to be the token beta-male whipping boy. many such cases

>>40196472
Makes sense. I was the office admin so that's essentially what my job title was anyway.

>>40196120
same because when I get told 'oh you wouldn't understand you're a boy' I can't even refute that because it's right bc I've been so malebrained my whole life. I think I've had like 3 female friends ever and I only really have one that I occasionally talk to and Its painfully obvious how different we are when we talk.

>>40196509
sorry no offense meant lol. "beta-male whipping boy" was also my title at every job until i came out

>>40195441 (OP)
Fr
I just accepted I’ll never a ctsllt be female and I am truly just an agp mef
I’ll manmode and find a transbian straight gf

>>40196234
>Take estrogen and manmode
>Get a straight acting bf
>Pretend to be gay
this is literally what I do. it's a little sad but not too bad

>>40196234
That's what I'm doing rn i won't gwt voluptuous breasts I'd never get lucky in my life i don't see the point in the straight acting bf aside from the fact i want that like why it's relevant
>>40196270
I just idk i would be less embarrassed by it if like i wasn't so obviously faketrans, like i try talk to my therapist but the whole time thinking about whether they even believe I'm trans in the first place. I mean probably not because i behave so masculine it doesn't make sense for me to actually be a woman.
>>40196414
I really struggle with this i haven't had a genuine conversation with any of my friends desu we mostly just joke constantly. Idk how to improve at that though.
>>40196442
You see i had the opposite problem my workplace was all male because it was pike fucking rugby analysis data collection or whatever because I'm so fucking malebrained. But even then like rn i work as a shop keeper and like it's so fucking obvious the difference between me socialising with the women there and how they socialise with each other. Then again that might just be I'm autistic and awkward to talk to idk
>>40196520
Yeah the worst part is they are literally just fucking correct when they say it lmao. I've only ever had one proper female friend I'd say, we are so different it's insane and what's even insaner is she'd be considered malebrained whereas when i compare to myself i still seem so malebrained by comparison
>>40196542
It's not even about actually being female, i don't expect that that's gone it's just like explaining why I'm even transitioning or why i have like makeup or my eyebrows done or whatever without seeming like I'm some pervert sissy crossdresser cuz I'm clearly too malebrained ti be a real tranny so i must be a pervert

>>40195963
>It's my own fault for being so masculine before idk i deserve the pain
its not ur fault sis, u simply has been born like that

>>40196607
Yep same
I’m a freak male

>>40195724
Better transition technology would solve so many of your issues. Unfortunately, science is only so-so advanced in surgical fields.

when you think having female friends changes anything phhh you're just stupid. i had only female "friends" all my life and it didn't change my malebrainess. you're always the guy

>>40196607
>it's so fucking obvious the difference between me socialising with the women there and how they socialise with each other
Yeah I get that but you also sound kind of brainwormed. Men and women socialize differently but normalfags and autists also socialize differently and normalfags of both sexes are super boring. With normalfag women conversations are always
>OMG did you see the latest netflix slop!
>Stacy you need to try latest socially approved fast food slop!
>Did you hear about what happened to girl we treat as a friend but we secretly hate and constantly talk shit on?
>Did you hear about latest bullshit celebrity gossip?
>This little baby/animal I saw on instameme is soooooooooo cuuuuuttteeee!!!!!
Meanwhile with normalfag mean it's always:
>Did you see latest sports game?
>Bro my golf swing is so good now!
>How's everything going with your job at Jobcorp
>Dude, check out this retarded self help podcast I just saw last night and I'm sure will make me rich and successful!

>>40195441 (OP)
legit why i non-binary cope. "i don't like being traditionally masculine but i'm also not really a girl either so pls don't judge me as one"

>>40195863
I manmode now and am not out irl. Unless I get lucky this might be the end state of things.
>>40196867
I do something like this with the few people I'm out to online. I just femboy cope and tell them I don't care what I'm referred to as and say my gender is whatever I'm seen as by other people, which is honestly kinda true to how I've always experienced life

>>40197076
>Unless I get lucky this might be the end state of things.
you and me both. I try to take some solace in the fact that I won't age like a man but it really can be taxing to just be stuck in the middle.

>>40196673
Noone is born malebrained i chose to act like that and continue to do so, i don't deserve to be even seen as a real tranny
>>40196743
It certainly helps even if you still wouldn't be as fembrained as them like you'd be significantly less malebrained than hanging out with men the whole time
>>40196750
Yeah but like i do mostly fine in normalfag moid conversations, my only issue is i don't follow much sports so struggle to talk about it outside of the few i care about but like i can still talk about them i just don't know what the news is with it.
>>40196867
I feel like me being non binary would be even more strange desu

Bump

>>40195441 (OP)
you are LITERALLY me

>>40195441 (OP)
r u ugly tho

>>40198504
I'm so sorry
>>40198587
Yeah extremely I'm like genuine gigahon material which is the other half of why I'm embarrassed coming out

>>40198647
>I'm so sorry
I guess one can cope with hobbies and whatnot but it fucking blows. Nothing is fun if one is unloveable

>>40198682
I mean i have people that like me as a moid idk but like yeah I'm unlovable as a "woman" (tranny gigahon)

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I'm the inverse of this and I feel you. There's just this underlying feeling that even if people end up being accepting of you transitioning they're never going to take you seriously as the gender you're transitioning towards (much less the obvious chance of people outright rejecting you). It just sucks

>>40202715
Yeah like my friends were accepting but like never once actually took it seriously despite me literally getting hrt through them. I mean tbf i was manmoding but just like idk they didn't see it as anything at all really like idk i could just tell they saw it as a joke