>>40208061 (OP)i do IT admin at a small company of like 15-20 people. i'm late 20s and i've been socially transitioned for years now, i guess i'm in the category where i pass or have plausible deniability but come across as really fucking weird, i'm probably autistic too. i overheard my boss talking about me before saying "she's a bit odd at times but i think that's just her", you get the picture. in general i get on pretty well with the 30+ people, whereas among the under 30s it's more mixed. most people like me, especially the guys and the one kinda quirky girl because we talk about games and manga and stuff, but there's a group of normie foids who hate me lol they hate like everyone outside their little clique though. i had a mental breakdown this year for general life reasons and ended up in a psychiatric hospital and had other episodes where i came to work late as hell with visible self-harm etc, those moments really showed the true character of people i think, some people got a lot colder after that happened. honestly it's not ideal but i make do, i don't go to work to make friends after all. i basically end up doing this ryan gosling schizo sigma thing where i just wake up, lift weights for a bit, go to work, ignore most people there, do my stuff, go for a walk on my own at lunchtime, go home, ride my bike or work out some more, read or study, sleep, repeat over and over until i can take holidays and see my actual close friends. yes it's egregiously malebrained, no i don't care.
>>40208217bang on basically.