Thread 40323517

This is how you figured out you were trans

>>40323517 (OP)
nuh uh

Seeing myself in the mirror in girl's clothes and a wig only made me wanna kill myself. It's when I grew my hair out during covid cause I couldn't get a haircut when I suddenly experienced gender euphoria and had flashbacks to teenager me wanting tits and childhood me feeling depressed when looking in the mirror. And suddenly it all clicked. None of that AGP shit

>>40323517 (OP)
i used to read agp fics and get confused why crossdressing didn’t work the way it was supposed to i would just feel normal and then change back and look at pictures of chad

>>40323517 (OP)
actually men convinced me to dress up. i did it for men :/

>>40323517 (OP)
>>40323648
I went through both of these tbqh

>>40323663
it happens

>>40323517 (OP)
the transgender movement is predatory

>>40323675
It preys on vulnerable people and takes advantage of them

>>40323517 (OP)
basically but now at the point where fem clothes just make sad because of how terrible they look on me.

>>40323517 (OP)
No maybe for you. I figured out I was trans, when sex-ed caused me to have a 3 hour breakdown cause I don't have a uterus and can't get pregnant. Before spending weeks trying to convince myself I was intersex and definitely had one until I learned what being trans is. There's nothing sexual about it for me, your just agp

>>40323675
>>40323695
SNIFF SNIFF IS THAT A SKULL THAT I CAN FUCK I SMELL?

>>40323517 (OP)
Well, I did crossdress as a teenager.
The very first time, all I did was wear this one skirt when I was like 11, and yeah, it did give me an erection, maybe because of the airiness. I didn't like it, so I stayed with the skirt on while I was home alone so that it wouldn't happen again.
It was never a thing like "Haha I'm in women's clothes, I'm so horny and perverted and this turns me on so I'll jack off in them." I assume this is what rapehons do. All I ever did while crossdressing was look in the mirror and fix my hair and fix my makeup and keep adjusting myself until I liked how I looked. I watched a lot of makeup tutorials to get things right.

>>40323834
you're just proving my point

>>40323844
> It was never a thing like "Haha I'm in women's clothes, I'm so horny and perverted and this turns me on so I'll jack off in them." I assume this is what rapehons do
in reality a lot of rapehons are more closer to than to
> it did give me an erection, maybe because of the airiness

>>40323868
MY 8 INCH THICK GIRTHY THROBBING COCK ISN'T ATTACHED TO A TRANNY BODY CHUD. MMMM I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS HARD. ARE YOU PERCHANCE GENETICALLY BLESSED WITH LARGE EYE SOCKETS?

>>40323898
>in reality a lot of rapehons are more closer to than to
Can't parse this

>>40323937
yeah i had unicode arrows that got removed :(. lemme try again.

in reality more rapehons are closer to
>it did give me an erection, maybe because of the airiness
than to
> It was never a thing like "Haha I'm in women's clothes, I'm so horny and perverted and this turns me on so I'll jack off in them." I assume this is what rapehons do

>>40323517 (OP)
Cis women can be agp too. Other than the penis, what's the difference?

>>40323517 (OP)
draw something involving a child(me) and adult(pedophile) and you'll get how i was turned into a faggot.
0 larp.
heil hitler.
it would be a true honor to mow down hoards of foreign invader americans on a beach in france until i am turned into goo.

death to america.

>>40323978
So are you calling me a rapehon because I got an erection once when I was 11 after wearing a skirt, didn't like it, and wore it a lot so it wouldn't induce one?

>>40323517 (OP)
yes, and?

>>40323903
please transition!!
I need a transbian transwife with a HUGE transfemale transclitty!!

>>40324069
no im not calling you a rapehon, just that they behave exactly the same way you did. 90% of the time the big bad troon is just not pretty looking so people say vile shit about them. consider how your experiences may not be all that different from theirs.

>>40323903
ok so you are a predator who isn't transgender. Those exist too.

>>40324100
Okay but people definitely act that way, too

>>40324545
arr slash em tea eff is a psyop

Clothes didn't turn me on but hrt did.

>>40324677
Does your dick still work? Still get random erections?

>>40323517 (OP)
yeah it was THROBBING the first time I put feminine clothes on.

>>40324545
>Literally dripping with excitement
Testosterone is a hell of a drug isn't it?

>>40323517 (OP)
i figured out i was trans bc i was super convinced i was originally born as a girl as kid but that doctor's swapped out my genitals, it always felt much more natural and easier for me to take on more feminine social roles, day dreamed about being a girl every day, and then i really started to feel like my body was developing wrong during puberty. i put all of that together figured out i was trans and then immediately tried rly hard to repress once i realized what that meant for me (i didn't want to get bullied or be seen as weird or not date)

the only time that happened was because of my tights/pantyhose fetish

>>40323517 (OP)
no thats how I figured out im a horny pervert/

>>40323517 (OP)
nope it started with wearing my moms clothes when i was 5, but i do have some autogynephilic thoughts

>>40323517 (OP)
I fucking wish it had been. Leagues more simple than what amounted to stumbling in the dark until 15

>>40324824
Wasn't on hrt that long. Went back to repressing when I realized I'm too masculine

>>40324961
why not take e and repress?

>>40325103
Still look like a freak

>>40325121
but wouldn't taking e help? even if changes aren't drastic, smoother skin and less body hair is better imo

>>40323517 (OP)
god i wish i had a bf to call me disgusting freak optics ruiner coomer moid while he in me

>>40323517 (OP)
crossdressing in mom's clothes at age of 5. I had first erection at 16 btw.

>>40325144

Yeah but after a while you want to socially transition and shit, idk, that was my plan in the beginning but my bestie wants me to stop being a man and she's getting pretty convincing desu...

>>40325572
how long did you take hrt? i've personally been on it for almost 20 months and i still boymode. it's true that sometimes i get depressed about the fact that i should be more feminine by now but i still love the changes and have zero regrets. how come your friend wants to convince you to stop being a man?

>>40325643

I've been on E for 18 months in a few days, prog for 10 months and got orchi like 3 months ago and socially that popped something into place idk

>>40323648
Why would you look at yourself in the mirror when you're pre-hrt and trying on girl clothes? That sounds like an instant recipe for dysphoria to me.

>>40325916
NTA but it worked better when I was still an adolescent

>>40325643

> How come your friend wants you to stop being a man

I was boymoding at the beginning of the school year, she clocked me in a week and has been pushing me ever since, we go shopping often, she helped me with make-up a bit and has been very affirming since the start, I don't deserve her. She's pretty fem (she's cis) and she knows everything it feels lol. We initially bonded over our shared love of nail polish :)

Why she does it is a mystery to me, my best guess is she'd rather me live my truth and maybe so that she has an other "actual" girl to be with as were two of maybe ten girls total in my promotion and she only gets along with me.

We also had romantic interest for one another at one point and we did the deed so we're closer than regular friends I guess...

>>40323675
>>40323695
Samefag lamefag

>>40324493
dude I wouldn't be looking for gachas it seems like Mr.Skull fucker here is gonna skull rape u. I would be scared

I crossdressed for cosplay, thought I looked really cute, didn't get a boner, and that was about it. No troony feelings.

>>40325916
its a disconnect between what you expect to feel and what you actually feel

>>40323564
Legit
When I dressed for the first time post twink death I broke down so hard.
When I was an underweight twink teen I somewhat passed with minimal effort. Me at 28 though, post twink death plus seven years was a nightmare to see in the mirror.
I feel better now 3 years post HRT and after putting a lot of effort in.

>>40328742
hell yeah! glad to hear you crawled out of that pit

>>40325927
same when I was younger I would cross dress in private and it genuinely made me feel really good about myself. like a weird sense of being content would wash over me. now I don't really even own any girl clothes besides a few sports bras because the thought of my ugly moid body in women's clothing makes me wanna off myself.

>>40323517 (OP)
i think me throwing a tantrum as a toddler over being bought boy clothes is where it started actually

>>40323517 (OP)
Never got aroused wearing women's clothing

This is dumb. Looking in mirrors, even when dolled up, makes me wana die. Iv never really had a sex drive. Not jsut that but all the mtf i know are this way.

>>40323517 (OP)
no I figured out I was trans because at some point in my mind I was like
> ok, these thoughts about wanting to be a woman are becoming a bit overwhelming. I guess I'm trans.
No prior history of crossdressing. Tried all the AGP shit after I stopped repping, but it didn't make me happy only paranoid.

>>40324100
my boss at an old job was a literal rapehon. like she sexually assaulted me a bunch, relying on the fact that i wouldn't call her put bc that would be transphobic.