>tldr why am i *such* a gay faggot homosexual?
why am i, a confident male who can be controlling and assertive, sexually submissive? obviously sexuality and personality arent 1:1 but they are somewhat intertwined. why is it that im not content with a woman being the penetrator? why do i crave male attention more than (or even instead of) female attention? what makes men click and not women? ive interacted with plenty of pretty, funny, and smart women but never thought of them as a sexual or lifelong partner, could it really just be that i was raised in a female only household? does that really cause such a drastic deviation from whats "normal"? i really cant seem to figure out what exactly draws me toward other males, ive met both men and women with traits that i like but my feelings are completely taken by men, the only answer i get in my head is my lust for the male body but thats so shallow dont you think?
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>>40342788 (OP)you were exposed to unusual quantities of estrogen in the womb, making you crave penetration
I'm naturally a dominant man but like to submit sometimes if I trust the girl enough. There's nothing wrong with it, especially considering I'm a fucking beast and am willingly submitting to girls I could easily overpower and srxually thrash. All bdsm and power play is a larp anyway, enjoy it for what it is.
>>40342788 (OP)Likely because of your desire to be submissive & dominated, you register men as capable of fulfilling that role & being good at it (to the degree you want).
allow me to explain:
(1) inadequacy of domininant women
Lots of straights casually throw the concept of dominant women around like pegging and such but the problem is that female sexual dominance is pure roleplay. It doesn't comport with biological reality or their social roles and behaviors for the most part. It will never be as convincing, for the most part.
(2) relief from male inadequacy
Being a submissive receptive partner of penetrative sex relieved emotional insecurity, because qualities that are undesirable as a male, i.e. being soft and weak will be forgiven or even preferred by rhe male partner. There is no need in getting erect or in satisfying a woman sexually, which is notoriously difficulty. The fulfillment comes from fulfilling male desire and being the object of desire.
(3) sexual behavior reinforcement
Simpler but less talked about, investing time and energy into being with one sex tends to be self reinforcing. You form a base of knowledge and various sexual and romantic habits. You display your sexual preferences and behaviors unconsciously and are subject to sexual selection by women. All of this keeps you in a cycle of pursuing male partners.
4. Neurobiological rewiring
Probably the weakest factor but if you're used to receiving male penetration as a submissive partner your body is going to associate that behavior with pleasure. Many gay men or trans women who only bottomed for men for a signifigant length of time, (particularly if they lost their virginity that way, and never had heterosexual sex) will experience numbness or inability to orgasm if attempting penetration themselves.
Tl;dr basically you have submitted to men so many times and had your prostate mashed by their cocks so that it's molded you into a faggot bitch for men and that isn't often reversible.
>>40342940if this was true, conversion therapy would work as long as you're naturally sexually submissive
>>40342982for the reasons above it can work only in the homosexual way )))
>>40342987> in the homosexual wayyou mean going from straight to gay?
>>40342992okay yeah because I think you're actually right... I'm bisexual and (sexually) submissive, but nowadays I only seek out men for the reasons you listed above.
Female attention is so...vanilla, it's always the same "I will check you out the moment I think you are not noticing" followed by severe scrutiny, meanwhile men accept you fully(when they do), they admire you openly.
