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QOTT: do you have any trans relatives? if you do, how do you cope?
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>>40414809 (OP)
No trans relatives, but my dad left my mom when I was a toddler because he wanted to be with another man.
I don't even remember his face.
Maybe that has something to do with how I ended up?

It's ok to be a feminine man.

why can't you simply be a no-hrt passoid?

I WISH I WAS A WOMAN

Is the tranny gene real? if a troonbrain has no known relatives with the troonbrain, does that mean the troon gene is a defect?

>>40414809 (OP)
take your HRT, retards

>>40414809 (OP)
> QOTT: do you have any trans relatives?
Yeah, my cousin (mtf)

> if you do, how do you cope?
I haven’t seen her post-transition

>>40414898
And be a gross creature

>>40414941
you're already a gross creature

>>40414945
Be a gross creature that stands out

I’m not even a trans hrt repper I’m just a moid on hrt
No gd no female soul no nothing no life no personality
Just dead corpse

>>40415009
Same

I deserve to be tortured for being faketrans

>>40414863
because i'm stupid and retarded and ugly and i should fucking die die die die

>>40414863
Some can temporarily. I totally could've as a teenager

stalking my old discord friends on twitter again
cant talk to them because i had a crash out and ruined everything
they didn't really like me anyways but i still miss them
they were my only social life for years
why am i such a disgusting person

>>40415256
I do this too but I just silently stop talking to the group chat one day
They all seem happier and succeeding in their life and transition
I’m just stuck here. Nothing but envy and self hatred

i deserve to be tortured for no reason at all

>>40415275
funny how most of my discord friends trooned out after we met
out of 5 guys 4 trooned out lol
my negativity got to them eventually tho
now im alone again
they're unironically the only people ive missed in my entire life, i could be myself around them
but i had to ruin it

>>40414863
>why can't you just naturally look like a woman bro
men with long hair and shaved legs don't become women, they become men with long hair and shaved legs

biggest specific thing holding me back is having huge shoulders and narrow hips, which is pretty par for the course for a man with a male skeleton

>>40415653
i had one then he transitioned and now he hates me

>>40415704
why do trannies turn on their repper friends. seems like a common thing.

>>40415828
to be fair it was deserved since in hindsight i was a complete and total bitch to him and i should never have tried being friends with him in the first place

I look like this.

>>40415563
You are lucky
Im still not myself

can someone tell me i'm not trans and im' just an agp moid who shoudl become canno nfodders and die in a war

>>40416267
No
Nobody can tell you that

>>40416283
why i'm sure there are evil people lurking here who will be happy to do that

>>40416267
Instead of dyign in a war agp moids like us should just coomermaxx
fvck the govahment n shiet, life is shit might as well get whatever little fun is left for us

I’m not even agp or trans or a woman or anything but a wrong human being
I deserve to die for trying to transition with no thought or pathos behind it or need or care or want
It’s actually not eve fetish
It’s nothing
Xerox of a xerox of a desire.
I am a void and needed to fill it with something. Trannyism was just the one thing available

is uma musume any good
i hate gachas but I need to distract myself with something

>>40416492
i would hate myself for cooming more than i do already
>>40416549
tghis

>>40414809 (OP)
Step sister. Its sick

>>40416667
U should just neetmaxx or parasitemaxx or something
take it out on the world (just not in the trooning way)

>>40416796
that's retarded and i don't want to do that i'd rather be rich of my own accord

if i'm being 100% real here, I don't want to be a woman of flesh and bone. If I could pick, I'd rather be a living doll. Beautiful and unchanging, no need to eat, drink or sleep.
I'd build a little cult around myself where my disciples would worship me and treat me like a princess while I'm just NEETing in some basement playing vidya all day and occasionally ordering them to do stuff for me (because a doll walking around in plain daylight wouldn't be a very good idea).
But alas, I must be a filthy human...

i just want to be a cishet woman

>>40416853
maybe you should kig but be careful not to upset the kig tranny who doesn't want her hobby being flooded with even more reppers

>>40416971
lol id be fine if you just injected yourself and stopped being so self pitying. its mostly cis men who display some repper tendencies so you certainly wouldnt be alone but having actual honest to god /repgen/ users there would piss me off and if i ever saw someone at a meet browsing this thread i would kidnap and inject them forcibly
>>40416853
yeah seconding the other anon think about it. thats basically the appeal to me but i just also work on myself out of kig so i can get there irl too

>>40415563
I've led my online friends to believe that I'm either a cis girl or a trans girl. I honestly can't handle the idea of people seeing me as anything else, but it just hurts so much. I have trouble even admitting to myself I'm a guy. But because of all this I have to avoid getting too close. God I don't even want to be an anime girl or any stupid shit like that, I just wish I could be me.

i started diy hrt really recently and i think i ruined my entire life by repping, repping as a teenager made me a weird asocial freak that dropped from school and now i neet and have no social contact at all with anyone for years i dont think i can ever fix this and become a real human with personality

>>40418806
Look man I don't normally say this but you of all people should probably do it

>>40418806
I get you, any time I join a new online community these days I either tell them I'm a girl or let them assume I'm a girl and roll with it. It just feels right to do, I don't know why.

>>40418982
id probably start crying if they called me out on it so i don't

still repping, still going strong, i don t let haters bring me down nigga

>>40418997
I've recently started voice training so they can't. If anyone tries to call me out I'll be able to post a voice sample or outright start talking and shut them down. Still not on HRT though.

>>40416850
ok sweaty
>>40416853
honeslty i like the idea of kigging less n less id rather just get a vr set instead n be a vr coomermaxxer on the vrchat or something

Is identity something you can choose and construct? Am i man or was i just told to be one through society ? I want to be a girl but am i girl enough or trans enough? Can i learn to be a girl? Will hormones change my personality to be one or would i just be a guy on hrt?

>>40419682
man bc obvious biomoid is obvious
troon
guy on hrt
dont troon just goon

is this misery going to last forever
i hate existing in the material realm

>>40418370
>if i ever saw someone at a meet browsing this thread i would kidnap and inject them forcibly
i wish shit like this actually happened
i cant do this on my own
im so tired

Tedt

>>40419819
Maybe im nonbinary or something

>>40418370
i'm not self pitying just because i hang out here anon
fwiw i am only planning to be off hrt for 8 years or so then i'll go on it in my late 20s

>>40418806
You are the type of person that needs to get on hrt the most. I remember that feeling.

>>40414809 (OP)
My grandfather is probably a 70 year old repper

>>40419889
you can inject yourself and pretend its a mean scary girl like me doing it. i started out doing that and now im sexually normal
>>40420275
good start. you dont have to wait, but i should probably know my place and stop trying to pinkpill yall. im only checking this thread because people talked about me lolmao

>>40420543
>you dont have to wait
anon chill i didn't come to this decision overnight
i was on hrt for 3 years before i decided

>>40420543
>you can inject yourself and pretend its a mean scary girl like me doing it
nah ill never troon, its already too late for me
im starting to accept that tho so its not all bad :)

>>40420560
>>40420593
yeah i shoulda expected this lol. ill recuse myself unless yall actually wanna keep talking to me, you need a space to yourselves and its my fault for invading it. if you ever actually get the balls to get into the hobby, mention you used /repgen/ and i can make the kidnapping thing real. otherwise, deepest apologies for coming into your space and making it about me. id encourage you to think about trooning, but i know that when i was in denial it wasnt the answer i wanted to hear either. i joked too hard in my initial post in the last gen anyways, there are a hell of a lot of reppers in the hobby anyways so i probably wont notice another drop in the bucket. just dont be a shitkig and also dont be a chud and youll be on my good list. i hope you all can find fulfillment in life, even if that doesnt mean becoming a woman

>>40420685
well i do plan to actually get into kig when i have the money for it, though i'd doubt you'd want to kidnap me
don't feel too bad about attention whoring, it's not like this gen is any better without

I want to be a hot anime girl not a troon and i accept no substitute
>inb4 pornbrained
yes and?

how do i get sent to a psych ward
im not made for the outside world
just let me stare at a blank wall for hours at a time and occasionally drug me with a cocktail of drugs when i panic and ill be happy

Someone I know just detrooned. Don't know how to feel about it

AGPrepping is so kino. u only need to realize its just porn addiction and u're enlightened and then becoome free of dysphoria

>>40421029
For me abstaining from porn made it 100 times worse

>>40421053
yes thats why i accept my inner coomer and coomermaxxed instead

>>40414987
How does being on hrt make you stand out if it's not enough to make you pass? Literally just bind or cover it up I've been manmoding for 5 years just fine. I'm like an hrtrepper but yea

>>40420706
i'd do it for like a few hours max but thats all id need to get the ball rolling. i like attention whoring (you can tell because i got into the hobby thats taking photos of myself) so thats great actually. once u actually start working on it go to the jp thread/mention youre from /repgen/ and if youre still on the fence about trooning as long as you dont look like shit in kig i can take care of it for ya

Do you ever think about the fact that you're all literally not man enough to be a woman?

>>40421139
Not really, I'm too man to be a woman if anything

>>40421139
Lol

>>40421121
i'm the first anon who plans to get back on hrt later so nw
honestly my main interest in kig started as a fetish

Any mef agps here
Do you have a grs fetish. Imagine having a real vagina…hot.

you guys should let me crack your necks permanently

>peak into femrepgen
>it’s all girl drama
Just a reminder that god meant for me to be a stud not a mare

>>40416971
>>40418370
>>40419099
what does fucking kig mean i feel like a newfag but i have no idea what this means. is this something specific to repgen or something

I remembered my Neanderthal braw ridge...

>>40421861
>>>/jp/kcs

I think i might actually need to talk to a gender therapist . I cant keep going back and fourth like this

>>40418940
You gonna continue?

>>40421105
....Good Pointe

Do normal cis men really enjoy or idealize being physically large? There's so much shit that's inconvenient about it.

>>40422508
Yeah because women like it I guess

>>40422526
I started thinking about it after applying lotion today, had to use like half a tube just because there's so much goddamn surface area on this ogre body.

>>40421611
always how it begins lol, eventually youre buying a whole secondary wardrobe to look slutty in. really thats why reppers piss me off, they just arent self aware of how they look complaining theyll never be a woman when they spend so much time being one for all intents and purposes

>>40422599
I gather that most of us are too dysphoric to crossdress actually.

>>40422508
Luckily I have an eating disorder which makes me underweight. But my ED does pose a lot challenges in my life but the dysphoria is worse.

>>40422628
Not in terms of weight, more so height and frame.

I feel like a fraud going to a gender afirming care place and them useing pronouns .

>>40422673
He/him the male

>>40422678
Its like "Uh hi I'm a balding man can I get hormones?"

>>40422672
Oh ok. For some reason I compare my height more so to other men. So most of the time it doesn’t bother me too much. But when I compare my height to women I feel like a giant. I don’t like that feeling. But I can’t speak for cis men.

>>40422704
I was just thinking about all the impractical aspects that make it unenjoyable, apart from the whole wanting to be a woman thing.For example, clothes taking up more space, never being comfortable on public transit/airplanes, needing a larger bed etc.

I want hrt but I'm not trans

(((they))) should invent a form of hrt that makes you a foot tall and changes your skin into porcelain

>>40423182
That’s just a fetish

>>40423170
You are mef
>>40422673
Why? Are you mef? You feel awkward getting emasculated?

>>40422240
for now, nothing to lose

im a repcoomer
i goon so that i may never troon

>>40420747
keyed

I WANNA BE AN ANIME GIRL
https://youtu.be/00RIGf-Axfo

Sometimes I think I’m wasting my potential by not transitioning. Then I think “yeah that’s what the hons who wasted thousands of dollars on cosmetic surgery thought too”

I'm an attractive guy(so I've been told). so it's sad that I want to look like a grill.

>>40423912
You never had potential in the first place, it just soothes your ego to think so

I don't even believe that transitioning pre-puberty does anything,.

>>40420792
It honestly makes me sick to my stomach thinking about what he must be going through

>that poll on r/transrepressors showing most of the rep community is under 18
At least that explains why nobody here capitalizes their i's. But for the love of God get the fuck off of this general.

>>40425325
Yeah this general should be reserved for old people with no hope.

>>40425325
you don't treat the entire board like it's full of underage people just because 4 tr*n 4 was made by some kid, so why should the same apply to this gen?

i think i have a crush on my best friend but im not gay, i can only imagine dating him as a woman
he has a gf though
chat is this meta attraction

>>40425325
it makes a little sense that a large demographic of 'us' would be easily impressionable kids who can't troon out because they're still children, it's a cool subculture for 90% of them

>>40425541
This is me lol

well it's almost 5pm in bongland so i'm going to start drinking now. probably won't be sober from now until monday

>>40425325
i am 33.

can i post here and make bateman edits if im a weak-willed fake repper faggot who injected estrogen and regretted making myself a walking caricature

>>40425794
i mean you can post here but you're medically transitioning and not a repper. manmoder at best.

>>40425794
Do you talk to a therapist?

>>40425775
Me as hell

>>40425827
nope
>>40425805
rough

i need a dominant femrepper gf so badly!!

>>40422508
i fantasize about being a 7 ft tall amazon woman sometimes
but usually i wish i were just a normal cis woman with normal height

>>40415601
U could wear padding like a drag queen. This is a small reason not to transition

>See men thirsting over some hot girl that I will never look anything like

BROS
HELP

i feel like i will be alone my entire life and i will never find a community of similar people online or irl. i don't have severe enough dysphoria and i'm not trans enough to transition but i still wish i could be a woman during most situations, but i am too self critical and realistic to ever entertain the idea of transitioning since i could not pass. i'm too much of a submissive depressed pussy for straight women (and am not attractive enough to make up for that), i'm not gay enough for gay men either and all my fantasies with men are with me as a woman so that whole side of me is fucked up and inauthentic as well. i'm a boring shut in and my only hobbies are consuming escapism. i'm neurotic about everything and too self hating. i don't understand what the fuck i am supposed to do instead of just rightfully isolating myself forever since everything about me is awful.

>>40426409
>rightfully isolating myself forever since everything about me is awful.
Why not simply do that? I do that. I emerge from my cave to find carbohydrates to consume and return into my crypt, scaring the villagers when I'm out.

>>40426409
Get a driver's license and a retail job. Spend all of your free time driving

I think repper to alt-right right pipeline is a thing. Like its like no im not trans. Gender therapy is fake and gay made by the jews

>>40426498
Yeah but I'd be 'alt-right' even without being a repper, I think, and if I do troon I'll be an 'alt-right' tranny.

>>40426469
i already am a shut in. i just hate how it seems like everyone else has a community or social group or partner to rely on and i have been alone my entire life basically besides living with my parents and i have never been able to relate to anyone straight or gay because my entire internalized being and sexuality has always been so fucked up and retarded. i guess some people are born to be ostracized.

>>40426498
Why is it always about the Jews? I would proudly call myself a fascist if the movement wasn't so fucking racial and anti-science. And also if we recognized that *all* life needs to be eradicated, not just certain kinds of life.

Gender therapy is fake and gay and made by filthy opportunists, nevermind which religious or ethnic groups they might belong to.

>>40426498
that's because both positions are oriented around claims rooted in the rejection of real-world evidence and critical thought, ie faith

>>40426536
We're in similar positions. I've been thinking about joining a cult myself.

i just wish i had an identity that wasn't neurotic mentally ill retard loser shut in. i wish i had a life worth living as a cis woman instead of being an insane perverted man who will never be able to be close to anyone.

>>40426586
How is being a repper rooted in faith?

>>40426594
it's not in all cases, by any means, but the ones who actually base their decision to repress on garbage like
>Gender therapy is fake and gay made by the jews
are literally engaging in faith-based "reasoning"

>>40426587
there's no cults or religions i would want to join personally. i guess i already am in the cult of hedonism and sloth. since i'm a lazy piece of shit with no drive or purpose other than to consume escapism.

>>40426601
Well I mean, anon? If you look at who started this kind of thing back in the early 20th century, they were indeed Jewish.

it's so unfair being male. how can something so important be beyond your control?
why are so many men happy being men? it makes literally no sense when being male is clearly inferior

im learning to lucid dream so ill be able to live a double life in my mind every night
no hrt needed
as realistic as real life
literally anything you can imagine is achievable
take the dreampill anons

>>40426769
I dont dream often

>>40426035
being that tall would be pretty cool to experience as an actual woman; it definitely would largely neutralize one gripe I can at least understand about being female, i.e. being small, weak, and potentially overpowered by men
I'm already about average female height, though (5'4"?), so while being too tall can give you away, shape is just as important, as no one in their right mind would EVER mistake me for a girl with my disgustingly-inverted-triangle male-in-every-way frame

>>40426705
I know what it's like to be a successful man. It feels good to have people count on your strength

>>40422599
well i didn't say i didn't want to do that

>>40426610
lol

>>40422621
i never really crossdressed to begin with. tried on some female clothes as a kid/teen and i looked like shit and felt bad so i never really did again. i think the last time i tried crossdressing was like 15 years ago at 18 and i looked awful. was never a twink or feminine and i have a stereotypical male frame with wide shoulders that would probably look good if i lifted but i don't like lifting weights.

>>40426798
I'll give you guys a basic rundown on how to lucid dream:
>keep a dream journal
the FIRST THING you need to do every morning is to write down your dreams. If you don't remember anything, just write down "couldn't remember" and try again tomorrow, at some point your brain will get the memo and you'll start to remember them
>be more present (and maybe meditate)
this one sounds schizo, but try to be more "in the moment". check your phone less, stop overthinking, try to live life in the present through your senses. the more you pay attention to your senses in the real world, the more vivid they'll be in the dream world. meditation also helps for some reason
>decide on a technique
there are a billion techniques out there, but the two big main types are WILD and DILD.
WILD techniques you do before sleeping, usually after waking up 6 hours after going to bed. when you do them, you'll be thrown straight into the dream from the real world.
DILD techniques involve you trying to realize you're dreaming, and going lucid from that.
Just read "Exploring the World of Lucid Dreaming" by Stephen LaBerge if you want more in-depth knowledge about how lucid dreaming works. This is the OG book on LDing and all other books are just schizo slop.

i tried lucid dreaming for years and it never worked out. i could never do it well. only dreams i ever have are anxiety ones where i'm lost somewhere or lost something like a house key or my phone.

>>40426705
I cannot fathom how someone could be comfortable with being male unless you were like young and cute.

>>40414809 (OP)
I LOVE purple nurples

>>40426999
Lucid dreaming just made me feel a bit of a pervert.

>>40427019
Yeah lots of gaydens want to be boys instead of men

>>40427045
If I could have stayed a boy I would be fine, but I had to grow up to be a man. It fucking sucks, I feel the urge to rip my skin off and bleed to death as a meat sack on the floor.

i was an ugly fat kid. being a kid was fucking god awful i don't have a single good memory of school or childhood besides the memories i have of being alone playing vidya.

i just want to be a woman. i'm fr crying right now. it's so unfair

>>40427433
Life isnt fair, get back to the mines kyle

>>40426589
Why do u think youd be normal as a cis woman? Like i feel like youd probably end up just being the same realistically

Ive crossdressed at pride a couple times. Thinking about cosplay conventions but not into anime that much. I live as a sr8 man so i feel like an imposter at pride since i dont like dick

>>40421653
What's a mef?

I want to be friends with transwomen i know in my friend group but im transphobic . Not in the hate way, more like the fear way.

>>40427918
use google you inbred

If this detransition thing doesnt work out I'll probably kms

>>40428734
Yoy guys on this fucking board make up new shit every other month. Its not going to be on google!

>>40427918
Male emasculation fetish

>>40429055
...so a sissy

I’m a fetish

everything would have been fine if i was a woman. it's so unfair

Please kill me

Please

By dying my sins and history will be abolished abd I’ll be free from causality and I’ll be free from the past and future and i be truly free.

literally a 50/50 coin flip to be male or female and i lose. it was over before it even began

>your husband will never pick you up, take you out to dinner, then after a couple glasses of wine take you home to pound the shit out of your pussy

The world itself is but a large prison, out of which some are daily led to execution.

The algorithm keeps showing me trannieshit everywhere.

Why are trannies like this

repgen seems pretty dead other than 1 or 2 schizo posters
are we all busy larping the the femrepgen thread or what?

>>40429744
>repgen seems pretty dead

The internet is dead.

>>40429743
GD doesn't behave like a mental illness thoughbeit.

>>40429744
I think once you come here you're probably just on your way to transitioning as an inevitability. I know the only reason I'm not manmoding right now is having to deal with some other life stuff first. Not that said general is any good either.
>>40429743
>>40429824
Even if it is a mental illness, it's academic when the only known treatment is letting you transition.

>>40429838
Also a good point.

Put on a dress. Take a pic and see man...i cant be a women

i only know abt women thru japanse sex cartoons
no i have not touched a woman that's not a family realtive in literal decades
yes i say i want to be a woman (japanese cartoon sex object, miss me with actually thinking about what being irl foid is like) but i wont troon out THOUGH because for all my retardation i attleast know iwnbaw

>>40430565
i want to be an actual woman but ive literally never touched any woman irl that isnt my family lmao

>>40430584
>touched
i haven't even had a conversation with one outside my family either, none of which are close to my age
why do we think we can someday approximate women again when they're as foreign a people as remote african tribesmen

>>40430626
same, i cant approximate a normal human being, i have no real personality and i only talk to my 2 parents and most of the time its super shallow (not like i can do any better)

one of my friends invited me to a party and there was unexpectedly a tranny there
complete total mental anguish i am not white i am not frail i am not an estrogenized male i am not even close to any trans

>>40430626
>why do we think we can someday approximate women again when they're as foreign a people as remote african tribesmen
ikr. im scared of women and they're scared of me. how could i say "erm im actually one of u!!" in this situation
a few years ago in high school, i left my classroom to go to the bathroom, and on my way back i passed by two girls. they passed by me, and i could hear them say
>isn't this guy weird?
>yeah totally
i literally did nothing. i didn't talk to them, i barely even looked at them. i wasnt that ugly, i looked prim and proper. i think i just have an aura that sends off creepy vibes that only women can pick up
a woman wouldnt have that.

>>40430626
>>40431379
To me, men are far scarier and more intimidating than women, while women are easy to talk to.

Repping is like falling into an out of bounds area in a videogame. There's no danger but no progression either, it's a pseudo-reality limbo with no escape.
>>40426409
He's literally me.

>>40431379
+1 on the aura that makes everyone around you. idk what i give off but people are put off by me as they enter the room. also having to ignore being insulted by people within earshot, it’s kind of fucked up when you realize not everyone else goes through that.

everyone around me makes sure i feel disgusting and repulsive whenever they can
its been like this my entire life and i still dont know what it is about me that people can tell is just wrong
i feel bitterly envious of all the people that are allowed to participate in society whether their lives are good and bad
i dont even exist
i am nothing at all
ive spent too long like this and now i can never be normal. i will rot away alone and nobody will know or care
i guess statistically someone has to completely fall through the cracks and end up a rarefied nonperson. but why does it have to be me? why? sometimes i feel like i never got a chance and i want to cry

>>40431607
i went through that and am still going through that, fmsrl
>>40431379
i used to room with a het cis twink that told me i give off a creepy aura that scared off his gal pals
whatever fuck em im just gonna enjoy repcooming fantasizing im on the cock carousel or something as a hot anime girl, his gal pals are 3dpd fuckglies anyway

>>40431697
My dyke friend told me her het friend thought I was "weird" . I didn't talk to this girl . I told my friend I WAS weird. She said, "no but like in a bad way" I guess I need to be a more friendly person or something idk

i think my browbone got bigger over the last 5 years

how do i return to repping? i started hrt 6 months ago but i want to stop now, i feel like i can, what the fuck do i do now?

>>40431873
i think some kind of foid intuition sixth-sense thing is going on that just lets women sense repper/agp vibes no matter how we act in front of them or something
i think its pointless

>>40431966
Your micro-expressions are feminine while your macro-expressions are masculine, and it's incongruent. Act like a girl and you'll fold over into gay friend territory for them, probably.

>>40431983
This is so real.

>>40431983
fvck no I dont want to be some foids ugly gay best friend

when is vr getting good enough to live in it full time
i hate being made of flesh, i want to be digital

Adults just playing pretend

Just discovered a life hack, turns out if you drink enough, you slip into numb indifference and don't notice the despair as much.

>>40431983
micro-expressions aren't real

>>40431966y buddy's gf could tell soooo far before anyone else
>>40431983
They're always so disgusting
>>40432761
Did not work for me tonight

I used to think non binaries were cringe but I'm starting to think they are based actually

the last time i thought about roping, i felt like a massive weight was lifted from my chest for a moment

did i graduate from ideation to psychosis, but for a moment?

i checked femrepgen and theyre saying were all rapist misogynists wtff?

>>40414809 (OP)
can a passoid be friends with reppers?

>>40433649
i wish im chad enough for the first part

>>40433616
that happened to me as well. it was legitimately trippy and even my family noticed i was happier than usual.

i want to go back in time, strangle my 18 year old self, and watch the light leave my own eyes for squandering every single opportunity ever presented to me

i am the most laughable retard on the planet

i wish i were abused so i could be set right instead of this boring emotional neglect and social isolation as i waste away

i deserve death

not gonna say i have chadly genetics but its definitely masculine enough to destroy any chance of me passing
just bc its masculine doesnt mean its the good desirable "chad" kind of masculine
and if i was an actual chad i wouldn't be having troon thoughts, this is all just a derivative of the burnt out incel porn addict path, im sure of it

>>40433649
Just from lurking, I think there are more male misogynists over there than here
>>40433661
Probably not if they know you're a trans repressor
>>40431493
>Repping is like falling into an out of bounds area in a videogame. There's no danger but no progression either, it's a pseudo-reality limbo with no escape.
No response but this is exactly it

>hate women
>also want to be a woman
fuck my stupid incel misogynist rogd repper life

I've been off hrt for almost 5 months.
I've lost most of my friends in that time, turns out they only liked me because they wanted to make me humiliate myself and once they lost that they didn't like the person I really am.
Cureanon was right about everything and I wish I listened to him all those years ago... I regret ever taking hrt.

>>40434396
ah but is my desire to be a woman based on anything realistic, or is it just a fake desire from reading too much hentai?

>>40434485
my idea of what being a woman is like id absolutely disconnected from reality i onow this much so like honestly if i actually magically turned to a woman i wouldn't actually enjoy it anyway unless the world also starts operating on hentai logic

In case this might help some of you reppers feel better: transitioning is a meme. I trooned, lived the troon life for nearly a decade, then detrooned. The hidden truth is that you're not missing out on anything. HRT barely does anything; it just gives you clearer skin and manboobs. Nobody in my family even noticed I was on it; they kept thinking I'm just a completely regular dude for years, despite me being on estrogen. All you really get for transitioning is massive disdain and disgust from a large portion of the populace, with no positives to counterbalance this. It's not worth it and you're not missing out on anything by not doing it.

Terminate desire and attachment to material life in your hearts. It's all a wretched illusion designed to enslave and torment you.

Will finasteride and mino revert a "mature" hairline? I've heard there's no such thing as a mature hairline, only early male pattern baldness, but also that for some men their hairline receded a bit during late teens/early adulthood but never receded after that. So is there hope or should I just accept it's gonna be M shaped forever?

>>40434596
Do you regret it, tho?

>>40434705
Nope, I just feel that it was largely inconsequential.

>>40434731
Then I feel you don't really make a compeling argument to not at least try, since just because it was inconsecuential for you it doesn't mean it will be for others. But since this is a gen defined by inaction I guess it doesn't matter either way.

how do i stop getting emotional so much

>>40434485
Image source out of curiosity.

>>40434803
Try saucenao

>>40434803
Watashitachi wa Moto Joshi desu

>>40434883
TYSM!!!

>>40434596
>Nobody in my family even noticed I was on it;

brutal

>>40434768
It was inconsequential for me because I live a fairly privileged and sheltered life, which protected me from the potential negative consequences. For individuals less fortunate than me it could lead to much more dire social outcomes, considering the near-universal disdain trannies face in society nowadays.

The point was more to dispel the alluring phantasm which is propagated by some transsexuals, according to which the whole ordeal is some kind of transformative, euphoric experience which enables you to finally connect with your 'true self' or whatever, when it really achieves no such lofty goals. Despite everything, it's still your flesh suit staring back in the mirror, manboobs or no.

>>40434967
I was writing up a big essay on why HRT is a scam but I realized trannies don't care (They're all delusional) so I deleted it.

But you're right anon.

Not sure if I'm a repper or just a guy that hates himself

>>40434967
Similar detrans story for me.
I agree with everything you've said.

reppers won

GOD I WANT TO BE A CUTE ANIME GIRL SO BAD IT'S NOT FUCKING FAIR

>>40435649
A cute anime girl who wears skimpy outfits all the time.

Maybe I should try to become my bisexual gfs boywife

>>40434596
>>40434967
The thing is, HRT does work. BUT 99% of people need to start before puberty hits to pass properly.
If someone starts after 16, it's over, and even then, you need to be lucky with your genetics. At 16 I looked the same as I do now, the only difference is that I'm a little taller and I can grow body hair everywhere. It would've been pointless to start then.
But most people can't troon that early. Literally every single youngshit out there was born in a rich, progressive family in a first world country that allows transition for minors. You need ALL of these traits to end up trooning early, which has such a microscopic chance of happening I can't even imagine a percentage for it.
It is a relief to hear it's pointless though. It's about time I move on with my life and get over this retarded obsession.
>Terminate desire and attachment to material life in your hearts. It's all a wretched illusion designed to enslave and torment you.
based and buddhapilled

>>40433661
It's too painful for us to hang out with them.

>>40435649
>>40435653
yes
innocently or sultrily teasing on purpose?

i am a fetishist who shouldn't be allowed to transition because my ideal female body is based entirely on pictures of my mom in her 20s

>>40436099
I would act innocent
But in the inside I'm a slut
>inb4 agp
AGP AND PROUD
AGP AND PROUD
AGP AND PROUD

>>40436117
pfft
my ideal body is based on male-oriented japanese porn sex objects (hot anime girls)

>>40436152
>faux innocent whore
>agp and proud
IMMENSELY BASED

>>40434596
So you just took HRT but didn't change anything else? You didn't change your fashion, presentation, do makeup or anything? Just injected and hoped the magic would happen?

>>40436153
yeah and you're more legit than me because of it

>>40436238
how
why
>picrel
i want big anime tits (and other assorted anime girl body parts)

since an annoying tourist from your gen has been shitting up /femrepgen/ for the last two days, i'm going to camp out here. i hope you don't mind :^)

>>40436231
>fashion, presentation, do makeup or anything?
sounds like a humiliation ritual.

>>40436343
>how
>why
i am a skinwalking rapist-in-the-making demented freak while you're honest with yourself

>>40429693
>The algorithm I trained to shw me trannieshit keeps showing me trannieshit
Must be (((their))) fault

>>40436362
Anon, I'd get it if we were talking about trying these things and still looking like a man, but I'm just asking if he even bothered to try. How is doing these basic things every woman does to enhance her looks a humiliation ritual when you want to look like a woman? Like I get we all want to effortlessly look like either a bombshell or some petite pixie from the moment we wake up in the morning but that's not even in the cards for most women. That's the top 1% of genetics. If you want to be pretty, you dress and style yourself for it.

reaccuring thought on my mind that I want to transition and live my life as a straight woman but that same the time, I have a masculine moid jaw and skull shape, so I just want to be a masculine gay dude whos a versatile. I hope my dysphoria doesnt get worse when I get older, its been more prominent.

>>40436372
ok but u have something grounded at all while i dont even bother bc im obviously blatant coombrained rogd (i also dont bother knowing foids irl)

>>40436394
>How is doing these basic things every woman does to enhance her looks a humiliation ritual when you want to look like a woman?
those things enhance the looks of cis women and top 1% trannies. the rest it just highlights how masculine and uncanny trannies look.

>>40436432
>I hope my dysphoria doesnt get worse when I get older
how old are you now? there is no telling which way it's going to go desu. i fucking hate being a woman now as much as i did at 14 and it's not getting easier, but some people learn to cope.

>>40436466
>>40436394
>How is doing these basic things every woman does to enhance her looks a humiliation ritual when you want to look like a woman?
being a woman IS a humiliation ritual, happy at least someone itt understands

>>40436456
>u have something grounded
yeah, that's the problem
having a real person to look to for how you want to look after hrt is rapist behaviour

>>40436466
Did that anon try? Did you?

>>40436473
22, first had thoughts about wanting to troon out when I was 15

>>40436487
have you thought about trying straight sex and starting a family?

>>40436473
>being a woman IS a humiliation ritual
i think having to present like a feminine woman is a humiliation ritual, but i also think most cis women enjoy presenting fem and doing their makeup and fashion and stuff. i'm a dude and wasn't raised like a woman with female socialization so i can't comprehend that mindset.

>>40436499
Im only physically attracted to men, romantically and sexually. Im also not on board with having kids since I prefer to be alone.

>>40436499
if they're here posting in this thread, why do you think they'd be able to do that

>>40436485
my features would never look good fem presenting. i'm masculine and ugly.

>>40436533
So that's a no. Anon, I was simply asking him what he did, whether it worked out or not is beside the point. Which is that you can't just treat the HRT like magic juice.

The just be gay advice won't even work long term. Eventually your boyfriend will find out you're trans and then dump you.

>>40436545
>Which is that you can't just treat the HRT like magic juice.
trannies do. if all HRT does is prevent further/potential balding you might as well just hop on fin instead.

>What?? You only took hrt? you have to crossdress too
>That didn't work? Well you have to change your name and wait 3 years
>That didn't work? You have to get ffs
>That didn't work? you have to...

THE RIDE NEVER ENDS

>>40436521
You guys are always so bizarre to me. I'm a repper, but when people here say shit like "I don't want to be feminine but I want to be a woman" I just don't get it at all. I've always wanted to do my hair or paint my nails, wear lipstick, and try on makup, I don't see how it's humiliating at all. Yet in these conversations I seem like a minority.
>>40436556
Even the anon we're talking about said it did more for him than that.

>>40436521
let me enlighten you, they don't actually enjoy it. women are raised constantly reminded to look a certain way so deviating from the norm causes anxiety.
>makeup and fashion and stuff
is what their whole self-esteem is built on top of. it's neurotic. painting yourself, wasting money and time on decoration, is fucking stupid.

>>40436531
if you want to fully commit to repping, going straight is the way. maybe you will learn to appreciate your dick.

>>40436532
everyone is bi.

>>40436570
lol

for everyone but youngshits and passoids being a tranny is a neverending humiliation ritual.

>>40436576
>maybe you will learn to appreciate your dick.
You can do that by topping other dudes, its a bigger power move imo.

>>40436607
they why the fuck do you want to troon out?

>>40436576
>is what their whole self-esteem is built on top of. it's neurotic. painting yourself, wasting money and time on decoration, is fucking stupid.
probably depends on the individual but straight men are definitely told to absolutely not give a shit about their appearance and that their wife/gf will do all the fashion stuff for them. men definitely have less pressure put on them to look good, all women expect straight men to look like shit and being fashionable or well groomed as a man is considered gay.

>>40436612
Erm, the thought of being a woman make feel happy. Thats why I always pick female characters in Bethesda games.

>>40436626
true, amab dysphoria is a joke in 90% of cases

>>40436475
unfortunate
iwnbaw anyway, i guess might as well dream big
anyway why arent there more repcoomers hornyposting in repgen reeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

>>40436573
You know what, I think part of the problem is that there's a certain psychology that normally leads to repping and I don't have it. I just had the misfortune of the right kind of neglectful/abusive childhood, terrible social environment, ideological capture, people-pleasing submissive personality, and rawheaded stubbornness that lead me to rep past the point of no return where most people with my personality type transition. Probably doesn't help that I'm a decade out from most of them. So now I'm stuck here among all you "I hate women and everything about being a woman but want to be one" zoomies and not getting you at all.

>>40436637
agpoids are not trans

>want to be a walking sex object femboy when horny which is weird because bottoming makes me feel like shit because it's not a pussy
>want to be a normal woman when not horny
AGAMP is insane

i 1000% know my "dysphoria" was kickstarted from agp fantasies i had as a kid. i couldn't tell you why though. i was never abused or anything, i think some people just have a tendency to have really autistic and fucked up sexual awakenings. there's no meaning to it other than for some people sexuality is fucked up and retarded, and if you don't develop right out of chance you kind of feel like a weirdo your whole life.

>>40436672
why can't you psyop yourself into liking the male body so much you enjoy being a man? if i looked like picrel i wouldn't be able to contain myself. you retards just waste your male genetics. insane.

>>40436643
>>40436653
whatevs nigguanas my agp rogd is only here for the porny bits i cba to think about foidshit otherwise

>>40436693
eh. vast majority of men don't have a visible six pack and it requires good genetics and lots of work and dedication.

>>40436693
>why can't you psyop yourself into liking the male body so much you enjoy being a man?
the ideal male body i'd want is a femboy

>>40436702
gaining any meaningful amount of muscle as a female is borderline impossible. you are born with roids coursing down your veins and choose to whine about it.
>>40436704
as i said, not trans.

i think ill start working on vr technology to make full dive virtual reality real
this way everyone can be happy

>>40436361
I wish they would ban the spamming retard I have no hatred for malereppers but I don't want to share a gen

>>40436752
I just think ffs should be cheap, im short and thin framed but I have a masculine facial structure.

>>40436735
>you are born with roids coursing down your veins and choose to whine about it.
i just don't like lifting weights. i like cardio though. the amount of autistic shit you have to do to be ripped as a man along with betting on having good genetics makes it daunting for most men. a guy can lift for years but still look dyel tier just because his genetics are ass. natty lifting for aesthetics is pretty pointless, for health it's good though.

>>40436752
will u make moids able to experience vaginal sex

>>40436735
>you are born with roids coursing down your veins and choose to whine about it.
i am extremely weak as a male and could be overpowered by most men

>as i said, not trans.
i'm AGAMP but feel like a pervert over it

>>40436753
well, what can we do!
>>40436771
> the amount of autistic shit you have to do to be ripped as a man along with betting on having good genetics makes it daunting for most men.
strange this excuse never flies in the army
>>40436786
hot. post dick and hole.

>>40436801
>strange this excuse never flies in the army
most of the US army is fat as shit.

>>40436801
>hot. post dick and hole.
no, they don't look that good either

my mind keeps flipping between
>wishing i were a cis woman
>wishing i were a cis woman with a dick and a vagina
>wishing i were an intersex femboy with a dick
any of these would be fine honestly

I WISH TO BE A HOT ANIME GIRL WITH BIG ANIME GIRL TITS AND ASS

>>40436770
What about others, anon? What about 6ft+ reppers? What about the shoulderhons, or the skullhons? Some things can't be fixed as easily...

>>40436775
sure, my full dive vr will be so realistic you wont be able to tell the difference!

>>40436830
just wait like 10 years i got u

>>40436752
Pretending this isn't a LARP for a second how would you even do this?

>>40436812
>what no war in the middle east does to a mofo
americans are the worst. imagine having a male body, with narrow hips and wide shoulders and normal face instead of the pug shaped female physiognomy, and turning into a blob because burgers o algo. you two >>40436815 and >>40436840
need to quit porn.

>>40436883
most of the world is just getting fatter. man and woman. if getting fit was easy then obesity wouldn't be on the rise. getting fit or staying thin requires self control which most people don't have.

>>40436883
>>what no war in the middle east does to a mofo
>female supporting war because they probably won't be drafted

>you two >>40436815 (You) and >>40436840 need to quit porn.
the femboy thing is completely porn
but i want to be a woman in general lol

>>40436693
women tend to like men and men tend to like women. so no. it's not possible

>>40436693
because it's not just about body, but demeanor
if I got ripped, I'd still be a creepy autistic manlet, just one able to lift heavy objects. being strong just for the sake of it is a mindset incompatible with my personality
also I think that looks a little gross, so there's that, but I'm part of the not-gay minority of this thread

>>40436877
I'd said I'd start working on it, not that I already had all the answers... I'll probably get a generic CS degree, make a prototype and pray some rich billionaire wants to fund it so development goes further.

>>40436883
>need to quit porn.
Don't be mean, I'm doing this for you too. I have 0 interest in using this tech for gooner reasons, but I won't stop anyone from using it that way if that's what they want. Something something libertarianism

>>40436917
>>40436945
you either own your homosexual attraction and develop aap, or you commit to the repping and marry a woman. don't waste your male body. all of this whining from the superior gender is so funny to read.

>>40437006
oh ok

>>40436693
You don't want to be a regular man, you want to be a twink with 0% bf. That's why you don't take t, i suppose.

>>40437021
>t. wants to be a 14 year old anime girl with huge milkers

>>40437036
no, i want to be a 24 year old anime girl with huge milkers
why the fuck would i want to go through high school again

>>40436969
> I have 0 interest in using this tech for gooner reasons, but I won't stop anyone from using it that way if that's what they want
I will

>>40437036
I actually just want to be liked and loved like an average woman is by a man.

femreppers don't take t because they know it'd just make them hairy, bald, dickless hyper manlets. it's the extreme opposite of mtf hrt doing literally nothing.

>>40437074
i don't take t because iwnbam anyway and t won't give me a working dick and passable face and won't change my skeleton either, so in a way you're right

new thread
>>40437105
>>40437105
>>40437105

>>40435649
I don't get this. Anime isn't real

>>40437093
reppers both male and female suffer unless you're the top 1% who can pass. even then i think ftms are more cursed because being a dickless man wouldn't be fun at all. mtf srs is hell too but at least plenty of people like tranny dick. i think the amount of people who like ftms who pass are a lot smaller because a woman with a dick is hotter for more people than a man with a pussy.

70 percent of dysphoria went away after jacking off this morning.
Good i got some manly shit to do today

>>40436394
women do not need to do those things to PASS as a woman, only to look pretty