Thread 40420425

i dont know what to do, i cry every single day and I curse god and humanity and want to hurt people out of frustration.... I'm only 5'5'' and on paper you would think I pass, but I don't pass for shit. last year I had ffs with one of the best and I still don't pass. I've exhausted all of my options. for months I was hoping and praying that it was the swelling but I was just lying to myself. I'm rotting away. i don't think the surgeon did anything wrong, he did everything he was supposed to do it just wasn't enough. i want to murder my parents because they didn't allow me to transition when I first came out. i was very young and I could have had a better chance at passing but instead they said it was just a phase and iw as gonna grow out of it and then therapist after therapist after therapist who wasted years trying to convince me I wasn't trans
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as I type this I'm crying and screaming. i want to destroy the world. i cant tell u how angry I am. don't tell me to see a therapist because I've seen tons of therapists and they were all a waste of fucking time

look I don't care about love and relationships.... that is not the source of my pain. i just want to look normal and I know I don't. i get clocked and even when people don't clock me I can see it in their eyes that they are clocking me. there is nothing else to do. i hate god I hate the world I hate life I hate my parents. my parents need to die. i didnt' choose to be born and then they brought me into this shitty place and on top of that delayed my transition and now I'm disfigured and cant have a normal life. i seriously don't care about relationships or love. I live in a detached house and I refuse to see my parents and even when I am alone I feel dysphoria because I don't look how I am supposed to look. i hope a meteor nukes the world fuck god and fuck allah piece of shit allah and fuck dirty Muslims

>>40420425 (OP)
people can't accurately judge their own appearance. post pics, or you're just being bdd.

>>40420646
oh fuck you with this bdd bullshit, trying to trick me into posting photos just because you're curious. fuck off, if I tell you I don't pass, I don't pass

>>40420689
>oh fuck you with this bdd bullshit, trying to trick me into posting photos just because you're curious. fuck off, if I tell you I don't pass, I don't pass
i don't care what you look like. i just know 90% of cases where some dumb tranny bitch says they're ugly, they're usually not.

>>40420724
it's the opposite because trannies are delusional and post angled photos just to elicit compliments or, worst case scenario, even when they look like truck drivers, people tell them it's their eyebrows

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>>40420425 (OP)
bdd

need transgirl crying and screaming and farting compilation for my workout playlist

>>40420425 (OP)
>i want to murder my parents because they didn't allow me to transition when I first came out. i was very young and I could have had a better chance at passing but instead they said it was just a phase and iw as gonna grow out of it and then therapist after therapist after therapist who wasted years trying to convince me I wasn't trans
same so much same literally the same thing happened to me :(
i hope you can find peace with yourself and gets better *hugs*

>>40421212
hope you die

>>40421237
thanks

>>40420425 (OP)
of course, you didn't get a lip lift?

I understand OP. I had ffs too, and whilst I'm prettier, I also don't pass.

You have to grieve. Nothing anyone can do or say can stop the process, but the key thing is that it is a process, and eventually you will start to feel better.

Please don't do anything as drastic like getting more surgery during this time, the soft tissue needs to heal and you'll end up looking uncanny valley if you do (ask me how I know)

I'm sorry this happened to you, I'm sorry I understand your pain. Try not to self harm, try to give yourself a chance. Fixate on a hobby, find a way to cope, and the mental pain will improve, I promise. But be kind to yourself, acknowledge that you've given yourself the best chance you can, and for whatever reason the evil chaos demon running this hellscape existence has decided to fuck with you. I cope by sleeping, and just playing old rpgs.

>>40422627
you must be trolling, or you're stupid, or you're 8 years old. You truly think that a liplift is enough to undo the damage?

>>40422828
i appreciate your comment, i truly do. is there any way to contact you? because every time I've tried to vent people tell me I must have bdd which is total bullshit. it has been years already and I'm grieving but the pain doesn't go away. a friend of mine older than me has been grieving for 15 years and the pain only intensifies. she too had ffs and doesn't pass and I dismissed her pain and thought it won't happen to me. no it is not a soft tissue problem. it's a bone issue. I'm fucked. getting more surgery will only make things worse

I'm a 6'2 manmoder and not even FFS would save me

>>40422848
yes, just see the picrel
from a nigger to a pretty negress
you need a real lip lift though, not the "i'll barely lift anything, leave you with a scar and gaslight you that it was better to go conservative"
long philtrums are extremely rare among young cis women, and they are incredibly honnifying

>>40420425 (OP)

Pics or BDD

You're probably doing something wrong, you have to be positive and put in effort. Your whining sounds extremely narcissistic and mean spirited unless you actually don't pass which i doubt.

Also:
>one of the best

Okay which surgeon though??

>>40422930
I don't need any of that. I had a liplift and it was done correctly, I still look like a man. Your photo doesn't prove shit. In the photo she looks okay, in real life, it's a different story

>>40422938
yes, it's the positive thinking and the effort that is going to shrink my skull

>>40420425 (OP)
it be like that

>>40422973
how long is your philtrum? in mm.

>>40420425 (OP)
I live in feae of this.
I started late and i fear after all of it it won't be enough, i won't get to be normal.

But there is nothing to be done, we try, some of us make it, many don't, but what choice is there.

>>40422866
>is there any way to contact you?
If you have discord, I'll add you on there. I have schizophrenia so I may be a bit scatter brained though

>because every time I've tried to vent people tell me I must have bdd which is total bullshit.

They either don't care or are actively enjoying the misery of another. Humans can be astonishing cruel, and find pleasure knowing others are suffering. So they gaslight you to prolong your misery, it's shit. They can't just say "I believe you" because then you may start to feel a bit better at having been listenes to, then their source of pleasure starts to disappear