gay or bi?
hey fags, i'm gonna try to keep it as short as possible
> be me, 23
> gay panic at 11
> always had a thing for dicks, get boner in boy's locker room - when nothing helps, go back to watching gay porn, feel terrible afterwards
> had sex with women four times - no feels, could never look her in the eye, never came, le vagina le meh
> fast forward 'till im 22
> never had a relationship, only one night stands where I ghosted her afterwards because I felt so ashamed that I didn't like it
> kiss a dude some night when i'm drunk and feel safe
> worldview shattered
> wtf_this_is_amazing.png
> get feels like never before
> make out with more men in the span of three months than in the 22 years before
> women make me feel nothing anymore
> only want to be with men now
what am I? bi? is this a bi cycle? can I call myself gay? I'm objectively not a 'gold star gay' and I've been involved in the gay scene as an 'ally' since I was 15 - I rly don't wanna hurt or upset the ppl that have always accepted me the most...
I feel so confused... it's like - everything I ever though I knew about myself is wrong... I could possibly get a bf very soon, but - I still feel so bad about it, like I can hear other ppl talking badly about us behind my back.
Am I just confused? Have I messed with my sexuality and identity too much? Did this happen to anyone else?
> be me, 23
> gay panic at 11
> always had a thing for dicks, get boner in boy's locker room - when nothing helps, go back to watching gay porn, feel terrible afterwards
> had sex with women four times - no feels, could never look her in the eye, never came, le vagina le meh
> fast forward 'till im 22
> never had a relationship, only one night stands where I ghosted her afterwards because I felt so ashamed that I didn't like it
> kiss a dude some night when i'm drunk and feel safe
> worldview shattered
> wtf_this_is_amazing.png
> get feels like never before
> make out with more men in the span of three months than in the 22 years before
> women make me feel nothing anymore
> only want to be with men now
what am I? bi? is this a bi cycle? can I call myself gay? I'm objectively not a 'gold star gay' and I've been involved in the gay scene as an 'ally' since I was 15 - I rly don't wanna hurt or upset the ppl that have always accepted me the most...
I feel so confused... it's like - everything I ever though I knew about myself is wrong... I could possibly get a bf very soon, but - I still feel so bad about it, like I can hear other ppl talking badly about us behind my back.
Am I just confused? Have I messed with my sexuality and identity too much? Did this happen to anyone else?