Thread 40689447

i want someone new to vent about being a worthless cutter tranny addicted to drugs that could kill me any day now but making friends is hard

try a fucking therapist anon jesus christ

>>40689447 (OP)
what drugs
hopefully not anything too bad

>>40689454
i literally have had 3 different ones
>>40689460
the worst one is literally a near daily (think 0-2 days a month of NOT using) 7 month long addiction to benadryl in doses from 400 to 850mg. yeah i use other shit but that's the worst one

>>40689475
seems like you need a fourth or a fifth. and a fucking job interview

>>40689475
>the worst one is literally a near daily (think 0-2 days a month of NOT using) 7 month long addiction to benadryl in doses from 400 to 850mg. yeah i use other shit but that's the worst one
that's really not good anon. even if you don't do any short term damage, benadryl (and anti-cholinergic meds in general, but benadryl is one of the worst for this) of causing dementia and cognitive problems
I took it for a rlly short period of time (like a week or two) and only small doses of like 200mg where it was more relaxing instead of what I heard it does at higher doses (hallucinations & stuff) and even then I felt like I was getting more retarded on it
please get help for your own sake anon, you deserve better

>>40689487
im about to go to college
ive only been neet for like 3 and a half months. i will likely also find part time work but you seem to assume ive been a long term neet.
is what i said really that bad tho?
>>40689491
i knew about the physical and psychological damage it can do when i started abusing it and i still know today as i continue to abuse it. idk what could help as this point unless i give up starting college (at fucking 23) and let rehab houses restrict my access to it. i dont want to go to rehab but i want off of it i really do

>>40689475
did 250mg for like 4 days only and im still stuck in the half-real feeling and prolly 30% dumber idk how ppl do it so long it just hallucinated and dissociated my brain away so fast

>>40689533
very unfortunate life circumstances and i abused dxm too much and stopped feeling it (i had reason to choose otcs over "real" drugs at the time) and at some point i stopped being physically able to sleep with less than 400mg
i dont know if im dumber, i forget what i was like before all this

>>40689447 (OP)
I want to overdose you and record your death while i laugh

>>40689562
location?

>>40689552
>and at some point i stopped being physically able to sleep with less than 400mg
see a sleep doctor and try to transition over to a different sleep drug while you try to quit dph. it's hard but you really need to try, it's not good to keep this up nona

>>40689587
idk how to book appointments tbdesu and i dont think i have insurance and i dont even know how id tell or how id get it if i dont
im kinda retarded

>>40689552
that sounds kinda fun desu i wish my parents didnt restrict my access to otc meds

>>40689447 (OP)
want a cutter friend thats also got a crippling drug addiction that will slowly kill me while my brain rots away

id feel better if a boy was holding me

ive told myself for months i need to quit or ill be very crippled or die
i might try to quit cold turkey again, but the pain of several sleepless nights is so bad

i just got over a bout of depression idk if its going to come back and my arm has way more scars again but i know you can feel better and talking to someone helps i met someone and talked to them so i think youre doing right to try and find a friend to talk to and i think you should do that and try to taper off the drugs because i dont think you can get better when your still taking those benadryl makes everything weird i would talk with you op but im not the right person you need we would make each other worse

mel if u were transbian id be transbian with u

>>40690390
can make it work tbdesu
but rheres no way ur in my area

>>40690400
doesnt matter if its true love right :? (waow)
too bad im a manifestation of your lonileness and youre literally just imagining me v_v

>>40690400
Have you shaved those disgusting man arms yet narcissist-kun

>>40690477
it kinda does matter

>>40690521
yes actually but i dont think im a narcissist

>>40689447 (OP)
>>>/lgbt/sig

>>40690522
only if you have a home ^^>

>>40693729
how does this help me?
>>40694419
im not homeless if thats what ur asking ?

>>40695605
Well people go there to vent as they try to get better. Of course, that means you'd have to wanna change.

>>40696184
ive accepted long ago i dont really want to. perhaps thats a bad thing but id be lying to myself if i said otherwise

Where are you from?

>>40697397
change is fundamentally painful and uncomfortable, esp alone. Of course you don't want to. What everyone wants is not suffer, and whenever we tell ourselves "why our suffering is ok actually" we are just coping. Thats why people try to do the self improvement stuff together. Cause getting there sucks but being there is nice. Also, funnies captcha in ages.
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