Thread 40703219

i feel like getting shot in the head would rlly do me a lot of good. my head exploding would finally let all that pressure in my brain escape. it’d be so relieving
i’m so tired. idk I’m feeling particularly down today ig. for no reason :/

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i like to fantasize that i have a brain tumor that explains all the pressure building up in my head and why i’m so much slower now and can’t learn anything. it’d be so convenient to have something else to blame for my own ineptitude

yayyyy i wasted my day away being an emotional wreck again :)))
i was supposed to do so many things today but I didn’t because i don’t know how to control myself hahahahahaha

i can’t keep doing this. i’m having more and more trouble keeping my emotions in check and it keeps taking longer and longer to calm myself down when I do have an outburst. everything needs to be contained but i’m losing control and idk how to fix it. i’m struggling and upset and everyone can see it and it’s evil
i had an argument today with my parents (22 btw hahahahahahaha) and i mean both sides had merits and all but then I got really upset and cried and said something self-pitying (i shouldn’t have), which made them backtrack and side with me and it’s horrible because i feel like I’m just manipulating them :(

isn’t it crazy how some people are just born okay? like, no anxiety, no overwhelming sadness, nothing like that at all? they just go about life and it’s all normal and simple and easy. what’s crazier is that that’s most people around. to them, to everyone, the thought of cutting themself will never once occur throughout their life. like they don’t even realize that’s an option for them, something they can do. you ask them if they’d ever consider doing it and they’ll be confused. CLUELESS.
it’s so unfair. i don’t have the WORDS to fully describe my HATRED for them. ENVY. ENVY. ENVY.

Clearly transgenderism is a mental illness, u can tell by these threads.

>>40703219 (OP)
I relate too much

time to sleep after another day in the life of me and my cripplingly turbulent emotions yayyyy. i can’t wait to do it all over again tomorrow hahaha :)))
>>40708874
i’m sorry :(

>>40708994
You can apologize by shooting me in the head with a .45