>>40777822
i just got drunk after almost hitting 5 years of sobriety bc i am so lonely and every tranny i try to make friends with treats me horribly and then leaves me. i have tried so hard to live a responsible, healthy, honest life--but it seems like everyone around me doesn't try to live by the same principles and so i just keep getting hurt over and over again and i just cant take it anymore. i want to die but im a coward and swirling down the booze vortex seemed like the next best thing

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i like to fantasize that i have a brain tumor that explains all the pressure building up in my head and why i’m so much slower now and can’t learn anything. it’d be so convenient to have something else to blame for my own ineptitude