Thread 40717200

i was so fit as a boy, weight lifted and did yoga. but now i’m a fat hon who does feedee/fat fetish porn and i’m almost 30. i breathe too heavy all the time now and gave myself sleep apnea for a few hundreds bucks a day. i want to become an alpha again so im wondering if detransitioning would help me get fit again quicker? i’m fat as fuck and extremely ugly because my FFS was botched. the feedee stuff isn’t paying as much as it used to and i’m tired of talking to men becuase they’re disgusting as shit and get off on robbing me of my agency.

i’m thinking of getting really into calisthenics and martial arts so i can get that JJK female build. maybe i can crack some stupid puppygirls head between my things to feel like i have come control over my worthless fucking life

doesn’t fix the alcoholism though idk i have dementia already and feel nauseous every waking out of my life so i think that’s a different problem

picrel

>>40717200 (OP)
I‘m not into feedee stuff, but that‘s a very soft looking tummy.

>>40717253
thanks i kinda liked being chubby for a while but it’s impacting my cardio enough that i can’t do leg day and a bunch of moids barking “get fatter you disgusting pig slut” has kinda killed the whole divine feminine aspect of it desu :/ give an inch and take a mile etc

i didn’t type all this shit out just to get buried under the same retarded “DAE AGP?” “my bf is a chaser?!” threads this board has had for the last 5 years.

BUMP.

>>40717200 (OP)
pretty tummy nona :)

>>40717200 (OP)
>tired of talking to men becuase they’re disgusting as shit
>>40717293
>bunch of moids barking “get fatter you disgusting pig slut” has kinda killed the whole divine feminine aspect of it

Just publicly come out as transbian, then (even if you're actually "bi"). You'll get all the chasers off you and pull in all the T4T accounts instead.

>>40717583
duh..? maybe it’s unusual to a board of 20 year old youngshits but i’ve been transitioning for 5 years now and have been a lesbian for all 5 of them. i’m gay. you got me. i don’t like men, i do sex work because men pay well and im not taking money from lesbians because i love them.

>>40717200 (OP)
how big are you? also are you sure detrans is the right option?

why not take a full 180 and become a hot muscle mommy girl instead? or at least semi toned/fit?

>>40717999
>Draw a man
>Call it a woman

>>40718004
anything with visible muscles isnt automatically a man lil bro

>>40718004
find me a single man with hips or titties like that

>>40717200 (OP)
>a few hundreds bucks a day.
How would I get started with this?

>>40717999
temporarily detrans to make getting this build easier than then retrans because my fat alcoholic female body simply doesn’t have the torque to get this build rn :/ would take far too long so i gotta be testosterone fueled rage machine for a year or so. i’m not worried about passing because i am freakishly tall and had botched ffs so i guess i can go back to being a moid and either get here i need to be or use it as rep fuel and blow
my fucking head off, thoughts?

>>40718077
I've seen a lot of transgirls get fit or toned after starting hrt, and its honestly a great way to make yourself look more fem. testosterone can help, sure, but you'll definitely take on a very masculine muscle distribution which will probably just amplify your dysphoria tenfold.

plus I wasn't suggesting anything near picrel, I mean its a cartoon for one, moreso just to get *some* nice muscle on yourself and go all in on the strong girl vibe

>>40717200 (OP)
I'm insanely into this stuff but yeah. You should probably get into calisthenics and try and get healthy while youre still somewhat young.
Quitting the drink is hard. Check out what addiction programmes your local area has, some of them (usually the ones that arent based on 12 step) have free DBT which is super helpful. If you're drinking to forget traumatic shit, look into EMDR too, the science behind it is legit and the efficacy is crazy.
I do calisthenics and it feels great being able to move my body in all sorts of ways. My girlfriend loves how strong I am and the muscles don't make me feel ugly or mannish now I've been on estrogen for a few years!
Good luck anon!

>>40717293
>and a bunch of moids barking “get fatter you disgusting pig slut” has kinda killed the whole divine feminine aspect of it desu :/
lmao

>>40718068
my gravy train dried up quick since i had like even a single standard to shred of self respect but just 1) be chubby already 2) eat a ton of food and drink a ton of water so ur big and round 3) push ur belly out as far as u can and take a few pictures looking as big and round as u can 4) without disclosing ur trans, post on subreddits for fat fetishism/bloating/feeder/weight gain etc. with captions like “i’m getting SO FAT if only DADDY would FEED ME!” and then hound anyone that dms you to “sponsor” you for stuffings and content and if ur lucky a few freaks will jump in to stuff u and u overcharge then so u have enough money to buy food + pocket the rest

i sold videos of me eating and burping and shit and made like grand in a week, then after that i made like 100 extra bucks but my requests started getting more involved (full custom videos or more intense content like masturbating, scat etc), men started getting more aggressive and more of my “repeat” clients stopped replying so it stopped being worth the effort and was starting to make me feel like genuine shit (i’m already kinda fat so getting much fatter really fast was draining as fuck)

>>40718616
What site did you use? What equipment?

>>40718649
reddit and my phone … i wasn’t making porn i was selling gooners videos of me eating a taco bell party pack

>>40717200 (OP)
just start exercising but dont go off hrt. That will just make it worse.You could honestly probably achieve something like >>40717999 if you just crazy effort max but i really dont think the hormone will make a difference. You just have to stop eating and exercise.

>>40718659
Wait, but how do you get the money tho? Like paypal or whatever?

>>40718706
Sometimes I use you and discordias names to say out of pocket shit, because I know nobody will ever believe it wasn't you :)

>>40718756
That's what trips are for.

>>40717200 (OP)
You seem like you have a very weak mind and spirit. I think you will be fat forever.

>>40718768
I'm sorry, that was stupid, I don't do that I was just chasing a reaction, but you are a person too.

>>40717200 (OP)
just lose weight without stopping hrt dumbass
then you won't look like a man after

>>40717293
i hate the degrading side of that fetish but i love everything else

>>40719043
well i will still look like a man no matter what because my ffs was botched but that’s besides the point, i don’t care about passing anymore. this is moreso about like giving up on life and or utilizing my latent naturally produced steroid reserves to blitz my way to fitness and self esteem. more or less

detrans because i want to masturbate to it

>>40717200 (OP)
What a coincidence, i'm gay and always wanted to fatten up a girl and watch her experience what you're going through where daily life gets slowly but surely more difficult and struggly, I get off on the discomfort/suffering so much that i used to have crazy guilt issues about it. I like being able to casually tease about them being fat, and also i want to do things like point out how big of a difference things are "for them now", remind them that I don't just don't think they'll *ever* be fit enough to make it a whole mile without sit-down breaks every 2 minutes :3

Also, i like feeding/encouraging people to eat to the point of regret, pain, to the point of not being able to do much more than lay there and pass out, like i have a difficult time expressing how hot this is for me in real life. especially if the person is dependent on me for things. My dream would be an obese girl that gets winded and sweaty from reaching under her dress to masturbate... God...

>>40721057
If i'm picking your meals for the day, you are getting stuff that is on theme with what everyone else is getting, but very generous portions, i add syrup, butter, etc... if there's an opportunity for mindless comfort eating, i'd probably at least want to push you to indulge. I too wonder how bad someone's gluttony can get if i enable the heck out of them

>>40721057
yeah same that’s why i started making myself fat but im kinda over it now since i really only committed hard for money but now im not making money anymore and miss feeling as strong and fit as i once was.

>>40721128
I’m a femboy but I want this so badly. I want to be dependent on my lover.

>>40717200 (OP)
life is over at 22

>>40721166
you don'tt... its just a hot fantasy but if you do it for real then you have to consider the reality of your helplessness and being dependent on someone for lots of basic stuff

like lets say your partner just rubs you the wrong way, or you have an argument or any other normal distance-causing thing happens. Then an hour later you need help getting up to the bathroom or to bring you food... or to change your clothes etc.. you have to be really masochistic or really flexible to handle this :) not impossible just iykyk

>>40717200 (OP)
Hot. Post unsee.

>>40721355
no i charge ppl for that

>>40721469
How much?

maybe working out would help your alcoholism by like giving you endorphins and stuff. it seems like alcoholism would be hard to kick if you have nothing else to do instead. not that i've ever dealt with an addiction like that
anyway i think detransing is fucking stupid you might lose weight faster but the downsides are insanely obvious