Thread 40759649

How do you not kill yourself when every day of your life you have to live in a body ravaged by the Y chromosome.

>>40759649 (OP)
I learned to just live with it and that sadness is just as valid of an emotion as happiness and saying otherwise is a very western, American, consumerist idea on what the human experiance should be. I focus more on finding fulfillment in life than happiness, and that fulfillment in turn leads me to finding happiness.
Dont get me wrong through I absolutely love my sadcore stuff, but I find my joy in the little things. One day being less painful than the others and the like.

>>40759649 (OP)
i only get one life. i will never ever ever ever be a cis woman, my body will always be somewhat messed up because of the way i was born, and society will always judge me for it, but transitioning has af least made it manageable, i want to live. i want to experience things and have a life even if it can't be the one i wanted

>>40759688
What are things you consider fulfilling?

>>40759649 (OP)
mostly drugs and self harm.

>>40759764
Ive found a lot of fulfillment in urban exploration, reading, journaling, art, music, and cinematography. I find fulfillment in being someone who does not express their emotions openly whatsoever and instead chooses to be a stable platform for others to come to with their own emotions. I find fulfillment in the fact that yes I am continously abused senselessly but that I can take it easily and that in me taking it I can form a scapegoat, I can take what others might not be able to. A perfect example of this is I have an extremely verbally abusive manager, and verbal abuse is simply nothing to me. As this manager has gotten more and more cruel to me she has layed off my more vulnerable coworkers, who some of which have had mental breakdowns from this manager's abuses.
I find fulfillment in being there for others when no one will ever be there for me, as Ive acknowledged it to be a simple fact of life. No one else might care but I always will.

>>40759649 (OP)
Chocolate, laughter, amusment parks, family, friends, movies, tv shows, pizza, cute animals, videogames, sex, cuddling, learning, improvement, sunrises, sunsets, hiking, camping, nature, art, music, helping people, making a positive difference in the world, and... love :]

>>40759649 (OP)
Direct your impulse for destruction towards a politician.

self harm rape fantasies and weed mostly

Endlessly throwing yourself at a creative pursuit

it's okay to be a man

>>40759649 (OP)
im happily married and madly in love

im also crippled and in agony pain every single day

but my wife's love and my goddess keeps me going thru it and happy

What do you think makes men superior to women. Ask yourself that.