Thread 40778870

About 11 months ago, I fried my brain on 14 grams of pilocybin cubensis mushrooms. I can remember much of it, but I do remember I came to some "realizations" first. I realized I wasn't happy with the direction my life was going on and how I was using so many substances to cope with how horrible I felt on a day to day basis. The second realization was that I was unhappy with my body that i resented its male characteristics, I remember crying over the fact that I was not a woman. It was the first time I had ever thought about something like that. Before this experience, I was mostly uncaring about my appearance and how others processed me. I wore fishing shirts and cargo pans damn near every single day. My hair was a little ratty, and I had somewhat poor hygiene and diet. I was always a faggot, and I had coped about it for a long time because I was ashamed of it and i believe I would be hated for it (that part turned out to be true but oh well). I had never once thought about trans people, and I had never once thought I would have preferred to be a woman. About a month after the mushroom experience, I started learning about what it meant to be trans and visually researched everything I could find on the topic. After some time, I concluded that I could be trans and that I should start hrt. It took a while, but I ordered Diy Hrt, and I finally started in early November of last year. Since then, I have never felt better. It by no means had been a cure all, but I have greatly improved my life in a multitude of ways, and I've never been happier with my body. I do not regret my decision, and I have no intention of stopping Hrt. I simply wanted to share this and get yalls opinion on if the shrooms made me this way or if I was always a tranny. Mostly, I'm just procrastinating, tho. Thanks for coming to my ted talk

>>40778870 (OP)
so based
honestly I love stories like this cause I had the very opposite experience and didn't really wanna try too many things other than weed until I transitioned
my first time doing both mushrooms and acid still being very big for me in the tranny department though as they made me feel very good about myself and my transition and how far I had come in such a short time. my friends all told me to avoid mirrors while tripping but I did the opposite and honestly loved just staring at myself and realizing how much less of a man I look like now

back on the subject though, glad you were able to realize that, and hopefully you can develop a better relationship with yourself and with drugs after this

>>40778870 (OP)
The mushrooms transformed you from a faggot into a mega ultra super faggot.

>>40778870 (OP)
I wouldn't take it too seriously. I remember one time on shrooms I was playing skyrim and crying over the beauty of "nature".
Fuck I love shrooms.

>>40779017
I wonder what will happen if I do it again. Will I go back to normal or become even more a fag? There is only one way to find out, I suppose

>>40779038
Well, of you say so. I love shrooms too, I just wish I could still take them. During the experience above, it ended with me picking my guts out in a shower after smelling the mix of stomach qcid and the horrid smell of the shrooms. I can't even get close without gagging.

>>40779007
Thank you, Anon. That's an interesting approach to it, one i dont think I've heard before. Im glad you had a good time. Maybe I'll have to give mushrooms another shot. Hopefully, the experiences will be as good as yours.

>>40778870 (OP)
TLDR. But you’re not the first person I’ve seen get on shrimps and get their egg cracked.

>>40779186
yeah shrimps will do that to you, shellfish is risky in general

>>40779158
if you're happy with how you look right now then you should do well with it. for me though it was also my friends making comments about how I looked as well and how my body had changed, I wore tight jeans and a fitted short that day though, so I was showing off a lot

>>40779186
Shrimps doing God's work

>>40779112
> Open jar of mushrooms
> catch a whiff of the horrid stench
> immediately throw up

Okay, maybe I won't be doing them again

>>40778870 (OP)
> Since then, I have never felt better. It by no means had been a cure all, but I have greatly improved my life in a multitude of ways, and I've never been happier with my body
this is so real. i hate trying to find a way to word it because it comes off as very “hrt is magic and fixes everything” but like for real hrt has greatly improved my mental health even though its not an anti-depressant or anything.

>>40780792
It's only the body that makes you nauseous. Make a tea or extract from it and strain out the material afterwards.

This is literally me except i did 11g (lemon tek) of some crazy shit my friend ODd on and was tweaking for 13 hours about how i hated existence in my body. couldnt walk for hours and got DIY hrt less than a month after

>>40778870 (OP)
14 grams is quite a lot. i dont think ive ever taken more than 2 grams at once before

>>40778870 (OP)
I've avoided trying psychs up to this point, waiting for a time when I feel stable, loved, and comfortable so I can avoid a bad trip as much as possible.
I think I finally am about to reach that point and I'm curious what I should do. Is acid too much for a total pussy? Or should I just try to find shrooms

>>40778870 (OP)
this is a very interesting take. drugs do things to your brains wich can be eggcracking or actually cure your dysphoria

hurt people hurt people, try reflect on the true nature of the self and images/experiences that shaped it. There so much "I" in your post. The idea is not inflate the ego, but to dissolve it. Try again maybe and reflect of nature of being not thoughts. Look in the mirror and hold no opinions just observed you entirely no attactchment/interest/liking not liking. just be. Set intentions before each trip, not desires, nor outcomes. What has to happened will. Deeply Trust life. Have a great

>>40780852
Oh, alright. Thank you for the advice. I appreciate it

>>40780933
Yes, it was way way more than I should have taken. I grew about six tubs of them so i had a shit ton, and over the course of a summer, I had upped the dose every 2-3 weeks until I had the experience above at which point I've never taken them again.

>>40780948
I don't really have any experience with acid, so I can't provide much insight there, but a low dose of mushrooms for your first trip isn't a bad idea at all as long as you are in the right headspace. If it were me, I'd start with mushrooms. The first time I took them, I giggled like a kid for about 4 hours

>>40780948
2g of shrimps with lemontek is a good starting dose if you want an actual trip but without going too far out and having ego death

>>40778870 (OP)
based good for you

im glad your happy

i hope more positive changes are in your future

>>40781108
Thank you, oh, wise one. In all seriousness, I do know the correct procedures at the time I was simply trying to get fuck up. I was abusing it, but in the end, I don't think I regret it due to the outcome. However, going about it, as you have said, is a goal of mine in the future

>>40781909
Thank you. I appreciate it

>>40778870 (OP)
quite a low dose anon
try more

Tale as old as time.

>>40782052
No, thank you, I'm good. That alone was hell on earth. I'd like to never do that again

>>40782906
Is this common or something?

Alright, I've got 10 grams left. I'm gonna down them all. First time tripping since the incident. I'll report back if anything interesting happens

>>40784531
your abusing them. and need to stop.
you'd be better off taking like 2 grams or 2.5.
or even less, like 1.5 grams.

you're going to go to a different astral plane and might get to meet god.

i have pure psilocin tabs (the stuff psilocybin converts to on your stomach)
and i know rastas and hippies that grow shrooms all the time and dont mind sharing them every day like if they were bread.
i trip probably 1-2x a week on them.
but i dont abuse them, i just like to get loose and catch slight visuals and body high.
they chill me out.


i used to party alot when i was young.
sex drugs rock n roll.
and i have been doing the same this summer.
cause i needed to get wild to break my mold again.

i know of things you can take that will turn you into a freak slut hoe uncontrollable levels of horniness where you'll fuck anyone.

but have fun with your shrooms :)

>>40784531
>10 grams left. I'm gonna down them all
>no lemon tek
you're gonna vomit again but good luck, the first trip on estrogen is like a whole new world

>>40784584
I don't have any lemons, and I'd rather not drive to the store to get more. Frankly, I just want to get rid of them, but I'd feel bad if I just threw them away. I put a lot of work into them. The peanut butter sandwich method works fine for me anyway.

>>40784581
>i know of things you can take that will turn you into a freak slut hoe uncontrollable levels of horniness where you'll fuck anyone
what are they?
asking for a friend

>>40784581
Oh yeah, it's totally and abused, but like I just want them gone, really. Frankly, I like growing them more than I like taking them. After this, I don't really think I'll trip again. I don't have anyone to take them off my hands, and j can't just toss them.


I'm not trying to be rude, but I'd consider doing them once or twice a week to be a little overboard, but I'm not here to judge.
Also
>I know of things you can take that will turn you into a freak slut hoe uncontrollable levels of horniness where you'll fuck anyone.
I've never really heard of anything like that before. What is it?

>>40784581
>know of things you can take that will turn you into a freak slut hoe uncontrollable levels of horniness where you'll fuck anyone
uhm hot, source?

>>40778870 (OP)
This is very interesting becasue I've been told doing shrooms is the way to cure dysphoria

>>40783373
Happened to me. Asked my friend if i was a girl and they laughed. Didn't realized i was trans for another six years

>>40780948
Same same same... I always knew I wasn't ready... Did a lot of stims and GABA-ergics because they kinda let you let go of your thoughts... Now I feel like I'm ready for some proper psychs

>>40780989
Drugs didn't cure my dysphoria but a past life regression hypnosis did. I met my past life self.
His name was Silas, he was a farmer in ancient Egypt. The moment I remembered from his life was when his wife and daughter were stoned to death by a stranger.
I came home to seeing that and was killed myself. He told me in the afterlife that I shouldn't make the mistake as he did. He was just as gay as I am and because he didn't love his family everyone had to die.
He told me not to make the same mistakes as he did. Not to conform to societal norms, but to embrace myself as an effeminate gay man.
I'm proud to say that I am now detransitioned and happier than I could have ever imagined.

psilocybin helped me too. I had a trip that took me to a barren rock in space and was told it represents masculinity. then water flowed over the rock and life sprang everywhere, I was told this is femininity. I had a severe depressing feeling when observing the masculine and it reversed completely when observing the feminine. I understood that together they made life but I saw that following the path of masculinity would be a dead-end for me. I asked to come back to my body and I saw the forest I was sitting in from thousands of feet above then I flew back. that was the beginning of seeking to transition for me, it was just a spark but ot revealed the reason behind my deep sadness that I had buried.

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