Thread 40798502

>scrolling the camera roll
>saw the pics from when i was first getting hrt before getting caught and having to wait for another 1.5 years
>the hopeful look in my eye
>the soft facial features
>the non-expanded jaw
>the smaller nose and browbone
>the smile
>the goddamn genuine smile at a hopeful future

Fuck. I just had to lose it all. I changed so much in such a short amount of time, and i could have prevented it.

i don't have a single original experience... holy shit

>>40798502 (OP)
shit nona that's rough to hear
ik i can't really do much to help but for what it's worth i hope you can bounce back. being so close yet so far, i can relate to that feeling
have a haj for good luck

>>40798502 (OP)
Same thing happened to me except it was a two years break for a medical issue. I don’t even want to transition as much as I used to, I feel beat down and jealous of people who got to ride their wave of initial eager excitement before facing the reality of prejudice and alienation.

>>40798502 (OP)
I got the jaw expansion thing, but it made my face look more feminine.
To be honest, I look more feminine now at 20 than I did 14, no HRT ever.
Embrace the jaw.
>the woman in picrel has the same jaw I do

>>40799071
Me neither, sorry you've been trying it too
>>40799390
Hopefully, i mean idk it's not over for my face still but i need much heavier ffs now
>>40799431
Yeah i used to be so motivated to do stuff back then, haven't done anything really since going off it just had no motivation to such with voice training or exercise or anything
>>40799448
Idk, my face just looks so much more male now however it happened, it's awful. Maybe it's not the jaw thing maybe it's other stuff idk

Bump

my jaw expanded from 19-22 but honestly probably a good thing because before i looked like a weak jawed incel and now i can just get ffs and look like a human

>>40800660
Fair, again idk what particularly is making my face look way worse now, desu a large part is probably just I'm not smiling and have a thousand yard stare a lot of the time now. Idk. My face looks harder idk

Bump

>>40799390
why is he using windows and why is he not using firefox

>>40798502 (OP)
literally me things were really hard and i didn't know what the future would look like but i was fighting and had so much hope
and then my dad found out and kicked me out and got rid of my hrt and the job opportunity i had was thrown away so i wasn't able to get back on it for almost a year ^^
it's all over now
all that's left for me is to do nothing but cut and cry and live in my endless world of nostalgia until i finally go deep enough